A/N: Hey people! Thank you to Devina1980, devilangelchick, Jae11, Xtreme-
Jewell, sarah, Casey, Emmasj, chris' baby girl, katyg-uk and Jeff's-NC-
BabyGurl for all reviewing and being soo nice! Since I'm new at this, I
forgot to put it in the first chapter (so PLEASE don't sue me!!!) I don't
own Jeff Hardy (as much as I'd love too!), Trish Stratus, or any of the
other WWE or past WWF Superstars mentioned in this fanfiction. Thanx so
much everyone for your support, you guys all rule. Hope you like it! From E
Jeff was beside himself. He couldn't think of a time when he was more happy.
He made his way to the side of the bed in which his girlfriend lay. In her arms, she held the most precious creature Jeff had ever seen. "She beautiful" he said in awe as he looked down at the baby girl. His daughter.
She lay sleeping in her mother's arms. She was wrapped in a pink blanket and was still wet but didn't shiver at all. Jeff felt tears prick at his eyes as he smiled and smoothed down his girlfriend's hair. "Are you alright" he asked, his normally calm voice filled with concern.
His girlfriend was sweating and her breathing was only just slowing down. Her brown eyes blinked up at Jeff filled with warmth and happiness as she cradled the beloved cargo in her arms. She ran a hand through his hair and said in a tired voice "I'm fine"
Then to Jeff's shock she burst out into tears. "Hey, it's okay! Why are you crying?" he asked, pulling her into a hug. "I know this sounds cliché' she said between sobs, but I'm so happy" Jeff hugged her tightly. "Me too" he said. "Me too"
He hugged her tightly and wiped her tears. After she had settled down he asked gingerly "Could I hold her?" "Of course!" came the response as though it was the stupidest question he could have asked. She gently handed him the sleeping child and he gladly took her.
The baby slept quietly in his arms, only stirring to get more comfortable. This only made his smile broaden and any fears he had disappear as the warm feeling washed him away. "She is so tiny" he thought to himself and cradled her slowly.
"Jeff, LOOK!" his girlfriend gasped. Jeff watched as the baby's tiny hand grabbed onto his white tank top. His girlfriend smiled up at him as she saw the delight in his eyes. The doctor had left the room know, and she knew this was going to be her only chance.
"Jeff, honey, sit down" she said patting the chair next to the bed. With a confused look on his face, Jeff obeyed and sat down. "I need to tell you something important," she said flicking a strand of blonde hair out of her eyes. This was going to be the hardest thing she ever had to say, but somehow the words came more easily than she had thought.
"Honey, I can't keep the baby and I can't keep you"
Jeff's green eyes widened at these words. "What?" He managed to get out. "I'm sorry' she said, but I can't do this." "Do WHAT?' Jeff cut her off, be in love and raise your own child!" "No' she said calmly, I thought I was in love but now I know I'm not" "WHAT?" Jeff cried out in shock. "I needed some to protect me' she confessed, you understand, don't you?"
"No I don't!" Jeff shouted, a single tear trickling down his face. He quickly wiped it away. "I thought we had this baby to prove our love for each other, and now I find out you USED me?"
"And what about the baby. OUR baby. She needs a mother! What are you trying to tell me!?" Jeff didn't know what he felt. He was shocked at this sudden announcement and sad by it, but he couldn't believe she had used him.
"It's not my fault you are gullible' the blonde shrugged it off, you think just because someone says they love you, means they really do? Jeff, life isn't a fairy tale, so stop trying to make it one. This is the real world, Jeff. You have to learn that not everyone one can live happily ever after"
"But I thought we could" Jeff said barely above a whisper with his head down. The baby moved as a tear hit her face and Jeff quickly wiped it off and tried to dry his eyes without her noticing. Meanwhile, she was busy trying to dry her own. This was so hard, but she had to be honest.
