So, you may have noticed this quick update however it is only half a chapter. I would real like some feedback before I continue. I'd like you to please review and comment if you like this chapter or say you don't and you'd like it more... fluffy maybe? Let me know. Please! Thank you for reading.
Gabriella stumbled out of the last club they went into, emerging into the dark morning at around 4am. The majority of the guys were tipsy, some were way past that. Surprisingly, Troy, Chad and Liam were the most sober ones, yet they had a lot to drink but were only slightly tipsy.
Troy had a firm hold on Gabriella's waist to keep her from falling as they all exited the club. He let her go for a moment as Sharpay came to drag her away, leading her toward a particularly drunk group of men who seemed to be around the age of twenty-three. Troy worked his jaw as he saw one of them take a particular interest in Gabriella. On one hand he couldn't blame the guy, she was beautiful and had an amazing body which was documented in a hot, little dress. On the other hand, she was dating someone and Troy was… completely infatuated with her.
"No," Gabriella said, stubbornly with a pout and looked over at Troy who was laughing with Chad and Liam was playfully glaring at the two boys, "I want Troy," She whispered with a small slur, trying to slip away from the hands of the man who was trying to get her attention by stroking his hands up and down her waist.
"Who is Troy, baby?" He asked, looking down at her face as she looked towards Troy's group of friends.
"Troy," She answered, gently pushing his hands off of herself and walking as best she could over to Troy.
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"Dude, a little someone is making a b-line for you," Chad nodded in the direction of behind Troy's back.
Troy looked over his shoulder and saw Gabriella struggling to walk, he turned back to his friends, "I didn't think I'd be baby-sitting tonight," He huffed, earning a laugh from Chad and Liam before turning and meeting Gabriella half way, "Alright there goofy?" He teased.
Gabriella threw her arms around his strong neck, "Can we go back to San Fran? Right now," She said in a voice which was trying to be seductive but came out slurred.
Troy chuckled, holding her waist to keep to up right, "Why do you wanna go back there, huh?"
Gabriella did her best to hold the back of his head and pull it down softly but ended up poking his ear and he winced, "Sorry. And because it was so fun and…"
/
Chad and Liam were standing back with their arms folded with amused smiles as he watched Troy grip the back of Gabriella's dress and his eyes shut quickly and his forehead fell forward as Gabriella held the back of his neck and spoke quietly into his ear.
Troy lifted up to head and Chad and Liam's smirks grew when Troy shook his head which indicated that Gabriella was testing how much of a gentleman he really was and Troy, given any other state that Gabriella was in, would have taken her up on her offers immediately.
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Troy stood up straight and took Gabriella's hands in his, "You can't say shit like that when you're dating Adam, Gab."
"But it's you," She whispered.
"It doesn't make any difference," Troy shook his head, "You're practically taken, you can't say that kind of stuff to me and I can't say it to you."
Gabriella looked up at him, her brown eyes staring straight into the blue, "But it's you," She repeated, "It's you," She said again.
Troy's thumbs rubbed her over knuckles, "And you're you," He stressed while shaking his head.
"Then forget everything else," Gabriella said a lot my coherently than before.
Troy's head hung low and his eyes closed tiredly, "I can't be the guy who encourages a girl to date another guy and then kiss the girl who their dating."
Gabriella kissed his cheek softly, "You're not, its fine, its fine," She spoke softly.
Troy look up a little, "It's not."
"Its fine… its fine… its fine," Gabriella repeated quietly, kissing closer to his mouth each time.
Troy shook his head slowly while she hoovered to the side of his lips.
"I promise, its ok," She spoke, looking from his lips to his blue eyes.
His head to rolling from looking straight ahead and then looking towards her, his breathing becoming heavy and shallow.
"I swear," She breathed, "Its fine, everything will be ok," She gave him half a small smile.
Troy nodded, keeping his head low as he leant the rest of the way down in a daze to kiss her. Their lips connected and Troy soon wrapped his arms around her; stroking his thumbs over the small of her back. He felt her smile against his lips and he smiled too. Their lips continued to massage each other's and soon their tongues were involved and Gabriella's back was arched and her arms flopped over Troy's shoulders, the fingertips of one hand massaging his neck. Their tongues slid together, ending in a sloppy kiss.
Troy pulled away as he heard wolf whistles when it must have been particularly obvious that his tongue was in her mouth. He shook his head and pressed a kiss to her neck.
"I can't do this," He muttered into her ear.
He pulled away abruptly, stepping away from her a little as he reached into his back pocket and pulled out a slightly used box of cigarettes. Whipping one out to place it in his mouth before lighting it up. He breathed in the chemicals and blew out the air away from Gabriella.
