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All characters created by E.L James remain hers I am just taking my spin on them and creating my own story.
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11 June 2011
Christian's POV:
Today has been one fuck up after another at Grey House and it has put me in a shit mood and to top it off I am running seriously late for my parents Gala and I hate being late. It's not respectful and I pride myself on being punctual.
"Gentleman I am this close to firing all of you so sort your shit out or first thing tomorrow morning all of you will find yourselves out on your asses and it won't worry me one bit…" I'm keeping my cool purely for the fact that I am not showing up to my parents in a bad mood because it could be a bad idea especially if someone speaks to me wrong.
I will not do that to them, one because they deserve better and two because I don't want to be tomorrow's headlines for doing something stupid especially in the middle of one of the biggest takeovers at the moment. I stand up from my chair and button my jacket.
"Goodnight gentleman, you have until the morning…" I head back to my office where I change in the bathroom attached to my office. Thankfully Jason brought up my dinner suit at Lunchtime and had it ready for me. Once I'm changed we head out to Bellevue and I know that I've already missed the entrée and main meal which means that I will have to either get something at my mothers or when I get back to Escala.
I'm getting agitated on the drive to Bellevue because it seems to be taking longer than it normally does or maybe that's just because I'm already unacceptably late but the second Jason has stopped the car I open the door and climb out and make my way towards the tent where I can hear Javier's voice.
"Now we have Ms Anastasia…" I step inside the tent and look to the stage and fuck me if I don't nearly have my chin drop to the floor she looks amazing, beautiful and sexy as hell. To be honest I'm not surprised that she looks this hot; she was hot at 17 years old. That dress is killer and shows off all her curves as well as her breasts; even from all the way back here I see every part of her and a part of me has always been able to.
"….shall we start with…" Javier's voice breaks into my ogling I guess is what you could call it. Fuck if she's dancing with anyone but me tonight.
"Twenty Thousand…" it's a bit of a low offer for me but I'm not going to pull out the big cards yet, I want to see how many of these men actually came to play.
"Thirty Five…" the voice comes from my left near the front of the stage and I know instantly who it is. Ethan "man-whore" Kavanagh now I know that's a bit much coming from someone like me whose brother has slept with most if not all of the Seattle females but also because of what I've done with my sexual relationships.
"Fifty Thousand…" seriously if he thinks he's going to be allowed anywhere near my sweet Ana he has another thing coming…wait my sweet Ana where the hell did that come from.
"Seventy Thousand…" oh please like I couldn't go any higher than that, I would rather spend millions to keep her away from him then let him within an inch of her.
"One Hundred and Fifty Thousand…" immediately I feel all the eyes in the room fall on me and I can tell that Ana is turning pale from hearing the words leave my mouth but please I came to play and play I shall.
"Well, Ladies and Gentleman…looks like we have just topped last year's highest bid….We have One hundred and Fifty Thousand….Going once…..Going Twice….Sold…to the gentleman in the very back" I see Javier lean over and say something to her and she then she heads down off the stage towards a table and I make my way towards her.
She hasn't even looked up and she hasn't even realised that I'm standing behind her. "So you're just going to ignore me now?" she turns and looks at me and I can see an emotion in her eyes that I can't place.
"Well you've been ignoring me for the last 15 years or so, so I guess I have a lot of time to make up for on that part…" she says before turning around and walking off. Oh so this is what this is all about well I guess there's no time like the present to air this.
"You stopped coming around it's not my fault and I tried talking to you 4 years ago and you just brushed me off…" that's not the total truth, I couldn't help but stare at her it had been a little over 10 years since I last saw her for more than a couple of minutes and I was gobsmacked by the beautiful and sexy woman she had turned into, I mean I'm a hot blooded male and I was in no way shape or form blind to her beauty especial with her wearing that three quarter long sleeved crop top and matching tight skirt with leopard print stilettos.
What was she just saying? "….not glancing every now and then, full on staring and every time I use to come around you would just disappear and I would never see you again so I did what you wanted. I left you alone and didn't leave any reason for people to be mad at me for driving you away…" wait a minute what the hell? What I wanted? Drive me away? Why do woman have to be so damn complicated and cryptic.
"Did what I wanted? I never said that I wanted you to stop coming over. You could have never driven me away…" she totally just shut me off and walked in the rest room, why would she think that I would have wanted her to stop coming over. I walk over to the tree running my hand through my hair. She was important to me and then she just shut me out and I have no idea why.