"Jeff, you have to understand, I only just started in the WWF and right now, my career come before anything else"
"Even before your daughter' Jeff spat at her in a very un-characteristic way, oh yeah, I can see the sense in that!" Jeff nuzzled the child's forehead s though reassuring her ever thing would be okay. He then turned to her and said controlling his anger a little bit more "How could you USE me"
Use. She knew that word would come back to haunt her and she knew what she had to do. "Because I knew you would go along with it' she said with a sneer, I knew you liked me, so I took advantage of that"
Jeff couldn't believe this. "How could someone be so cruel?" he thought. To think he loved this woman, he wasn't sure if he still did. "I don't understand," he murmured again.
"Snap back to reality Jeff!' she said, trying to keep the sadness out of her voice, you have to know that there is such thing as cruelty in this world, you have got to learn that everything can be fun and games, and you are going to get hurt, not only physically"
"I used you because I knew you would fall for my cherry pie act and eat it all up. It was almost to good to be true! I thought you would have noticed, I thought that you where smarter than that, I thought you would have noticed how much me and The Rock hung around each other."
Jeff had been letting these words sink in but the mention of The Rock got his attention. "You ." he started, the hurt in his voice so obvious to her. She merely nodded with a smile.
Jeff hung his head. "How could you?" he said bitterly, sadness and hurt racking his voice. Her smile was so cruel. He couldn't believe she would use him like this, and be with someone else at the same time.
"You where boring me" was her answer, and that really shocked Jeff. Boring? "I thought when you made a commitment you kept to it" Jeff said quietly, his eyes locked on his daughter's face, not daring to look up incase his eyes mirrored how he felt. "Boring?" he thought. He would have hit himself for being so blind if there had been no one there.
He remembered what his brother had said "Don't trust her' he had warned, you know what she's like, you know what she's don't to some of the other guys, she'll use you Jeff, just like she's used everyone else"
How he wished he had listened to his older brother's wise words. He should have listened but for once, he didn't want to. He thought he was in love but he should have known that with her he would get hurt.
He didn't know what to feel. He wanted to explode. He wanted to wake up sweating, as though it was a bad d ream and have her lying next to him. But the words played over and over in his head "Snap back to reality Jeff!" He words where true once he thought about it. He lived in a dream world where everything was fantasy and nothing could ever go wrong.
"Good-bye Jeff Hardy" she said getting up from her bed.
Jeff got up quickly. "But Trish please." he said, sorrow bleeding in his voice. "The doctors said I could leave' she said walking down the hall, I trust you'll take good care of her"
"But Trish please, she needs a MOTHER! What about her name? Please, don't do this!!"
"That's all for you to decide" she said, not daring to look back as tears began to form in her eyes.
She put her coat on, trying hard to burst out into to tears, as she walked away from him. It was the hardest thing she would ever have to do. She wiped her eyes on her sleeve and walked as quickly as she could out of the hospital entrance into the rain.
The sun was just breaking on the horizon as she looked back at him. The hot tears that stung her eyes began to fall quickly as she saw him collapse into a chair, his head down.
She shook her head sadly. "Goodbye Jeff' she said quietly as her voice quivered, the tears fell and she walked out of the hospital, you might not like this now, but I am doing this for your own good. This might hurt now but it will only make you stronger, this is for the best"
* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * Jeff sat in the hospital chair for what seemed like forever. He tried not to think about Trish, it hurt too much to think she was gone, forever. They said the pain was all worth it, but Jeff wondered if that was really the case.
The tears that stung at the brim of his eyes where finally granted release. The hot tears, or the few he let escape, seeped down his face, his hair shielding the tears from the naked eye. He looked down at the baby girl, snuggled contently in his arms, and thought about her future. What would she do without a mother? What would he do without Trish? It was almost as though he had just realized that he would have to raise a living, breathing child, when he had a full time job which had him constantly on the road, almost 365 a year. And he had no one to help him.
The tears fell harder and hotter than before. "How can I raise this child without a mother?" Jeff wondered aloud. He had never thought of all of this. He had thought Trish would stay, he thought she would be loyal. But she had only used him. If he weren't so sad, he would have been angry. He was sad, not only for himself but for the future of their daughter.
