CHAPTER 2
(Poppy's POV)
I sat on the closed toilet seat in my dressing gown waiting for the hot water to fill the bath tub. I had the screwed up letter in my hand, I straightened it out with my fingers and started reading from the top...
Poppy... Emily...
I'm aware that this might come as a bit of a shock to you. I know you haven't heard from me for years... When I left your father he didn't take it well, I was a mess... My addiction got the better of me and I knew I needed to get sorted out. When James left me I knew I needed help and I went into rehab... I was released a few months ago and I've been getting my life back together. I know that Tom is in prison but I haven't been to see him yet. I've got a job, I'm a nurse and I've moved back to Rochdale. I know you and Em are living in foster care. I was hoping we could meet up and I can try and fix some of the damage I have caused... I'm completely clean now Poppy and I want to get to know my daughters and have that mother/daughter relationship with you two. I know I have a lot to make up for and it's not going to be easy but I'm just asking for a chance... I hope you get in contact.
Love Mum
XxXxXxX
Mob: 07632554198
Email: angiemills
I sighed glancing away from the letter and at the bath tub, the water level was almost at the top.
"Shit!" I exclaimed, quickly going to the bath and turning off the tap
I pulled the plug out until half of the hot water drained out and then I put it back in filling it up a bit more with cold water. I went back into my room leaving the letter on my bed and got in the bath. I laid down sinking my body under the water and bubbles, I laid there thinking for a while. What did I do? I was so confused, the druggie mum I thought was dead had just written me a letter... I felt like I should call her, I wanted to know why she just walked out and why she never told me Tom wasn't my dad? But I felt like I'd be betraying Rachel... I mean she'd raised me. Turned me from an untrusting, misbehaving weirdo into someone that wasn't afraid to let people in.
I couldn't talk to Rachel about this because I didn't want to hurt her by making her feel like she was losing me... Maybe I'd just have to sort it out myself? But then Rachel would know I'm hiding something and get worried but, If I did tell her, she'd be upset! Grrrrrrr! I felt so conflicted. Why couldn't things just be simple? I held my breathe and slumped down under the water just looking up and listening to the distorted sounds. I let out a breathe and a whoosh of bubbles rose to the surface. With out thinking I took a deep breathe in, water got in my lungs and I sat up spluttering and gasping for air.
It took a few minutes for me to regain my composure and then I pulled the plug out and climbed out, I grabbed one of the towels and wrapped it around myself before slumping down and sitting on the floor. There was a knock on the door seconds later...
"Poppy? Are you okay?" Rachel called through the door
I stood up and walked over to the door, unlocking it and opening it to see Rachel stood there.
"I want to cut..." I told her "I need to"
She took my dressing gown and wrapped it around my shoulders before pulling me closer to her into a tight hug.
"I'm so proud of you" She said softly
"Why because I'm weak and I can't control my feelings?"
"No. Because you had those bad feelings and instead of hurting yourself, you came to me" She said
I tied the dressing gown properly and we went into my room sitting on the bed.
"Why don't you tell me what's wrong? I might be able to help?" Rachel suggested
"Somehow I doubt it, I know you're like wonder woman. But there are somethings that even you can't fix..."
A/N: Okay so chapter 2... Let me know what you thought! Reviews are most welcome! :) xxx