She comes out and stands in front of me and I can see that she is torn between what she really wants to say and what she thinks I want to hear. I figured out a while ago that she likes to please people especially those that she is closest to.
"Look let's just get this dance over with and then you never have to worry about me talking to you or being near you or whatever it is that you worry about with me…" it's frustrating me the amount of times she say's something to me and then walks away.
"Would you cut the crap…when did you turn into this pity person?" great now I'm starting to yell and this is what I wanted to avoid but when I'm frustrated I start to see red.
She looks like she is about to throttle me but I couldn't care less I want to know when she turned into this person who thinks that I don't want to be anywhere near her. I mean she was the only person, and still is the only person that I would be willing to spend numerous amounts of time with outside of my immediate family.
"I'm not a pity person….you're the one that pulled away from me not the other way around so don't even pull that shit with me Grey, we use to be super close and then when I was six it all changed and I remember the day that it happened, I lost my best friend and the one person that I knew would be there for me if I was having problems at home…" I can hear the sadness in her voice and it kills me. In a way she's right I did pull away but it was for her own good but that has to change because life's been miserable without her.
How I couldn't have noticed that she had gotten so stunning is beyond me but then again she hasn't really been around Bellevue from my knowledge so I guess I couldn't have seen her change so much, God knows that she was a beautiful little girl and she had me wrapped around her little finger. When she would cry it killed me and when she left and hugged me goodbye I didn't want to let her go. I guess that still hasn't changed but we aren't as close as we use to be and that is my fault….well not totally my fault anyway.
"Could all the gentleman and their auction ladies please make their way to the dance floor for the first dance of the evening…" Javier's voice came over the sound system and I look at her, perfect just the thing to be able to hold her close and talk to her without her being able to get away from me.
"Shall we?" I smile and offer my arm like the gentleman that I am and was raised to be. She doesn't seem overly enthusiastic about it but hopefully I can change that.
"I guess, considering you spent an absurd amount of money on a dance with me…" Oh you have no idea just how high I would go just to have you close to me tonight baby, Baby? What are you on about, keep it together.
"It's only absurd if you don't have the money to just throw away but I do…so it's a non-issue" as we walk onto the dance floor I pull her close to me and I can see the flashes, perfect just what I need, to be the headlines yet again, although with her being in my arms I guess it might not be so bad to be on the front page.
She places her hand on my shoulder and I continue to hold her other hand and I look at her. This is the first time that we have danced properly together. I remember holding her to me and spinning her around when we were at parties, having her standing on my feet and us swaying together at one of the family events that we went to.
Beauty queen of only eighteen
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else…
This song fits us perfectly, I know this song pretty well and whenever I hear it I think of us and when we were younger. I remember holding her when she was about five, she had snuck out of the house climbing down the tree outside her balcony to come to see me, granted her little feet made her really tired when she got here. She had a fight with Justyce and she just wanted to cry and be held and that's what I did.
"You know just because we're dancing doesn't mean that our conversation is finished…" I whisper in her ear and I feel her shiver under my hands as I hold her waist as well as her hand and I would be lying if I said it didn't please the hell out of me, she must feel something surely if that's the reaction she is having to me.
"As far as I'm concerned it is, look I don't want to talk about this…" she is looking anywhere but at me and I know that she is close to snapping, how do I know, because I would push her and she would push back until I would give in and she would giggle.
...It's not always rainbows and butterflies
It's compromise that moves us along, yeah
My heart is full and my door's always open
You come anytime you want, yeah…
"Ana we have to talk about this…" I move my hand from her waist to her face and pull it to look at me. I can tell that she wants to be anywhere but here with me. I'm frustrated that she doesn't seem to want to talk to me.
"No you want to talk about this and I don't therefore right now we don't have to do anything except finish this dance and then I can go home…." She pulls away from my hand and to be honest her defiance is turning me on a little, but now is not the time for that. So I do the only thing that I can think of that will hopefully calm her down a little so that she doesn't lose it at me.
…I know where you hide alone in your car
Know all of the things that make you who you are
I know that goodbye means nothing at all
Comes back and begs me to catch her every time she falls…
I would catch her even if she was afraid of me touching her I would still catch her, she doesn't deserve to fall and I could never say goodbye to her, not forever and I would never say it even if she needed to hear it from me.
…Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved…
I never wanted her to pull away from me and I never wanted to pull away from her but with everything that was happening when I was a teenager I guess I never paid enough attention to realise that is what I was doing.