A new emotion swept over him. Fear. He remember now, the consequences. "No one knew about me and Trish' he thought, not even Matt, Dad, or Amy"
Amy might take it fairly lightly if he was lucky, but the fact that Trish was part of the equation didn't make his chances look good. His father wouldn't show his anger, but would try to help him, which would involve a lot of questions and answers. And Matt. His brother would be furious. "I don't even wanna think about that" Jeff said with a shudder.
He lifted his head from its comfortable position looking at the floor. He looked out of the window and saw the red sun was perched on the horizon, waiting to leap into the air to full signal the start of the new day.
The baby shifted her position to be more comfortable, but nothing more. Jeff sighed, wiping his teary eyes on his sleeve. He could have sworn he saw a glimmer of tears in Trish's eyes as she walked out. He laughed bitterly "Why would she do that? She had this all planned out, she had no reason to be sad, it worked out the way she wanted it too"
He sighed again as a fresh tear rolled slowly down his cheek. "I can't sit here forever' he said, looking once again towards the rising sun, I have to get through this, maybe on my own, maybe not, but I will somehow" He wiped the tear with the back of his hand, being careful not to interrupt the baby's peaceful slumber. She was the most beautiful creature Jeff had ever laid eyes on, except maybe for Trish. "Forget about her' Jeff told himself, she's gone now"
He looked down at the baby in his arms. "I don't know' he said in a whisper to the child, you are quite possible the most gorgeous human I have ever seen, you look like your mother from what I can see"
He smiled sadly shaking his head. He was a fool and he had paid for thinking he had found "The One" He got up slowly, trying hard not to wake his daughter, as he made his way out of the hospital. He opened the doors to his car and gently laid his daughter in a baby seat next to the driver's seat. He pulled out of the hospital and tried to concentrate on the road, looking at his baby girl one more time before focusing totally. "Maybe' Jeff thought as he watched the sun rising higher in the sky, just maybe this is the best consequence I'll ever have to pay"
Me Again! What did you think of it? What you people think means a lot to me. Please tell people about this fic, I would love the support. Once again you guys all rule and I just wanted to say Happy Birthday to my friend Jessica (a huge Shawn fan, stuck posters of him up at school, hehe.) and hope you had a great party! Didn't mean to keep you up. I'll update soon, but it would help if I had some more reviews to keep me going! Thanx again to all of the above. Ciao. E
Jeff was beside himself. He couldn't think of a time when he was more happy.
He made his way to the side of the bed in which his girlfriend lay. In her arms, she held the most precious creature Jeff had ever seen. "She beautiful" he said in awe as he looked down at the baby girl. His daughter.
She lay sleeping in her mother's arms. She was wrapped in a pink blanket and was still wet but didn't shiver at all. Jeff felt tears prick at his eyes as he smiled and smoothed down his girlfriend's hair. "Are you alright" he asked, his normally calm voice filled with concern.
His girlfriend was sweating and her breathing was only just slowing down. Her brown eyes blinked up at Jeff filled with warmth and happiness as she cradled the beloved cargo in her arms. She ran a hand through his hair and said in a tired voice "I'm fine"
Then to Jeff's shock she burst out into tears. "Hey, it's okay! Why are you crying?" he asked, pulling her into a hug. "I know this sounds cliché' she said between sobs, but I'm so happy" Jeff hugged her tightly. "Me too" he said. "Me too"
He hugged her tightly and wiped her tears. After she had settled down he asked gingerly "Could I hold her?" "Of course!" came the response as though it was the stupidest question he could have asked. She gently handed him the sleeping child and he gladly took her.
The baby slept quietly in his arms, only stirring to get more comfortable. This only made his smile broaden and any fears he had disappear as the warm feeling washed him away. "She is so tiny" he thought to himself and cradled her slowly.
"Jeff, LOOK!" his girlfriend gasped. Jeff watched as the baby's tiny hand grabbed onto his white tank top. His girlfriend smiled up at him as she saw the delight in his eyes. The doctor had left the room know, and she knew this was going to be her only chance.
