"Quinn! You made it!" Rachel showed me another surprised look, I inwardly roll my eyes, but smile anyway. "Of course I did."

Her eyes lit up and lead me inside. I was greeted by a group of surprised Gleeks. I knew I was anti- social, but I didn't think I was that bad. They all awkwardly hugged me. I just noticed that Rachel failed to hug me. I was a bit disappointed by that. I tried to not let it show though.

The gathering was kind of boring. It just consisted of us talking nicely. Something I'm not particularly good at. So I just sat in the corner with a glass of coke.

"Quinn?" I look up. Rachel is staring at me, almost as if I've been completely ignoring her the whole time. "Hey, are you okay?" I reply.

"I'm fine. It's you whom I'm worried about."

"What do you mean?" I reply startled.

"Well, you've been cradling the same drink for most of the time not socialising at all." I haven't seen so much sincerity since before my dad left.

Daddy, I miss him so much. He was my best friend, the reason why I was such a nerd. He introduced me to Star Wars, Star Trek and DC. I always will remember those moments, they were my happiest. I still believe that I won't be happy for a while. I really miss Lucy as well. I miss my old life, I want to go back with the information that I have now so I do not repeat the mistakes I made.

"I'm lost in my thoughts Berry, can you back off?" I reply with as much venom as I can muster in my broken state. God she frustrates me, in anger and sex- okay let's not go there.

Her eyes, so much hurt. I'm the devil. I'm not that good Christian little girl anymore. I sigh and she gets up and walks away. I internally scream, god I'm an idiot. How can I do that to the one person who cares about me? I have too much pride, why can't I just admit that she means more to me than anyone else on this planet? Well, other than Beth. I sculled my drink and chased after her. It had to be the most relieving thing I've done in a while. Then I realise. Finn Hudson, she's with him now. I stop.

I'm so stupid, how didn't I see how in love they are. The way she looks at him, it's so different to what I have ever seen. She would never look at me that way. Rachel always acts like she has to walk on egg shells around me. I want to be a welcoming person towards her. But I don't know how to act around her, so it's hard. I ignore the voices inside me to walk away so I walk straight up to her.

"Hey Rachel," I turn "Finn." He gives me a goofy smile. The one that stole my heart last year, I miss those moments as well. I turn to Rachel again.

"Can we talk?" She smiles and gets up before giving Finn a chaste kiss. I feel jealousy override me. Not now Luce, let it go.

"What would you like to discuss Quinn?" Rachel says before stopping in front of me.

"I want to apologise for what I said, it was really uncalled for. I have had a rough week and seeing you-"I stopped, oh crap.

"I understand that you do not find me pleasant to be around, but what you don't understand is how alike we are." I raise my eyebrow at her. "We are nothing alike." I reply with a convincing tone.

"Oh but we are. We both want the same thing, to be liked and accepted." I burst out into laughter. Is she serious right now? I don't care if I'm disliked.

"I don't care if no one likes me, it's easier shutting people out. It's so I don't get hurt." I reply. That sounded really good. I internally pat my back.

"But it's also very lonely, don't you think?" She's slowly coming close towards me. What is she up to? Her eyes have a very mischievous look towards them. I'm worried. Before I could say anything I am wedged between a wall and one Miss Rachel Berry, this is fucking great.

"What do you want me to say Rachel?" I give her a demanding look. I am so sick of her, why can't she just leave me alone? Wait, I wanted to talk to her. Damn.

"That you will admit that you have feelings for me, but you are so proud you won't admit it." I nearly fainted. How did she know? SHIT. This is bad. I aggressively push her off me and snarled.

"Just because you're a fag Rachel, doesn't mean I am. I knew you were RuPaul." I snicked and walk out of the house.

"Who said anything about me being a 'fag'? I was simply talking about you." She triumphantly dusted her shoulders. God that girl, she is driving me insane. I am completely flabbergasted.

"Sorry to disappoint you Rachel, but I'm not one." I whisper back softly. She knew I was lying, in complete denial. It aggravates me how she knows me so well. I felt like crying. I knew I was when I felt her arms snake around my waist.

"Oh Quinn, I'm sorry." Rachel held me, it felt like ages until she let go and stared into my eyes.

"I know you're scared. I want to help you."

"What if I don't want any help?" She studies me, I am telling the truth. I don't want help, especially from her. I want to live my life. I don't want her to be a part of it. I get frustrated again. Of course I want her help. It's all I want, her attention. She nods at my point. I can tell she wants to say something, but I can't read her.

"Hey Quinn, what happened to your sister Lucy?"