"What the fuck? You said you were gonna stop," Gabriella frowned.
Troy shook his head, stepping away more, continuing to puff on his cigarette, "You're dating someone else and we just kissed," Troy rambled, taking another drag.
Gabriella lifted one shoulder up into a shrug, "He has sex with other girls behind my back."
"I'm not a rebound," He said firmly, bringing the cigarette to his lips between his index finger and his middle finger.
Gabriella narrowed her eyes, walking up to him again and pressing her lips to his, moaning slightly at the smoky taste of his mouth, reminding her of the kisses they first shared together, "You are not a rebound."
Troy was still tipsy enough to cup her face, his cigarette between his fingers still as he kissed her passionately, leaning down to kiss her thoroughly. His tongue in her mouth for the second time in the space of a few minutes.
Troy felt two hands push at his arm and he stumbled away from Gabriella, his cigarette still firmly between his fingers.
"What the fuck do you think you're doing with my girl!" An angry Adam and seemingly drunk Adam shouted.
Troy chuckled, puffing on his cigarette casually, "Dude, you can't pretend to give a fuck about her."
"I do! She's my girl."
Troy rolled his eyes, "Girl? Dude, she's 21. And that's not what she's been telling me the entire night."
Adam narrowed his eyes at Gabriella who was stood off to the side watching the two men in shock, "What have you been telling him?"
"We were dating, we were never official," Gabriella firmly, "Why do you care anyway? You've slept with at least two girls since you've been taking me out!" Gabriella shouted.
Troy continued to smoke during this encounter, "I heard that too."
"You said we were never official so why does it matter?" Adam scoffed.
"You just said I was yours!" Gabriella exclaimed.
Adam rolled his eyes, turning back to Troy, "You're really that type of guy who kisses girls who are dating?" He asked with squinted eyes.
Troy smirked at him, "If it wasn't for me, dude, you wouldn't have a single chance with her."
"Oh and you think you do?" Adam laughed loudly, "Look at you! You're smoking, your eyes are fucked man."
Troy looked away and rubbed his lips together, "I have a better chance at being a real boyfriend to her than you do," He hissed, "You were shit to her and what you dated for two months?"
"Three," Adam corrected.
"Oh wow," Troy laughed, "Have you had sex?"
Adam didn't respond.
"So you two were dating and she didn't let you sleep with her but a few months ago me and Gabriella weren't dating but she let me inside," Troy said, cockily, remembering to apologise to Gabriella later.
Adam let out a small laugh, "I couldn't give a fuck. I'm more interested in what you've been doing for the past year."
Troy's nostrils flared, "What have I been doing?" He challenged.
"Open your wallet Bolton," Adam said.
"No," Troy hissed.
"Why? Wouldn't find any weed or any crack in there would you? Open up," Adam shouted.
Troy swallowed, "Is that what you demanded Gabriella to do? To open up but she wouldn't would she?" He chuckled, "She more interested in my dick than yours and you're the one dating her."
Adam spun around to Gabriella, "Whatever we were doing is done, yeah I slept with a couple of guys and you made out with this drunk addict here," He turned back to Troy, "Good luck fucking up your life man," Adam said, pushing passed Troy to continue his way down to the taxi bay.
Troy dropped his cigarette to the floor, squashing it with the bottom of his shoe. He started to breath heavily as he looked up at Gabriella who had her mouth hanging open and tears welling up in her eyes.
"Gab-"
"Don't come near me," She whispered.
Troy shook his head, stepping closer to her and softly taking her hands, kissing the backs of them, "You have to listen to me."
"Is he right?" She whispered.
Troy swallowed, briefly shutting his eyes, preparing for his life to come crashing further down. He looked up into the woman's eyes which would soon hate him, "Kind of," He mumbled.
Gabriella let out a shaky breath letting a tear fall down her face, "Oh my…" She trailed off.
"Baby," He breathed, kissing the backs of her hands, "I'm sorry princess."
Gabriella was openly crying, letting Troy kiss her hands and whisper words to her.
"I'm so sorry. I'll sort myself out, I'll go to rehab, I'll get counselling, I'll get off it all, I'll get clean," Troy rambled as he leant down to her level.
Gabriella abruptly pulled her hands away, "You're on something now?"
Troy rubbed his face harshly but nodded.
"I think I'm going to throw up," Gabriella placed a hand on her stomach, "I need to go home." She spun around and started to walk in a direction she wasn't sure was the correct way.
Troy watched as Sharpay, Zeke and Liam ran after her.
"Fuck!" Troy shouted, tilting his head back.
