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Cap 2
This is not how I imagined the hours next to making love, Nessie was fidgeting constantly in the seat next to me, the road to her place was the longest I've ever driven and none a word was spoken, it was unnerving. I got that she was nervous, I understood that she was afraid of the reaction Edward might have, damn, I was scared too, the guy will certainly cut my balls, but the more I thought of it the less I could find it in myself to regret it, it was something completely out of this world, something worth dying for.
But not worth of her anguish, nothing was worth that
"Nessie, come on, I'll think of anything, I'll keep my mind busy and Edward won't have to know" she didn't look at me, her silence making my stomach swirl. She was somewhere else than me, in a very different place, she did regret what had happen. I clenched my jaw in frustration, I should have contained myself, she'd been rushing into things and I as the close minded short sighed fool I've always been had not stopped the situation, had given in only because I desired her a little bit too much for her own good, I felt a knot in the back of my throat, I rather have Edward sucking my blood or chopping my limbs than messing things this much with Nessie.
I pulled over at a side of the road, we were not even half road and it was already late, really late but I didn't care, I had to make things right "I'm sorry" and even though I couldn't bring myself to look at her I knew she was staring at me for the first night since we entered the car "I was an ass, it wasn't time, it was a rush decision…" my hands tightened around the steering wheel and the muscles in my back tensed
"you regret it?" she asked her gorgeous voice shaking, I quickly looked at her and saw warm tears in the corner of her big eyes
"the hell no!" I almost yelled "I thought you did" she shook her head no and cleaned her face of the little water drops that had escaped and moved lazily over her rosy cheeks "then what's going on Ness"
"Jake, it's two in the morning; my dad allows as out until 12 top, TOP! And because of mom's insistence, how are we going to explain?, or to cover this up? I'm afraid he's going to be rude to you" in the midst of it all I smiled
"rude to me…that's a very polite way of saying he's going to castrate me"
"it's not funny" I leaned in and kissed her
"I know, but let's trust Bella to let me get away alive…" I winked at her and continued driving to what seemed to be my judgment day.
I parked in front of the big Cullen's house my heart beating faster than normal, I expected Edward to be in the front door waiting for us, but there was no one around, maybe he was waiting for me to come inside and kill me with the help of the rest of the Cullens, we stood frozen, her hand in mine while waiting, finally a few moments later the door opened really slowly and the fairy like fortune teller appeared and begun dancing towards us, her face concerned but not contorted in rage
"Hi Jacob, hi Nessie" she said almost singing as she flashed her perfect white set of teeth, she was being kind and I couldn't help but smile back
"Hi Alice" I greeted back, she was nice, I've grown fond of most the Cullens in the last years- I still bear some grudges with Blondie -, specially little Alice who was always cheerful and had been nice enough to accept me even though her blindness around me irritated her so much "how bad is it?" I asked trying to prepare myself for whatever was waiting for me beyond the front door, she looked at me devilishly
"well, Edward and Bella aren't home… they're off hunting for the weekend with the rest of the family" I felt like I'd been released from jail "so" she continued "I guess there´s no point in telling them of your little time issue… on the other hand" she sniffed at us and flinched a little "Nessie you have to burn those clothes and take a long bath, the same for you Jacob, I could smell your… concern before you stepped down the car" I could see Nessie's deep blush and felt my face really hot, I appreciated my russet skin not to be so see through, the blush seemed always lighter than it actually was, Alice giggled and jumped up and down, at the idea of getting us in new fancy clothes I presumed
"auntie…" Alice looked at her, and for a brief moment I could see her motherly side
"not to worry Nessie, we'll figure it out, for now it's only me and Jasper at home we'll keep the secret, go inside bath and throw away your clothes, I'll catch up with you in a moment" she then looked at me with the same warm understanding look on her face and for a short instant I really believed that it didn't have to be so bad "Jacob can I talk to you?", Nessie gave us an alarmed look
"why just Jacob, aunt Alice, it was my fault I seduced him, he didn't want…"
"whoa, stop there Nessie, geez we don't want Alice to know all the details do we?, she just wants to talk ok?" she nodded reluctantly and went into the house, I can't believe we didn't thought of getting a bath, what my thoughts were going to try to hide my body would have shamefully exposed
"mind if we take a walk?" she asked even though she was already walking, I followed her closely until we stopped somewhere in the middle of the woods that surrounded the house "ask" she finally said taking me by surprise, I bitted my lip
"was it too soon?"
"you mean for Edward and Bella" I nodded
"of course it was too soon" I swallowed hard "she is their little girl, it could have been in fifty years and it would have been too soon as well" I gave her that point
"was it too soon?" I asked again knowing she'll understand me, she touched her chin with the index finger of her right hand in a thinking pose she surely picked from some movie or tv show
"That's something only both of you can tell" I knew that, but an external approval would have built up my confidence to confront Edward "now I have something to ask you" I looked at her puzzled and a little nervous
"ask" I said mimicking her previous tone, she grinned at first but then became really serious
"It has taken a lot of time, practice and familiarity to see Nessie's future, when she is with you everything is blank" she shrugged "but that's something I've gotten used to" something in the way she said this told me that it didn't mean that she was comfortable with it "I wanted to be completely sure that she was away from you just to make sure of it…"
"what?"