…I don't mind spending every day
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Please don't try so hard to say goodbye
She pulled away from me the second the song finished and damn it if that annoyed the crap out of me. I walk behind her and see her grab her clutch and head out of the tent but before I can catch up my brother grabs my arm.
"Hey Bro, well you certainly know how to make an entrance, Damn. If you didn't want to be in the limelight tonight you failed miserably…" oh yes my brother likes to state the bloody obvious just to annoy me.
"Hey Lelliot…yes well you know me if I'm not the attention I'm the whispered conversation…" I give him a handshake and look around trying to figure out where Ana disappeared to.
"You know you did Justyce and me a favour tonight so we owe you…" I look at him raising my eyebrow wondering what he's on about.
"Really why's that?" he smirks at me and I immediately know that it's got something to do with Ana.
"Well Ana said and I quote 'if either of you boys don't bid on me then I will be pissed and if I end up dancing with some total weirdo you all owe me'. So we didn't bid on her, so she'll be pissed but she ended up dancing with you and you're not a 'total weirdo' so we owe you one..." he tried to imitate her but he didn't really do a good job.
Yes I realise he made a dig at me but I don't mind, he's Elliot being Elliot so I guess I can't complain. "Gee thanks bro…so glad I could be your scape goat…" I laugh and excuse myself to go looking for Ana, I really don't want her to leave because then it will totally ruin my night.
Walking out of the tent I can hear voices and when I look closer I know exactly who she is talking, but the fact that she's in leather you'd definitely know that it's Elena.
"Oh cut the crap Elena you know as well as I do that you couldn't care less about Christian and I, just like I could care less about what you think on anything. I know all about you and the boys that you had "doing your yard work"… I'm not stupid but if you don't want it to get out I suggest that you be very careful what you say to me in the future…" she knows I'm standing here, not that I'm surprised considering she is looking more or less at me but Elena doesn't. How could she know about Elena? I don't understand surely she couldn't know about her and I could she?
"I have no idea what you're on about little girl…Your brain must be playing tricks on you, I don't have boys come and do yard work for me I have a gardener for that…" Elena you're just digging yourself a hole, everyone knows that I use to go there to do yard work when I got in trouble. She still hasn't worked out that I'm here and I can see things turning in Ana's head which means she is going to make it completely obvious that I am.
"You can spin me all the lies you want Elena I've seen you…not that you've noticed I've been there, neither has he so I suppose it's not just you…just leave me alone…both of you I knew I should never have come back here…" she points at me and I can see Elena turning around but my eyes stay on Ana and while the attention is not on her she runs off down to the pier. What does she mean she's seen me? She couldn't know what really happened? She should have come back, where else would she have gone?
I know that she's upset I could tell by the way the last sentence came. There was a hint of tears there but I'm sure that I'm the only one that picked up on it. I want to go after her but Elena is coming over to me.
"Christian darling, how lovely to see you here tonight…" inwardly I roll my eyes, cut the nice crap Elena.
"You knew that I'd be here tonight Elena and you we're counting on it because you know that I've been avoiding you…" She smirks at me and help me if I don't shiver at that look she knows exactly what she's doing and she's enjoying it.
"Now Christian, of course I knew that you wouldn't want to cause a scene at your parents Gala and that Ms Ana was back in town but how could I have possibly known that she would allow me the opportunity to get her alone. I have so much that I want to say to her but then you show up and I don't get the chance now that's not very fair is it?" she reaches out to touch my arm but I step back, I can't believe I let her anywhere near me let alone allow her to fuck me.
"Well clearly she doesn't want to hear what you have to say and that has nothing to do with me, I didn't even know that she would be here so you can't blame me for that now if you don't mind I have to go and say hello to my parents…" I don't wait for her to answer I head back into the tent to find my mother and father.
I find them making conversation with John and Rhian and politely ask my parents if I can speak to them. I kiss my mother hello and shake my father's hand before whispering in Grace's ear. "Ana is upset and she was heading to the pier I was wondering if you could see if she's alright. I have a feeling that I may have said something to upset her…" she looks at me and nods before leaving my father and me to catch up.
"Nice of you to finally join us this evening Christian, I hope that nothing too serious at work kept you from joining us sooner."
