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Chapter 2

ABEL POV

Standing looking down the barrel of a gun from Cain. Telling Crystal to step away. No matter what happens to me, I wouldn't let nothing happen to her and my unborn child.

But being the head strong girl she is, she wouldn't budge "I'm not leaving you Abel."

"Crystal get the fuck outta here now." Watching his every move cause I wasn't sure if he had the balls to pull the trigger or not. But if he doesn't, I do and I will on him.

A car came speeding through the parking lot and came to a screeching halt. It was his fucken mother "Cain put the gun down."

"No."

Lilyan walked in between me and Cain. I wasn't sure if it would stop or if he's crazy and would shoot her too "I said to put that gun down boy now and go take Havana home."

When he lowered his gun I went for him. No mother fucker puts a gun in my face without paying the price for it. Brother or no brother "You punk little bitch."

Lilyan stopped me from doing it this time. She had her gun pointed at me "Cain is still slow on the trigger. I'm not so back off Abel. I saved you from him. So lets stop this here and now. You walk away and go home. I will handle Cain."

"You really think I'm just gonna let it go. You of all people Lilyan should know better from being with Dad. Cain is at the least gonna get his ass whipped. He'll be lucky if a beat down is all I give him. If you weren't a girl, I would beat your ass for putting that gun in my face too."

Cain was on his bike and mouthing at me when he left "Anytime you want some Abel. You know where to find me. You've got no idea what you're fucking around with. You'll be lucky if Mom doesn't kick your pussy biker ass." That little son of bitches' fate was sealed. We'll see how much of a pussy he thinks I am when I'm done with him.

Lilyan lowered her gun and with a huge smile on her face "Don't let me being a girl stop you Abel. But I think you should just take your girl friend and go home where you belong. You need to let this go."

"Cain's ass is mine and you won't always be around to save him. Nobody fucks with the Sons without paying for it."

"Well look at you. You strut around with that leather on your back like you're some big man. You puff out your chest and wear Jackson's patch like you own it. You haven't even begun to have earned it yet. But it's coming."

This bitch just crossed that line with me and pissed me off. I'm not gonna take her mouth "Don't you judge me cause I could judge you too. I know you didn't even love Dad enough to stay with him. You left him broken and didn't care. Then you stand there and talk shit about me."

"I guess that is the way you would see things. You don't know shit about me or my love for Jackson. Be a smart boy Abel. Go home and be with your family where you belong. Don't come back here again."

"What if I'm not smart? Cause I'm coming back to settle the score with Cain. You can bet your ass on that one."

"Not being smart and not thinking it through, you might not live to regret that decision Abel." If she thought threatening me was gonna make me back off, she was wrong. I don't back down from no one just like my old man taught me. It's do or die, stand tall like a man or tuck and run like a pussy. And I ain't no pussy.

Stewing all the way home over what happened. I laid down with Crystal and never caught any sleep. When the clock showed 4:00 am I decided to get up and start the day.

It was early and I thought nobody would be around yet. Tig was in the garage messing around with his bike "What are you doing here kid?"

"I couldn't sleep. I was hoping you could answer some questions for me?"

"Sure. What?"

"Tell me what really went down between Dad and Lilyan?"

"They hooked up for while and then went their separate ways. You know how this shit really works for us Abel, women come and women go."

He wasn't gonna give me any answers either. Tig was loyal to the old man. He took a bullet that saved Dad's life. He doesn't ride much anymore because of it. Just enough to keep his seat at the table. It's all he knows and will be here until the day he dies.

Trying to ask things without coming right out and saying them, Tig never budged "You know what's the important thing, they loved each other. That's all you really need to know. The rest of the shit just doesn't matter."

There was only one person that has never sugar coated anything about my life, even when she was the one that did wrong. She may not know it all with all the details but, I damn well guarantee she knows something about it. It was the next place on my list to go visit, Mom.

When I knocked on the door, a women half dressed answered it. My Mothers other half. This has just ruined girl on girl love for me. Seeing your mom being with another woman has its down side.

"What can you tell me about Lilyan?"

"What do you want to know?" I knew I came to the right place for information.

