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AUTHOR'S NOTE: Sorry for those who are kind of confused I don't blame you I'm confuse myself and I'm the one creating the story hahaha just kidding. Sorry bout that... I'm new to this fanfic thing anyway uhm to chris 3169512 its actually the students down below who were getting hurt because for some reason the blue aura that surrounded Mikan prevented her from being hit so the bullets rekashed (I know I didn't spell that correctly hahaha to lazy to check the dictionary) So the bullets bounced off of her to the students, teachers and attackers actually anything that was down below. Again I apologize for the confusion I'm still a Novice I'll try to improve my writing English isn't my first language please forgive me. Thanks for the reviews I really appreciated that...

CHAPTER II – The Return.

NOTE: All bold paragraphs describes where Mikan is or what she's doing please don't ask where...the answer will be in the future chapters.

This is definitely not heaven not that Sakura Mikan has ever been to heaven but it truly didn't feel like it for she could still feel... She could still feel sorrow which was great for it would only mean one thing she was still alive. The surrounding if summarized in one word would be serene. Astral bodies surrounded her. Stars, Planets even comets. Mikan herself was barely conscious or maybe she was just not responsive as she floated and floated her body was in a fetal position.

The bell rang as the blond teacher entered the class it will be a week since he started teaching the students of middle school especially the "special class." He was no longer their homeroom teacher not that he was usually around. Its already been a week since he's been teaching Japanese literature in the middle school department he still has an elementary homeroom load but he was also promoted along with several other teachers to teach junior high.

Teaching in junior high he no longer wore flamboyant costumes. He no longer dressed strangely sure he would wear bold or striking colors he even once wore a neon color shirt to class but nothing really that can be called weird or truly strange . For some reason he couldn't wear costumes and they were costumes while teaching middle school student probably because the student have grown a little and dressing like a drag queen doesn't really help get their respect not that he cared about that but without respect most students really didn't show interest on what he was teaching. He was no longer their homeroom teacher. He was no longer just teaching them lessons of life, that was important and all but... He was now actually teaching them lessons of school and that means passing tests... student evaluations... grades etc.

What changed most about Narumi-sensei was that he had a side job. He held the position of "handler" for several student operatives including Natsume. Most jobs he accepted from the academy though where jobs that involved AAO.

"The Japanese folklore of Kaguya-hime is one of the oldest narrative of Japan... " Narumi lectured

Today would have been an ordinary day except for one thing. Today would mark the fifth year of Mikan's disappearance. He was teaching his lesson but still his mind as well as his heart wasn't in it. The teacher couldn't help but let his mind wander and ask where his student went. A student that held a special place in his heart.

He remembered the day when he went to Mikan's grandfather to tell the news. His heart ached as he watched the old man's grief his only family was now gone but despite the news when Narumi was about to leave the old man said. "She'll come back." in a somewhat commanding voice. The old man never lost hope even till the day he died. He would write Narumi-sensei almost every month if there were any news of Mikan and every month he just ended up disappointing the old man but he could see where Mikan got her spunk and also stubbornness from.

It's deafening... the silence is deafening... where is here? Where are you? Who are you? Images started to dance in Mikan's mind. Images that made no sense faces that are unrecognizable. The images became more and more indecipherable by the second... HOW LONG? TIME? They mean nothing here... it means nothing here... here... here... here... I don't want to be here. I DON'T WANT TO BE HERE! I DON'T WANT TO BE HERE! I DON'T WANT TO BE HERE! She yelled and yelled not that it would do anything good since there was no one to hear her... but she repeated it over and over again as if it was some sort of chant as if it was some sort of magical spell to bring her back.

It was lunch time and as usual Ruka held his lunch box in one hand and a rabbit in the other. He noticed his best friend was sitting under a tree therefore he went in the opposite direction he knew better not to bother Natsume on "days" like this. Although he wanted to comfort him he was hurting too. A close friend of his died five years ago. The girl that made him smile with such little effort. His first love.

Ruka went to the auditorium and sat on one of the empty chairs. He really didn't feel like eating but his rabbit needed to eat so he gave her a stick of carrot. He remembered the time he and Mikan where the lead characters of the childhood freak show play that Narumi-sensei concocted. He couldn't believe that he was going to get his first kiss with so many onlookers talk about privacy but looking back he wouldn't have regretted that due to the fact that it would be Mikan to give him his first kiss.

But alas the sweet memories ended there as he remembered the time when he and Narumi-sensei along with several of his classmates where in Mikan's room packing her stuff to send to her Grandpa where he found Mikan's diary. He knew he shouldn't have taken it but he did you could say it was a keepsake of the girl thinking back he wished he didn't. It took him three months just to read the diary due to the fact his principles wouldn't allow him to invade the dead no missing girl's privacy. Big Mistake. Ruka wanted cheering up Mikan being Mikan would've probably wrote something that happened to her that day that made her smile and be happy flipping through the pages nearing the end it only said...