Chad was looking at his best friend with sympathy. People outside of himself and Troy had no idea what Troy had been going through the past couple of years. He watched his best friend who right now looked so weak fall against the wall and slid down it with his head between his knees.
"Come on, bro. Let's get you home," Chad said, crouching down in front of him.
Troy looked up at Chad, showing him his teary and red eyes, "This is why I couldn't be with her."
"I know dude. When you're ready, we'll get you help. I'll help you get help and I'll help you through that," Chad reassured, "I've told you this already."
Troy shook his head, gripping at his hair, "I'm never going to be any fucking different Chad," He laughed in a non-comical way. He dug into his pocket and his wallet and next to the compartment where he kept a condom, he pulled out a small bag of white powder and another one of a more course, leave-y type of texture, "See, I got these less than a week ago."
Chad snatched them from him, "Were you high the entire time you were talking to Gabriella tonight?" He asked.
Troy shook his head, "No, when she was talk and dancing with Sharpay after I told you guys I couldn't do anything about my feelings for her because of obviously this which I didn't say and that she was dating Adam, I went and did a little," He admitted.
Chad winced, "I know this all started with that basketball injury but can it please stop for your sake so you don't have to repress your feelings for this girl who is insanely in love with you, it's so obvious, so you can live a happy and honest life," He expressed.
Troy nodded, a tear slipping down his face, "I'm so sick of being ashamed of myself," He wiped his face.
Chad patted both of his friend's knees, "Let's sort you out then, together."
Troy nodded, tears continually pouring from his eyes silently, "I'm sick of having to hide half of my life away from everywhere and being secretive and not being able to be 100% happy. The longest I've been clean the last few months is when me and Gabriella went to San Fran, how crazy is that."
"I think you've nearly hit rock bottom now. You need to tell your parents and Gabriella will probably not want to speak to you so I think once you reach rock bottom, the only way is up."
Troy nodded, "Yeah, tomorrow."
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Troy sat in his dorm with his back pressed up against the wall, his legs bent and his hand holding his cell phone between his legs. His hair was messy as his head hung forward while noises, indicating that he was crying, erupting from his mouth.
Troy heard a key in the door and moved from the position he had been in for at least an hour. He straightened his legs out and tilted his blotchy face back.
"Oh, hey," Liam said surprised, for some reason not expecting him there.
"Hows Gabriella?" Troy asked huskily.
"I don't know, I-"
"Don't bullshit me man. Please, just tell me how she is," He asked desperately.
Liam gave a dark laugh, "That's rich coming from you but she's shit and freaked out and a mess and completely disgusted with you," He said honestly.
Troy cringed but nodded, "Right, of course."
"How did I not notice? I live with you!" Liam exclaimed.
Troy shrugged, "I guess I am-was, whatever, I'm good at hiding it."
Liam nodded, "So what happens now?"
"I told my mom and dad. Like an hour and a half ago," Troy informed, "They were shocked and shouted and my mom cried and they said they'd call me back when they got their thoughts together."
Liam nodded slowly.
"I tried to call Gabriella but no," Troy said.
"That's expected. I just don't get it man," Liam huffed sitting on his bed.
Troy wiped at his face, "Neither do I. One moment it was under control and just to take the pain away and the next it's a full on issue," He shook his head.
"Why start?"
Troy licked his lips, "Basketball injury. In high school, I got picked to be captain, we were state champions back to back, I got picked for state team, got a scholarship here, got hurt in my first year, you remember? I kept it as quiet as I could. I basically can't play professionally anymore. They let me carry on studying here under a few different circumstances. I guess that played a big part," He shrugged, "But it was my error in judgement."
"Oh dude, you've completely fucked it with Gabs haven't you?" Liam said after a minute.
"Yep," Troy answered simply. He looked over at Liam, "This is a big part into why I couldn't make her my girlfriend. I lied to her and everyone for a long time so I can't expect anything from anyone."
"You seem pretty wise about this stuff," Liam frowned.
"Chad knew. We talk a lot about it but he claims that I didn't do anything about my issues because it wasn't the worst it can be. Now, yeah, it's pretty shit," Troy told him, "That's why I know all this stuff 'cause Chad's been telling me over and over."
Liam nodded, "He's a good friend to you."
"I know. I want to get clean, I need to. Chad deserves it, my family does, all my friends, Gabriella, everyone."
"And you, you deserve to have a healthy life."
Troy nodded and gave him a small smile, "Thanks. I'm so sorry for all this, I'm so, so, so sorry."
Liam gave him a little smile, "It's take some time to get my head around it all but I'm here for you man."
"I understand, thanks dude," Troy nodded.
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