LILYANS POV

Taking down the box from the closet. The box that I only take down once or twice a year. The same box that I've taken down several times over the past couple of days.

When Cain and I got home from our summer vacation there was letter stuck in my mailbox. He just graduated high school and I wanted one more vacation with him before he moves out and starts his life on his own. The letter was from Jackson. I don't even know how he found me again. After reading the letter within hours I received the call from Abel. Telling me that Jackson was gone.

If I had only known before then. Maybe there would have been something that I could have done to have stopped it or helped him through it somehow. I've read it over and over but, I still don't know what he was trying to tell me. Or who he was talking about coming for him.

Lil,

The biggest mistake I ever made was two weeks ago when I was here not coming to the door to see you. I've been here everyday for the past week and you're gone. Slipped away from me quietly in the night again.

A guy was there with you when I came. Your new old man. It was fear that kept me from doing it. Fearing that you wouldn't wanna see me and that you would tell me that you're in love with him. Looking back now, I should have killed him if that's what it took just to get to be with you one more day.

Now I won't get that chance to ever again. They're looking for me and it's only a matter of time until they find me. My days are numbered and I know that. I need you more today than I ever have. To lay in your arms, have you tell me you love me and everything will be okay. Then I could die a happy man.

After all these years running around flying high and falling down. Well the time has come at last to rest my heart and ease my past. I'm gonna leave these blues behind for some other fool. They won't care if I'm gone and I don't even mind if they don't. I wish I could just hide away from the world in your arms tonight. Like I use to do when you were with me cause you were the only one that ever knew the real me and loved me anyways.

Darlin don't you cry or be sad for me when I'm gone. Seeing your smiling face a couple of weeks ago made my world right again. The love I knew with you was more than my fair share. More than I ever thought I would get to know and have known since you've been gone. So I took the pain of losing you and called it an even trade.

So I'm gonna lay down all my fears, my highway blues and my rambling tears. Remember only the good times when you were mine. I'll raise my glass and I'll make a toast to us. We're better than some, harder than most. Harley man and gangster girl left their mark on every town we were ever in. Chased our dreams and we stood our ground. Nobody has ever loved each other as much as we have or in the way the biker boy and the mob girl did.

But I can't do those things no more like before and be strong. Not the way I done them when you were here. Without you by my side, I'm getting more lost everyday. Cause without you my better half just doesn't exist anymore. All that is left in me is evil and regrets. I can't hide away in your arms like I've done before.

The same wings of the angel that brought me through it all before isn't gonna save me this time. My angel slipped away from me again. Now it is blowing that fate and flame out too knowing I'll never get to be with you again.

Hide me babe in your arms just one more time. You know where to find me. I'm still in the same old place, loving the same you.

Love you till I die,

Jackson

Sitting here wishing that I could have seen Jaxs just one more time too. I am grateful that he didn't kill the guy that was here with me. Because it was Cain he saw.

I've tried to block that night out from my memory. But with everything that has happened over the last few days, it's been all I can really think about. The night the five of us went on a killing spree. Not giving a fuck who got in our way. Because we would have killed them too. We didn't stop either until we killed them all. Right or wrong it didn't matter at the time.

We shed more blood in one night than we ever did over our lifetimes between all of us. The biggest kill we made was that of Lilyan Mancini. As far as the rest of the world knows she died that night too. A part of Lilyan and Jackson died with her. I became Lilyan Wallace after that and that's who I have been ever since.

"Mom. Mom. Mom are you hearing me?"

"Yeah. I'm sorry sweetheart. What were you saying?" Folding the letter back up and putting everything else away.

"We've gotta go or we're going to be late."

Standing at the gate with Cain and Havana "What changed your mind to let me go on this trip to Italy? The last time I asked, you said there was no way in hell that was ever going to happen. Then you make all the arrangements overnight so I can go."

"Because a mother always knows best sweetheart. You two have a great trip. Call me every day so that I know you're okay. I love you Cain and I will always love you. I will see you in two weeks."

