EPOV
Being here, it brought back so many painful memories. It was almost too much to bear. Knowing this was where we had lived. I had seen her smile and felt her warm touch in this very room so many times. And then the thought of her being held in another man's arms the way I never could. It crushed me. I sank to the ground with my head in my hands sobbing dry sobs. There was a light tap at the door and then Alice came in.
"Hey, are you ganna come with us today?"
"Yes, I'll be down in a minuet." The whole family feared I would get like this upon our return. They said if it ever got too much to bear that we would leave. They just had two conditions, I don't go to the Voltouri, and I don't leave them again. Esme was probably the most scare I'd leave again. I got up and made my way down stairs. we all got into the Volvo and I drove us to school. I had learned to block out everyone's thoughts.
First period was boring, I had that class with Alice and she seemed worried yet excited. When I tried to hear her thought she had them blocked. Second period rolled around and I got to class late. I almost had another break down. it was one of the class me and Bella had together. I managed to get in. I almost walked right back out though. Then I wanted to scream and jump for joy. There she sat in the back of the class room, like always. she wasn't paying any attention. The only seat open was one next to her. I walked back and sat down and just stared at her in awe.
I turned my head before I did something irrational. The whole hour all I could think of was the goddess sitting next to me. oh how I wanted to reach over and hold her in my arms. I knew I couldn't though. There's no way she can't be taken. Wait… why is she sitting in a high school class room looking exactly like she did twenty years ago? Wait, no, it can't be. I dared to take a peak towards her. it's true. She's a vampire. But how? No! I leave her in hopes she lives a normal human life but no, she has to find more monsters.
But I'm happy. She's here, she's still as beautiful as ever, and she's probably taken. Damn it! why the hell am I so dumb! I needed to leave the room.
"Mr. Nelson, I don't feel well, can I go to the nurse?" I asked. He nodded and I pratically ran out of the class room. I ran straight to my car and turned on the stereo. I banged my head against the steering wheel until I couldn't feel my body. I felt numb. I life sucks. At lunch she'll probably be all over some other guy.
"I hate my life… I hate my life… I hate my life… I hate my life…." I repeated over and over. I don't know how much later but there was a tap on my window. I looked over at the passenger side window. Bella was smiling and frowning all at the same time. I rolled down the window.
"Hello."
"hi, can I talk to you?"
"yes, of course." I leaned over and opened the door and she got in. she tucked a loose strand of hair behind her ear and looked up at me.
"You're back."
"Yes, and you're still here."
"Yes I've only been back a few months though. Edward, really, I don't know how I'm going to be able to deal with this."
"With what? Does your boyfriend hate me? or do you hate me?"
"Edward I don't have a boyfriend. And I could never hate you. Why did you come back?"
"Because my family wanted to, it's been hard the past few days though."
"why?"
"having to live in the house, having to be here, having to sit next to you and think I could never protect you form what I am. I could never hold you in my arms like I used to, fearing that you've found someone new and I would have to see you with him."
"Edward, why would you fear that stuff? do you want me to just sit around waiting for you never getting over you?"
"No, I want to you to move on. I'm still just as in love with you Bella. It would kill me to see you in another man's arms." She smiled up at me and then crawled into my lap resting her head on my chest.
"Edward, don't worry, I've never loved anyone else. I've never moved on. I've been here waiting." If I could have I could have cried. I wrapped my arms around her and held onto her like there was nothing else in the world. she turned so that she was sitting sideways in my lap and could wrap her arms around my neck. She looked in my eyes and I looked in hers. Her heartbreaking eyes. I ran my fingers up and down her spine. She reached up and pressed her lips to mine softy. This kiss was so different than any other kiss we'd ever shared. This wasn't cautious. We passed every boundary I'd ever set. It was a real kiss.
once she pulled away she rested her head against my chest and sighed.
"I've really missed you."
"I've missed you more."
"We should probably go to class now."
"Yeah, I don't want to get a referral on the first day."
We got out and walked to our third period class together. We walked into the class and five guys started glaring at me. all five had dark golden eyes.