Ash: Yo everybody Thank you so much Kael for being my first reviewer for my first fanfiction. Seriously, I was so happy and I started dancing and singing when I saw your review. Stupid reaction I know but I was just so happy! I also have to thank my darling sister and BFF Black Titania Gem for reviewing all my stories and telling me that they are awesome although they actually suck. I love you Thank you all other reviewers as well! I really appreciate all the comments and criticism!
Amu: Hello! Thank you all reviewers! It means so much to that crazy girl called Ash. She went off somewhere to uhh get chocolate to eat or something so I am here to pass on a message to Black Titania Gem (won't tell you her real name). Black Titania Gem, Ash wants to thank you for always supporting her and being such a great friend. She also says that she has dedicated a part of her profile to you so please read it (even though it is kind of sappy and stuff).
Ikuto: *randomly appears* Shugo Chara does not belong to Ash!
I'm sorry for not doing this in the previous chapter but from now on thoughts are like this: abc and normal is like this: abc
Ages:
Ikuto: 19
Amu and Utau: 16
Tadase: 14 (this is the last time I'm listing his age because I can't be bothered to mention this dead gay princess anymore)
Souko and Aruto: Poor things, they haven't gotten any younger. TOO BAD. STILL OLD.
Amu's POV
Honey gold orbs stared into midnight blue ones for what seemed like eternity until Ikuto tore his eyes away from hers.
"No… Why Amu? Why?" he whispered, looking up at me with his dark blue eyes.
Sadness. Grief. Anger. Betrayal. Hurt. I saw all this emotions flash in his eyes. Please. No. Don't look at me that way. Looking away, I hung my head and pulled my hood further over my face, allowing my pink bangs to shield my eyes.
"Why? Can't you at least tell me that?" Ikuto said, gripping my shoulders and forcing my head up, staring deep into my eyes.
I looked into his pair of beautiful cerulean eyes. I feel like telling him everything. Everything. But I can't. She said I couldn't.
I felt feelings well up in me. My sadness. My sorrow… NO! I can't let my feelings show! Hiding all my feelings away, I locked my heart somewhere far away and let my expression turn blank. A perfect poker face.
Ikuto's POV
Suddenly, I saw something flicker in her eyes. It was… sorrow? Why? Why sorrow?
I stared into her liquid amber eyes, hoping to see something else but those feelings that appeared briefly disappeared as quickly as they had come. I waited for them to maybe reappear but her eyes remained hard and blank. She was hiding her feelings away again.
Amu's POV
Shit too careless. I'm sure he saw something. I could usually hide my feelings well like a raging waterfall behind a sturdy dam but every time he looked at me, I felt the dam leak. Please, stop asking me those questions I don't want to hear. Stop trying to look into my heart and see my true feelings. Stop looking so hurt and betrayed. Stop trying to find a reason to let me off. I don't deserve your forgiveness. I'm too weak. Far too weak to even stand up for my own rights. Please, just lock me up in the dungeon. Any longer and my dam will crumble and shatter into nothingness, releasing the waterfall that I hope you never see.
My prayer was answered.
"Take her to the dungeon." I heard him say and the guards gripped me by my arms and escorted me past Ikuto and out of the main hall. The moment we walked out, I felt a single betraying tear slide down my cheek.
Ikuto's POV
Why Amu? Lying on my bed, I stared up at the navy blue ceiling. Why? What would she gain by killing Tadase? Everything was wrong. Would nothing go right for me? What would I say to Utau? To my parents?
Why was there sorrow in her eyes? She was the killer yet… NO. She can't be the crazy killer assassin. Amu would never do something like that right? Why won't she explain herself? If she did then she would be let off. That look in her eyes… She just can't be the killer. Why? Everything is too complicated why can't everything be good and perfect? Why?
Turning onto my side, I sighed in frustration as I let sleep overtake me.
Dream flashback
9 years agoNormal POV
"She's here!" Utau shrieked and ran to the door. When she flung it open, the Hinamori royal family stood outside. "Good morning," she said respectfully to Midori and Tsumugu. "Amu!" she screamed and hugged Amu tightly.