"Jeff, honey, sit down" she said patting the chair next to the bed. With a confused look on his face, Jeff obeyed and sat down. "I need to tell you something important," she said flicking a strand of blonde hair out of her eyes. This was going to be the hardest thing she ever had to say, but somehow the words came more easily than she had thought.
"Honey, I can't keep the baby and I can't keep you"
Jeff's green eyes widened at these words. "What?" He managed to get out. "I'm sorry' she said, but I can't do this." "Do WHAT?' Jeff cut her off, be in love and raise your own child!" "No' she said calmly, I thought I was in love but now I know I'm not" "WHAT?" Jeff cried out in shock. "I needed some to protect me' she confessed, you understand, don't you?"
"No I don't!" Jeff shouted, a single tear trickling down his face. He quickly wiped it away. "I thought we had this baby to prove our love for each other, and now I find out you USED me?"
"And what about the baby. OUR baby. She needs a mother! What are you trying to tell me!?" Jeff didn't know what he felt. He was shocked at this sudden announcement and sad by it, but he couldn't believe she had used him.
"It's not my fault you are gullible' the blonde shrugged it off, you think just because someone says they love you, means they really do? Jeff, life isn't a fairy tale, so stop trying to make it one. This is the real world, Jeff. You have to learn that not everyone one can live happily ever after"
"But I thought we could" Jeff said barely above a whisper with his head down. The baby moved as a tear hit her face and Jeff quickly wiped it off and tried to dry his eyes without her noticing. Meanwhile, she was busy trying to dry her own. This was so hard, but she had to be honest.
"Jeff, you have to understand, I only just started in the WWF and right now, my career come before anything else"
"Even before your daughter' Jeff spat at her in a very un-characteristic way, oh yeah, I can see the sense in that!" Jeff nuzzled the child's forehead s though reassuring her ever thing would be okay. He then turned to her and said controlling his anger a little bit more "How could you USE me"
Use. She knew that word would come back to haunt her and she knew what she had to do. "Because I knew you would go along with it' she said with a sneer, I knew you liked me, so I took advantage of that"
Jeff couldn't believe this. "How could someone be so cruel?" he thought. To think he loved this woman, he wasn't sure if he still did. "I don't understand," he murmured again.
"Snap back to reality Jeff!' she said, trying to keep the sadness out of her voice, you have to know that there is such thing as cruelty in this world, you have got to learn that everything can be fun and games, and you are going to get hurt, not only physically"
"I used you because I knew you would fall for my cherry pie act and eat it all up. It was almost to good to be true! I thought you would have noticed, I thought that you where smarter than that, I thought you would have noticed how much me and The Rock hung around each other."
Jeff had been letting these words sink in but the mention of The Rock got his attention. "You ." he started, the hurt in his voice so obvious to her. She merely nodded with a smile.
Jeff hung his head. "How could you?" he said bitterly, sadness and hurt racking his voice. Her smile was so cruel. He couldn't believe she would use him like this, and be with someone else at the same time.
"You where boring me" was her answer, and that really shocked Jeff. Boring? "I thought when you made a commitment you kept to it" Jeff said quietly, his eyes locked on his daughter's face, not daring to look up incase his eyes mirrored how he felt. "Boring?" he thought. He would have hit himself for being so blind if there had been no one there.
He remembered what his brother had said "Don't trust her' he had warned, you know what she's like, you know what she's don't to some of the other guys, she'll use you Jeff, just like she's used everyone else"
How he wished he had listened to his older brother's wise words. He should have listened but for once, he didn't want to. He thought he was in love but he should have known that with her he would get hurt.
He didn't know what to feel. He wanted to explode. He wanted to wake up sweating, as though it was a bad d ream and have her lying next to him. But the words played over and over in his head "Snap back to reality Jeff!" He words where true once he thought about it. He lived in a dream world where everything was fantasy and nothing could ever go wrong.
"Good-bye Jeff Hardy" she said getting up from her bed.
Jeff got up quickly. "But Trish please." he said, sorrow bleeding in his voice. "The doctors said I could leave' she said walking down the hall, I trust you'll take good care of her"
"But Trish please, she needs a MOTHER! What about her name? Please, don't do this!!"
