Chapter two

Did I say that after the first day I felt like in paradise? I was wrong. This was paradise.

It is my third morning in Isle Esme. Yesterday we made love. I can't even describe it. Something that makes you feel that good and so much loved should be made illegal. I was on cloud seven.

I could feel Edward beside me, but he wasn't moving. Not even breathing. Something was wrong. But how could something be wrong? I felt perfect. Was it different for him? Did I do something wrong?

I opened my eyes and looked up at him. I could see the pain and worry in his eyes.

„How bad is it?" he asked in a strict tone.

I scrunched my face in confusion: „What?"

„The bruises."

I looked at my arms and sharply breathed in. It wasn't that it hurt. It just looked horrible. There were violet spots across my arms and the rest of my body.

I shook my head: „It looks worse than it feels. Before you said anything I was in paradise. Please, don't make this sadden and stop you. We succeeded."

His voice was now angry: „So if we don't have to take you to the hospital, then it's all good? No, Bella. We tried and failed. I failed. This won't happen again. I, you can't risk like that again! I love you and don't take this the wrong way, but we won't be making love again."

We were back in Forks. Charlie was so happy to see me. Of course I was happy about seeing him again too, but I was sad about that we had to go home. Not that it went any better after that morning. Maximum I got from Edward was a kiss or two. He distracted me in any possible way. Yeah, the sights were out of this world and just fantastic, but it didn't even compare to the second night on Isle Esme.

It was my second day back home and I went to the Cullens house. God bless, Edward hadn't said a word to Emmett about our night or I wouldn't stop blushing the entire evening here because of his inappropriate jokes. But of course Alice knew everything and I was grateful that she kept it to herself. One thing wasn't a secret. Our engagement. Everyone was thrilled about it, although I said that we have to wait at least till we finish school. Also, nobody could say anything to Charlie. He would blow up. Not talking about my mother.

A car was already waiting for me in front of my house, a brand new Armoured Bulletproof Ford F150 Pickup Truck. Also Alice gave me a card and swore to myself to never use it. Who even knows how much money is on it.

Right now I was cutting salad for my dinner. I liked to make my dinner myself. Suddenly the knife slipped and made a deep cut on my hand.

Events that happened after that were too fast to account all of them. Jasper was storming into the kitchen with his human speed and a ratchet look on his face. At the same moment Edward pushed me out of the way and was in front of me. Emmett was in the kitchen only a fraction of a second later restraining Jasper. The rest of the Cullens were there only a moment later.

They pulled Jasper outside and Edward seated me on the chair in front of the dining table and Carlisle was already here with first aid kit. He stitched me up in no time. Esme had just finished cleaning up the blood stains.

Edward picked me up: „Let me take you home."

„I am sorry..." I started, but Edward stopped me.

„Don't be. You were only being human. And Jasper was being... vampire. Like me. If its anyone's fault, then it is mine."

I shook my head: „You aren't responsible for anything. No one is. Maybe only me. Plus, put me down. I only cut my hand, I can still walk."

It was the next morning. Charlie had gone to work and I was just laying in my bed. I heard knocking on the front door and jumped out of my bed to hurry down the stairs. After dropping me off last night, Edward didn't return. It had to be him.

When I opened the door, I saw Edward. As I predicted only I imagined at least a small smile on his face. There wasn't a single emotion on his face. He just walked inside and went straight up to my room. I followed him.

„Jasper feels horrible, but everything is alright," he said without an emotion.

„Okay. Please, tell him that I don't blame him."

He nodded: „But we have to move. Carlisle got a better job offer."

„When do we have to move?"

He shook his head and continued in the same emotionless tone: „I meant my family. You have to stay."

It hurt... „How often will we be seeing each other?" I asked with pain in my voice.

„We won't be seeing each other. I was wrong. I don't want to be with you all my life. I don't love you. It just took last evening for me to see it."

I felt tears welling up in my eyes: „Why? What about our engagement?"

„The one you never agreed to hundred percent? I cancel it. I never meant it. I just wanted to get you in bed."

Of course. How could he want something more from me? I was only human, only me. I was nothing. Why did I imagine us riding together into the sunset?

I saw a little bit pain in his eyes. I probably just looked pathetic to him.

„I just ask one thing."

„Anything," I whispered.

„Stay safe," then he added, „for Charlie."

I nodded.

„I promise, you will never have to see me again," he said and then he was gone. I felt nothing and just rolled in a ball hugging my knees.

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