Have you ever had that thought real late at night... Where you're going to make big changes in your life?
I'm going to start eating healthy...
I'm going to start exercising...
I'm going to pay more attention to my kids...
I'm going to be more active...
I'm sure you've had thoughts such as these and much more each night as you try to sleep. I know, I have them too. It's natural for you to think of such things... Though, I think more on the lines of the ninja portreyed in my favorite book and show... Naruto..
I'm going to start running early in the morning, weights attatched to my ankles to heighten my speed!
I'm going to eat an apple a day, keeping the chakra handed doctors at bay!
Perhaps I'll go to the park and find a nice tree to pound on, attempting to better my punches!
Running with my dog will help strengthen our bond.
If I exercise, use my energy, then maybe I'll be able to sleep peacefully at night! And not have thoughts... Such as these to cloud my mind and make me stay awake until the early hours of the day...
I wanted to be a ninja, to be in the anime world where I would get to see Naruto... Smiling away as he trained harder and harder to reach his goals of being Hokage...
To see the emotionless face of Gaara as he tries with all his might to protect those he loves and holds dear to him, being the Kazekage of his village.
Happily laughing as I watch Might Gai and Kakashi sensei dook it out on another hilarious bout of rock, paper, scissors. hips rocking to the beat of their fists swishing through the air with youthful shouts of ROCK, PAPER, SCISSORS! Yelled into the sunny sky.
Knowing that Rock Lee pounds away at a tree post, hoping that his punches will become stronger and stronger as his training of three thousand four hundred and twenty-one and counting grow higher and higher.
Sighing softly knowing Sakura, Hinata and even Ino are slaving away in the hospital, chakra hands expertly manuvering across pained and hurt bodies, hoping that this one... Will not go before his or her time.
And knowing at night.. There is always shinobi watching over the village... Protecting loved ones, friends, and even those they do not yet know from the dangers of the night, the dangers of people wanting to harm them for sport or sacrificial choices. With shinobi at night, to sleep more peacefully and calmly.
That is the life I want.. I want to be a part of it, to risk my life on every mission to protect someone, anyone from those who would wish to harm. Maybe even change the lives of others, as Uzumaki Naruto does. Would I have such power...?
Or would I be the one to harm those around me... Those I do not know, that I do not wish to know...
These are the thoughts in my mind...
Every night they come. Twisting my thoughts, changing my ways and causing my heart and head to ache. But it is with these thoughts that I am able to better myself, to choose the path I wish to take and hold dearly onto my ideals.
And with such things set in mind... My brain, that has been aching and suffering through the nightly tortures that are it's own thoughts... Shuts down and begins it's nightly recovers with deep slumber.