CHAPTER 2

Adjusting to my new life

I wasn't sure what to expect that first night; I have tried to imagine what it would be like not to sleep at all, but I wasn't expecting to remain half human. I did feel tired, but I wasn't sure if I would sleep or if I really wanted to sleep. Edward made my mind up for me. He carried me into our room, and laid me on the bed. His eyes were deep and filled with love. He leaned over to me and very aggressively kissed me. He had never kissed me like this before, so much passion in his movements as his lips were intertwined with mine, moving back and forth with much more force than ever before. I could feel my heart beating so hard and fast, I thought it might just explode. It wasn't much longer and we were wrapped into each other's bodies, I was truly appreciating every inch of him. I thought I could go all night, but then a big yawn came out, and Edward being Edward pulled away from me.

"You should get some sleep; you have had a long day." I heard the words that came out of his mouth but to me he wasn't saying what he truly wanted to say.

"I don't want to sleep tonight. I want to be with you. I want to be with all of you tonight." I didn't want to sleep. At that moment Edward swooped me into his arms and held my body close to his and kissed me passionately. The night went by so fast, I didn't know exactly when I had fallen asleep, and all I knew was that I awoke curled up in Edwards's arms. This was my heaven.

We both got up and got dressed and headed downstairs, Renesmee would be awake. I wanted to see her again, to hold her in my arms again. When we got downstairs I saw her there sitting with Rosalie, she held her little arms out for me, and I walked over to her and in one swift motion she was cradled in my arms. She fit there perfectly, like she was made just to lie in my arms.

"Good morning Renesmee and how was your night?"Just then she put her hand up to my cheek and showed me when Rosalie picked her up and Emmett had brought her breakfast, and how Carlisle bounced her on her knee. Then she showed me and Edward coming down the stairs.

I looked over at Edward and he was lovingly staring at the site of me and Renesmee. The look in his eyes, he was happy. Wait, it was more than just being happy… it was like he had been given a miracle. Renesmee was a miracle. No one would have ever thought to do what Edward and I had done a vampire and a human conceiving a baby and then me as a human to be able to give birth and survive. That was the miracle. Edward had his family, not only his adopted family in which he was so content with having after all of these years, but now he had a true family of his own; a wife and a child.

The next couple of weeks went by without any complications, Jacob had been by almost every day to see Renesmee, and I was reassured to finally see him happy. Renesmee was always excited to see Jacob when he came over. They would go out on little hunting trips, always staying nearby. Jacob was truly happy, and that made me feel whole again. Leah would come over with Jacob, but she always stayed away from the house, I would watch as she paced the outer limits around the house. I knew she was only looking out for Jacob, but while Renesmee was with Jacob I knew she was watching out for her as well.

Edward and I had finally gotten into a routine. Every night we would put Renesmee to bed and go to our room. I would try to stay awake so that we could have our personal time together. Sometimes it worked other times I would crash in his arms. Edward was elated to the fact that not much had changed since my transformation. I still talked in my sleep, and he still had the chance to observe me sleeping every night. It was as close to me remaining human as he could get. So I guess we both got what we wanted. He got to keep my human traits he loved so much, and I got to get the vampire traits I had yearned for, plus we both get forever together. Oh and I can't forget the most important thing we have Renesmee.

Renesmee was now three weeks old, she had grown so fast, instead of looking like a three week old she resembled a toddler about four years old. I didn't notice any changes in my own growth, I still looked the same. I was wondering if I was aging too. Would I age into a middle-aged woman while Edward stayed seventeen? I guess only time would tell.

I tried to stay awake when we went to bed, but my body said otherwise. I was asleep before my head hit the pillow. I faintly heard Edward chuckle as he leaned in to kiss my forehead.

"Good night my Bella, sleep good tonight. I love you." Edward said as I drifted off to sleep.