Everyday it's the same routine. I get up go to class greet everyone, try to hug Hotaru get hit by the baka gun, greet Inchou, and Ruka at least they're polite enough to greet back and than greet Natsume who more than enough times just ignores me. Fight with Permy get electrocuted by Jinno Sensei and lastly be called names by my "friends". Than I go to sleep and in a few brief moments before I truly doze off I think tomorrow's gonna be a different day but it won't.

That's when a piece of paper fell and it said...

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I'm hurt still I smile

I'm sad still I smile

I'm in pain still I smile

I cry inside still I smile

For how long shall I smile

For how long shall you hurt me

For how long shall you say those words

For how long...

Those insults

Those words

Those names

I took it all

All because you were my friends

Sometimes I wish

I wish and wish

the final line was "I wish to disappear" No other words could hurt Ruka more than that. No other words could hurt the people that loved Mikan the most than that. And he kept those words inside him all those years... all those years... until he couldn't anymore. One day he accidentally drank Nonoko's truth potion thinking it was lemonade and out the secrets went only more hurt came out of it. The truth should be hidden if the only purpose it serves is pain but in a way he was relieved. He was relieved that he wasn't the only one feeling guilty as bad as that may sound. He may not have participated with the daily taunts and insults in the life of Mikan but he sure as hell didn't try to stop it either.

"I wish to disappear."

"Who said that?"

"I wish to disappear"

"Who are you?"

"I wish to disappear"

"Show yourself"

"I wish to disappear"

"SHUT UP, SHUT UP, JUST SHUT UP!"

The Ice Queen was in her usual lair busy building another invention as she uncharacteristically tripped over something metallic. She didn't flinch from the pain though as she tried to get up from the floor. That almost never happened to her only when something was truly bothering her mind. Thinking about it the only person that tripped every time she had a chance was... Mikan... Mikan. For a moment she stared at the face of her best friend as it stared back at her but that moment passed when she realized it was Amanatsu. The robot she made to replicate her best friend. The sight of the robot was too painful for her, for every time she saw it it reminded her of her best friend. Every time it would trip, cause havoc in the lab, break something it made the Ice Queen's heart ache so finally one day she decided to dismantle the robot and hide it from sight but what the hell was it doing laying around the floor. It was probably one of Hotaru's interns that left it there. The girl felt that her interns where just as useless as "that girl" She held the robots head close to her chest. Clutching it as if giving her best friend the hug she always requested but always denied her. If only she knew that morning was the last day... If only she knew that "that night" was the last...

"I don't want to disappear.

I won't disappear.

I won't... I won't... I won't...

I exist... I exist...

...I..."

"Mikan" The raven haired boy whispered as he finally stood up. He spent half his day lying under the the Sakura tree. When he finally started to feel his body going numb he decided to take a walk to get his blood flowing. He remembered the times he'd tease her which was the only way to get her attention stupid boy... He spent a portion of his time tormenting the little girl only because he thought she looked cute annoyed or angry at him he just sometimes forgot that she even looked cuter smiling. He never really thought that maybe his actions was hurting Mikan than again Mikan being Mikan would never say a word about it. If only he could see her one last time...

And he did a brunette little girl wearing pigtails with auburn eyes that looked at him in a confused manner. As he approached her she smiled. An innocent smile, the smile that he took for granted for countless of times, that smile that he saw only in his dreams in all those nights for all those years. He knelt down and touched the child's face. The touch felt so real. She felt so warm. He leaned in and kissed her on the lips...

BAM! HENTAI! GET AWAY FROM ME YOU PEDOPHILE!" Mikan shouted as she ran as fast as her feet could carry her. She ran through the woods past through the trees, shrubberies, Mr. Bear...

As she looked back the raven hair teenager was following her almost gaining up on her with what seemed to be a reservoir of energy she increased speed. "Mikan!" The teenager yelled out. Although the brunette little girl heard him call her name she knew better than to stop and listen due to the fact that she'd already been almost kidnap countless of times because of her naive tee and easily trusting attitude.

"Tasukete!" (help)

Finally a familiar face. "Narumi-sensei" Mikan cried as she hugged her teacher. "Mikan" The blond hair teacher said in a surprised voice...

Author's note:

I'm not really a dark person... but I just felt like it in the first two chapters. I really intended this fanfic to be comedic. I'm not really a funny person but I am kind of humorous so please wait for the future chapters I will explain everything.

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