"That's all for you to decide" she said, not daring to look back as tears began to form in her eyes.
She put her coat on, trying hard to burst out into to tears, as she walked away from him. It was the hardest thing she would ever have to do. She wiped her eyes on her sleeve and walked as quickly as she could out of the hospital entrance into the rain.
The sun was just breaking on the horizon as she looked back at him. The hot tears that stung her eyes began to fall quickly as she saw him collapse into a chair, his head down.
She shook her head sadly. "Goodbye Jeff' she said quietly as her voice quivered, the tears fell and she walked out of the hospital, you might not like this now, but I am doing this for your own good. This might hurt now but it will only make you stronger, this is for the best"
* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * Jeff sat in the hospital chair for what seemed like forever. He tried not to think about Trish, it hurt too much to think she was gone, forever. They said the pain was all worth it, but Jeff wondered if that was really the case.
The tears that stung at the brim of his eyes where finally granted release. The hot tears, or the few he let escape, seeped down his face, his hair shielding the tears from the naked eye. He looked down at the baby girl, snuggled contently in his arms, and thought about her future. What would she do without a mother? What would he do without Trish? It was almost as though he had just realized that he would have to raise a living, breathing child, when he had a full time job which had him constantly on the road, almost 365 a year. And he had no one to help him.
The tears fell harder and hotter than before. "How can I raise this child without a mother?" Jeff wondered aloud. He had never thought of all of this. He had thought Trish would stay, he thought she would be loyal. But she had only used him. If he weren't so sad, he would have been angry. He was sad, not only for himself but for the future of their daughter.
A new emotion swept over him. Fear. He remember now, the consequences. "No one knew about me and Trish' he thought, not even Matt, Dad, or Amy"
Amy might take it fairly lightly if he was lucky, but the fact that Trish was part of the equation didn't make his chances look good. His father wouldn't show his anger, but would try to help him, which would involve a lot of questions and answers. And Matt. His brother would be furious. "I don't even wanna think about that" Jeff said with a shudder.
He lifted his head from its comfortable position looking at the floor. He looked out of the window and saw the red sun was perched on the horizon, waiting to leap into the air to full signal the start of the new day.
The baby shifted her position to be more comfortable, but nothing more. Jeff sighed, wiping his teary eyes on his sleeve. He could have sworn he saw a glimmer of tears in Trish's eyes as she walked out. He laughed bitterly "Why would she do that? She had this all planned out, she had no reason to be sad, it worked out the way she wanted it too"
He sighed again as a fresh tear rolled slowly down his cheek. "I can't sit here forever' he said, looking once again towards the rising sun, I have to get through this, maybe on my own, maybe not, but I will somehow" He wiped the tear with the back of his hand, being careful not to interrupt the baby's peaceful slumber. She was the most beautiful creature Jeff had ever laid eyes on, except maybe for Trish. "Forget about her' Jeff told himself, she's gone now"
He looked down at the baby in his arms. "I don't know' he said in a whisper to the child, you are quite possible the most gorgeous human I have ever seen, you look like your mother from what I can see"
He smiled sadly shaking his head. He was a fool and he had paid for thinking he had found "The One" He got up slowly, trying hard not to wake his daughter, as he made his way out of the hospital. He opened the doors to his car and gently laid his daughter in a baby seat next to the driver's seat. He pulled out of the hospital and tried to concentrate on the road, looking at his baby girl one more time before focusing totally. "Maybe' Jeff thought as he watched the sun rising higher in the sky, just maybe this is the best consequence I'll ever have to pay"
Me Again! What did you think of it? What you people think means a lot to me. Please tell people about this fic, I would love the support. Once again you guys all rule and I just wanted to say Happy Birthday to my friend Jessica (a huge Shawn fan, stuck posters of him up at school, hehe.) and hope you had a great party! Didn't mean to keep you up. I'll update soon, but it would help if I had some more reviews to keep me going! Thanx again to all of the above. Ciao. E