"I can't see anything from her anymore, before I could, blurry but could… but now… it's all blank" my stomach became really uneasy, I thought I'll vomit if there was anything in it
"what do you mean?"
"I don't know" she said her eyes trying to focus in a future I knew she wouldn't find, fuck, what if the condom slip was more serious than I hoped?, why if that's why Alice couldn't even find the slightest trace of Nessie's future?, or could it be that Edward would lose his mind and end up killing me and her?... damn it!
"well, that sucks" I said defeated and she giggled
"it does sucks".
We begun walking back to the big house and even when none of us said anything I felt really at ease with her, it wasn't until we were arriving that she spoke again
"I made Jasper call Bella, she'll arrive earlier with the excuse of a shopping day promise, I can see that Edward won't be really comfortable with it but he won't come, I know you must be tired, but Bella will be here in no time and I think you have to make the best of the time she is without Edward"
"Yes because he's going to make me a eunuch" Alice laughed musically and nodded
"It'll be really hard for him… I can't be sure about how is he going to react" We entered the house and found Jasper switching channels in the living room, in a blink of an eye little Alice was by his side hugging him tightly
"Nessie is asleep in what used to be Edward's room, Bella will be here in three hours or so… maybe you want to sleep a while, and also there are some clothes that will serve you well" I nodded and headed up the stairs feeling the weight of my eyelids for the first time in the night "and I really mean sleep, we have no time for getting rid of reeking clothes and sheets" I felt my muscles tense at the comment of the pixie and the laughter of Jasper
"yeah yeah… I get it". I walked until I reached Edward's room, the dim light gave me a pretty good idea of the hour, it should be around 6 am.
"Jake?" she slowly sat up in the big white really cheesy bed "everything is fine?" I nodded and then a sharp pain stabbed my stomach, not everything was ok
"Nessie, I want to tell you something, please don't freak out…" she looked at me puzzled, and I could swear she had stopped breathing "I think I made a huge mistake"
"what?"
"please don't kill me, nor hate me Ness… but…" yeah, she wasn't breathing "damn it Nessie, breathe, I don't want to kill you" she took a deep intake of air without moving her eyes from mine
"Jake…"
"Nessie, everything happened so fast… I never anticipated it and… Nessie we, I, well we weren't safe…" she blinked twice and I somehow waited for the angry punch but instead she began laughing. Damn, she lost it… She continued laughing, completely hysterical leaving me totally bewildered then she punched me in the arm
"stupid Jake…" I still couldn't understand the situation, maybe she was still asleep
"wait, did you just call me stupid?, that's a first, you've never told me that and I've been dumber before… I've been dumb before, Nessie this is serious"
"Did you ever think that I'll do something like that without taking precautions?"
"what?" she gave a quick peck and smiled the crooked smile she had inherited from her father, but I definitely preferred in her
"I've been taking pills, birth control pills"
"WHAT?"
"yes, grandpa helped me with the prescriptions and instructions, you know since my body is not completely human the doses were a bit different"
"Carlisle knows?" she blushed a little and I felt ice in my veins
"well, he doesn't know when we were going to do it, or that I was planning on coming on to you… but he knows I'm on birth control"
"Fucking shit" I was completely frozen, I didn't even know how much time passed when she begun unbuttoning my shirt, it was like an on switch for my paralyzed brain "woah, hold it" I said while jerking back, she laughed once more
"well I thought that since you were catatonic I could make things easier and get you in your new clothes" I looked at her disorientated, and slowly tried to regain some dignity
"oh, well that changes things" I cleared my throat completely sure my face was embarrassingly red, in spite of my dark skin color "don't worry though, I think I can do it, I'm not a baby"
"ok" she said between giggles "once you're dressed in your new outfit you can come to bed and sleep a while, we need to be rested for today's talk with mom"
"so, you already know?" she nodded "when you went to talk to aunt Alice uncle Jasper told me he had called mom…and that she'll arrive briefly"
"I see" I begun undressing to change into clothes way too fancy for my taste, there was a moment of silence that was interrupted by the sound of my shirt falling to the floor
"you're really handsome Jake" I smiled smugly at her swelling with pride at the view of her blushed face and interested eyes over my bare torso and answered teasingly
"I know it's hard to you to keep your eyes off me but I think it's time for you to sleep, you've done enough damage for one day young lady" she blushed slightly and covered herself with the tick white blanket in a vain attempt to pretend to be offended, I finished dressing up and putting my old clothes in the bag they had placed at the feet of the bed before going next to her and snuggling her close, relaxing only by the sensation of her in my arms and her scent surrounding me; I heard her telling me that she loved me, but at the time my mind was completely disconnected from my body to answer.
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