"Nothing that I couldn't get a handle on, sorry I was so late but business had to come first tonight, I could lose a lot of money if my team doesn't sort their shit out, so I gave them until tomorrow and if they don't come through heads will roll…" my father knows that I won't take any bullshit from anyone especially my employees.
"Son I'm just glad that you joined us, I know that you said you wouldn't but it made you mother so happy when she realised that it was you who was bidding on Anastasia. What is going on there anyway? It seemed like she couldn't get away from you fast enough." Ah yes the one good thing my father knows is how to read people, I suppose when you're a lawyer it's a good thing to be able to tell when someone isn't being entirely honest with you.
"Nothing's going on Dad I was just trying to see how she was doing but she was shutting me out so I guess I'll just have to leave her be…" truth is I think I want something to happen between us but I know that she doesn't want to even be alone with me let alone within inches of me, I could tell by the dance tonight that she didn't want to be touching me.
"Well just give it time, she's just readjusting to being back in Bellevue I'm sure once she's settled back in a bit more she'll calm down and start to relax…" he says patting my shoulder smiling.
That's my father, optimistic as always. He excuses himself to go make some kind of announcement and I decide to go and see if Mom managed to check on Ana. I find Mom walking back up the pier towards me by herself and I'm a little confused.
"Mom is Ana still down there? Is she okay?" I know I probably sound stupid to her but if I do she doesn't say anything about it.
"I'm sorry honey. She said to say goodnight to you and to thank you for the dance but she has headed home she wasn't feeling too good…" she leans up and kisses my cheek before heading back towards the tent.
"Hey Mom…" she turns around to look at me "Can you say goodnight to everyone for me? I'll have Andrea send the check to you…I need to go and see if she's okay…" who am I kidding, I know that I'll get over there and she won't even let me in but I have to at least try if I plan on getting any sleep tonight at all.
"Of course honey, don't worry about it, I know how close you two use to be so I think that it's only fair if you try to make her feel better…but Christian….if she doesn't want you to be there…don't push her because if she ends up upset because of you, it will be me you have to deal with first. Are we clear?" I know how much Ana means to her, she is like her second daughter even if she isn't officially hers, and you know the whole don't mess with a mother and cubs? Yes well Grace is very much the same you mess with any of us, than you better make sure you are prepared for a show down with the quaint and modest Dr Grace Trevelyan-Grey who turns out to be the complete opposite of modest.
"I know how it goes mother, the last thing I need is for her to lay a complaint against me…and I'm pretty sure that if I pissed her off you wouldn't be the only one after me… I know how to respect people's wishes. I'm not like Elliot."
As much as people may think that Elliot and I act the same the truth is I know when to stop and he does not. I know how a lady should be treated and he has a tendency not to, even though he was brought up to be a gentleman like me.
"Goodnight Christian and say hello to Jason and Gail for me, I expect to see you next Sunday for family dinner, no excuses this time…" and with that she disappears back to her party and I head up to Taylor who is waiting by the car.
"I'm just going up the street to the Steele Residence Taylor, I can walk there but you can either follow me or wait here, I don't trust anything bad will happen tonight…"
"Yes sir…" he says before I turn to walk down my parents driveway and over to Ana's house. When I get there I see that most of the lights are off except the ones in her room. I climb up the tree to her balcony and knock on the double doors.
After a few minutes I hear a door. "Who is it?" God her voice is beautiful. What is happening to me?
"It's me…Look I just want to talk to you Ana but no through the door, can I come in please?"
"Christian I told you to stay away from me…I don't want to talk to you, you need to leave…" she doesn't want me to leave that much I can tell by the tone that she's using. A light goes on and I can see her shadow getting dressed into something not entirely sure what but I'm pretty sure I could guess.
"Ana please…I just want to know how we can fix this…I want you back in my life…I need you to be back in my life…" I know that I'm begging but it's the truth, she always made my life brighter and she made me feel normal, at least while she was around but when she stopped showing up it was like all the colour disappeared from my life. I have to get her to talk to me I just have to, I couldn't not have her in my life now that I know that she's back in Bellevue. She can't say no to me I won't allow her to, I always get what I want and I want her, anyway I can get her.
The door to the balcony opens and Ana is standing there in a light blue bra and pantie set with a white robe with a floral pattern over three quarters of it and fuck me if my brain just shuts down and my thoughts go out of my head just like that. Not to mention the fact that her hair is wet and she has glasses on and fuck me if she doesn't just look sexy as all hell. When the hell did she get tattoos? When did she get so gorgeous?
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