"Hi!" the 5-year-old Tadase as he tottered up and hugged Amu around the waist.
"Hi Tadase," Amu gigled and patted him on the head.
"YO," a voice drawled from the shadows as Ikuto stepped out.
"Ikuto!" Amu smiled brightly, running up and hugging him.
"A..Amu," Ikuto said shocked.
"Please play your violin for me. Please!" Amu begged and looked up at him with sparkling gold eyes.
Ikuto looked into her eyes, entranced for a moment. He smiled, "Ok."
"Oh my god!" Utau shrieked. "Ikuto smiled at Amu! Do I sense looove?" Utau said smirking, playing matchmaker even though she was only 7 years old.
"Utau!" Ikuto and Amu shouted at the same time…
Flashback end
I woke up and sat up on my bed, sweat running down my face. Why did I dream that? Why did I suddenly dream of us when we were young?
Suddenly I felt something warm on my right cheek. Reaching up, I swiped it away with my finger and looked at it. A…teardrop? I haven't cried for years so why now?
I looked down at the sparkling teardrop on my finger. Those young times are gone. Those times when everything was good and we were still innocent and naïve. The times when everything was still happy and perfect.
Nothing will ever be the same again.
Amu's POV
I stared up at the ceiling of my tiny cell.
So this is where I'm going to stay for a little while. Until I'm hanged of course. I killed a prince after all. I would never be let off. Too bad I guess, my life is just this way.
I said all sorts of brave and courageous things in my mind, telling myself that this was just my fate and that it was just too bad for me.
Seems like I can't even lie to myself. There really is no use telling myself this is my fate and that it was just too bad bla bla bla. Who am I kidding? I don't want to die.
Suddenly Ikuto's face appeared in my mind. Hurt and sorrowful.
Closing my eyes, I let tears seep out from beneath my eyelids and drip down my face.
I can finally cry now. No one is watching.
Why? Why does it have to be this way? Why do I have to be so easily manipulated? Why am I so weak and soft?
Covering my eyes with one hand, I drifted off to sleep.
Dream flashback
9 years agoNormal POV
"She's here!" Utau shrieked and ran to the door. When she flung it open, the Hinamori royal family stood outside. "Good morning," she said respectfully to Midori and Tsumugu. "Amu!" she screamed and hugged Amu tightly.
"Hi!" the 5-year-old Tadase as he tottered up and hugged Amu around the waist.
"Hi Tadase," Amu gigled and patted him on the head.
"YO," a voice drawled from the shadows as Ikuto stepped out.
"Ikuto!" Amu smiled brightly, running up and hugging him.
"A..Amu," Ikuto said shocked.
"Please play your violin for me. Please!" Amu begged and looked up at him with sparkling gold eyes.
Ikuto looked into her eyes, entranced for a moment.
He smiled, "Ok."
"Oh my god!" Utau shrieked. "Ikuto smiled at Amu! Do I sense looove?" Utau said smirking, playing matchmaker even though she was only 7 years old.
"Utau!" Ikuto and Amu shouted at the same time…
Flashback end
My eyes opened and then widened when I remembered the dream.
Why was there a sudden dream of my childhood with everyone? Why? Such a happy memory. An innocent, joyful memory. But then why, why am I so sad?
Lifting up my left hand, I touched my face. Tears were streaming down endlessly.
"Nothing will ever be as innocent and naïve and happy anymore. My life has been ruined." I murmured to myself as more fresh tears spilled out of my eyes.
Ash: Yay! I'm finally done with this chapter! Still kinda short, I know but at least it is a few hundred words longer right? I promise that the following chapters will be MUCH longer. I swear.
Amu: I bet everyone guessed it was me right? Haha no prizes though.
Ikuto: I was so out of character… What's with me being all emo and sad and stuff. I'm supposed to be hawt and perverted. *smirk*
Ash: *cries* Sorry I'm sooo sorry about the excessive out of character-ness but this is an emo story and Tadase died so I can't exactly make Ikuto all pervert and the smirk smirk kind of attitude cause then it would be kind of weird. Anyway please R&R and I'll do my best to try and improve!