Hugging my son to me like he was a little boy again. Not letting go until they announced it was time for them to board the plane. I was hoping that my nineteen year old would not get into much trouble while he was gone with his girlfriend. It did bring a smile to my face watching them walk off from me hand in hand. Having young love shared between them. Once a upon a time I had that kind of love in my life too.

Sending my son away so I could do what I have to do. It will protect Cain because they won't know where to find him. I have to shelter him from the truth as much as I can. Truths that if he ends up finding out, I will end up loosing him to one side or the other. Keeping him away from the things that are going to bring more chaos and hell down upon us.

When my cell started ringing I knew he was just calling to bitch at me "Do you want to tell me why Cain is on his way to fucking Italy right now?" Yeah I was right he was calling to bitch. He calls Cain everyday. I was hoping that it wouldn't be until Cain was already there before he found out.

"Not really. I need to meet with you Roberto. We have a problem."

"What is the problem?"

"Abel Teller." That was all I needed to say to him. No further explanation was really necessary.

Going to do my visits of my family. I started with Gabe and Addison. Addison would be a twenty-four year old man if he were still alive. But I still always leave him a little car on his grave every time I come. He will always be my baby and that will never change. I must have a hundred cars that Jaxs has left him over the years. Each time he would leave one there always was a note taped to the bottom of it for me. He knew no matter what I would come back here.

"Hey Otto. Today is your birthday and I've missed you so much. Happy birthday, I love you." Leaving a handful of jelly beans on Otto's headstone. I always sent him a bag of them every time I wrote to him. They were his favorite. I always sent the maximum amount of goodies allowed each time too. He would share them with the other inmates on death row. It made him popular with the guys and they gave him the nickname the candy man.

It's been a while since I read all the letters from Otto. Maybe I can tonight since I won't have anything else to do while Cain is gone. But get drunk and curse my life for losing the man I loved because of who I am.

In every letter Otto wrote me back he would always write; You're such a good daughter to waste your time and money sending those damn jelly beans to a condemned man. You now have me addicted to them and I stand in line every Thursday. Cause I know you're sending me a package or a letter. So I wouldn't want you to feel bad if you can't send me anything next week. But seriously send me one cause for the first time in years, I always smile on Thursdays. Cause I know I have something in my life to look forwards to.

Then he would end each letter with a dirty joke. I think that was just part of his charm. We did this until it was his sentenced date of death. I was with Otto on his last day on this earth. They allowed me to stay with him for two hours before he had to walk his green mile. But he didn't have to walk it alone. I was there with him until he took his last breath. Jaxs tried to see him too before his last day but, Otto refused to see him. Along with any members of the club that came to the prison.

He held Cain for the first and last time of his life. I had Otto's body buried next to Lu Anne just like he wanted. I planted white lilies in between them joining them in their forever together. It didn't take Jaxs long to figure that one out either. He was always too smart for his own good.

Imagine the look on my face when my Harley man was setting there waiting for me on Otto's birthday. Jaxs had set there waiting all day because he knew that I would come on that day. I had to get smarter about their birthday visits after that.

Jackson and I spent the most incredible five days together. Holding on to each and loving like we had never been apart. Vowing each day that we would never leave each others side again. Knowing that we had to. But it didn't matter to us. It was never a goodbye. It was until I see you again.

On the fifth day Jaxs had to leave because the club needed him. He made me promise I would still be in the same place when he came back. But he knew that wouldn't happen either. I slipped away quietly into the night away from him once more.

Not that fate didn't always keep pushing me and Jackson together over the years. Because it did several times. It ended the same way each time. We would hold on to each other as long as we could until the next time.

This was the hardest visit I had to make today, Jackson. I don't know if it was the fact it was the unsettled earth I had to stand over to look at. Or if it was the first visit I made to him here that was getting to me so much. I laid the white lilies by his head and a smoke of his brand down on the ground. Then I had a complete melt down.

Crying for I don't know how long. Every time I would try to speak to him it would just make me cry that much more. Until I felt a hand on my shoulder.

"Shit you scared me."

"I'm sorry. I didn't mean to. But I gotta know. Is this shit all coming around again?"

"I don't know Tig. I am praying that it's not."

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