So here is the second chapter, as promised. Thank you to everybody who reviewed. It means a lot that somebody just read this pile of lesbian angst, no less commented and faved it. :D

Alex stood at her door. She fingered the key that she was left with so long ago. Yes, it was three years and four months ago, that Alex had seen her. She missed everything. Alex missed the detective's face, her arms, her mouth, her hair. Alex missed the way she awoke to find her in her arms. She missed making her coffee, and the simple domestic bliss that came with knowing that somebody in this world loves you.

She just stood there a silently cried. What was she thinking? She could not possibly come in and expect everything to be better. She could not expect that the other women beyond that door would simply disappear now that Alex had the strength to confess. She needed to confess why she hadn't bothered to call after she had seen Olivia for the first time four months ago. Before Alex saw her with that other woman at that café, she had all the reason to come up here and regain her place right next to Olivia. After that day, Alex knew that Olivia was better off without her. Therefore, she never attempted to reconnect with Olivia. Nevertheless, she did miss her. She missed her so badly it hurt.

Alex never slept anymore. Always screaming herself awake, and crying herself back to sleep. That's how it was every single night.

Nothing helped, not all the alcohol and sleeping pills in the world could make Alex forget the life she used to have. Every night soaked in fine liquor, she stumbled back to bed. Only to be awakened by memories of so long ago.

Alex whispered in her sobs, "…and I was never even here at all. I am the spectator... I am the spectator…"

That is exactly what the new Alex was. Alex was TheSpectator. All she did was stand there, watching passively by. She could not move, she could not talk, and she could not breathe. All she could do was watch; watch as her life slowly fell apart once again. She was ready to regain everything that was taken away from her. However, she couldn't do anything about it; because Alex was now The Spectator.

Her hands were shaking as she fumbled with the correct key. She slowly inserted the key in its designated slot and turned. All rational thought was gone now. She didn't care about a misdemeanor B&E. damn it, she was going to see Olivia.

As the doorknob turned and the door slowly opened, she was engulfed in the sent that was Olivia's home. It was if everything was the way Alex had left it. Nothing new, nothing less. It looked like time was frozen in place. Frozen in a place that was waiting for her to come back home. She turned down the hallway and once she had reached Olivia's door she stopped. It was open and when she looked in nobody but Olivia was in the bed. If it weren't for the rational fact that the other woman just wasn't sleeping over yet, this moment would have been perfect. This is how their lives were supposed to be. It was just them, alone in their apartment, living happily ever after. After seeing her lover sleeping, Alex was now content. She smiled because now she could finally let go of the burden and guilt that she once carried for Olivia.

She turned around and started to walk away when she heard Olivia cry. She turned back around and walked closer towards the bed. She was crying. Then Olivia softly sobbed out "Alex…" The ADA was frozen. She did not know what to do, but the only thing she could think about doing is what the new Alex did best; run away. However, something told her not to. She closed in on Olivia and whispered into her ear the best parting words she knew "…and I was never even here at all…" and kissed her cheek. She slowly backed away when all of the sudden, Olivia started screaming. This screaming was not an I-hate-you-scream. This was a blood-curding scream that pierced Alex's ears so badly she had to cover them. It lasted for so long, and with Alex just being The Spectator, she just stood there.

Oh, what is this? Is this the stopping point for the second chapter? Wait, oh my, did she just leave me with a cliffhanger for the third chapter? ;]