Olivia sat at her desk and stared at the picture of her and Phoenix with the girls at Christmas. She was finished with work earlier but didn't want to go home knowing Phoenix wouldn't be home again. She finally crossed the line and was going to pay the consequences.

"You going home?" Her partner asked across her. "We're done with the case anyway."

Olivia looked up. "Oh. It's still early. Anything else we need to do?"

"Not really." Elliot answered. "You and Phoenix still fighting?"

"Yeah." She answered with a sad nod.

Elliot looked at her for a second. "Do you want to go grab a drink or something?"

Olivia looked at her watch. As soon as she got home she was going to get sad looks from the girls why their father wasn't home. She hated the looks. "Yeah." She got up and grabbed her jacket. "Your treat."

"Of course." He nodded and followed her out.

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They sat at a bar and drank. Olivia already had two beers and two shots. She wanted to drown this out. Get rid of this loneliness she felt sleeping alone in her bed. She wanted her husband. Anybody.

Elliot was done with his third glass of pure Whiskey. No ice. Both had a long day at work and were awkward with each other after two mornings ago. They needed to loosen up.

Elliot placed his hand on her thigh in a mutual manner. Nothing sexual. Just a comforting touch.

Olivia looked over at him and spotted blue eyes. Phoenix had blue eyes. His were shy eyes but so were Elliot's when intoxicated. She crashed her lips to his.

Elliot didn't wait for more invite. He kissed her back. In seconds they were standing up and pressed to each other's lonely bodies. Elliot was divorced and Olivia was on her way there.

They stumbled their way out the bar and hit their bodies into Olivia's car. What they were doing wasn't right but at the moment they had no control of this.

Elliot pushed her against the car and kept kissing her. Olivia opened the car door and went in with him following drunkenly.

He sat down and she got on top of him. Even if she opened her eyes for a bit she only saw blue eyes. She was used to making love to blue eyes for years. She knew she trusted blue eyes.

Elliot pulled her jacket off her as she undid his belt. No words were said during this affair. Only familiar touches they used to give their spouses.

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Phoenix looked at his watch. 12:25AM. He was used to Olivia coming home late. Sometimes not even coming home because of her job. He got up and checked his room where the twins were sleeping.

He covered them more with the blanket and placed a kiss on their heads. He took Ella's socks off knowing she would get hot during the night and come looking for him to fix her problem.

He left the door open a little so some light came in and went to sleep on the couch. He got undressed and was only in his boxers and a t-shirt. He sat on the couch and stared at the blue light from his phone.

He wanted to call his wife to check on her but refused to. She had to learn he wouldn't take everything she put him through. She knew he was understanding about her rape but their was a line. She crossed the line.

Phoenix put his phone on the coffee table and got under the blanket to sleep. He forced himself not to care at this point.

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Olivia woke up to a tapping. She groaned and softly opened her eyes from the pain her head was in. She noticed she was in her car.

She looked by the window and spotted a uniformed officer. She rolled the window down.

"Move it along miss." The young officer told her.

Olivia nodded a little not sure why she was sleeping in her car. She closed the window and let out another groan. She locked over to her right and noticed Elliot was sleeping in her passenger seat. Now she was even more confused.

She licked her lips and spotted both of their appearances. Elliot's wrinkled dress shirt was opened and so was his zipper on his pants. She looked down at herself. Some buttons on her shirt were missing and her pants were completely undone.

Olivia softly moved Elliot's shirt and instantly spotted his erection. She grabbed her jacket and covered him. She was feeling guilty already.

She bit her lip hoping not to find what she was expecting. She slowly moved her own pants and spotted Elliot's sample on her panties. "Oh my god." She whispered with tears realizing they did have sex.

Olivia instantly zipped herself up and shook Elliot. "Wake up right now."

He jumped and looked around. "Where are we?"

"In my car." She answered. "Do you remember last night?"

"No." He answered and rubbed his eyes. "That was a nice sleep by the way."

"You think?" Olivia yelled and pointed at his pants. "You have a boner Elliot!"

Elliot looked under her jacket. "Oh God, sorry." He shifted a little but stopped. "Why are my pants unzipped?"

Olivia bit her lip. "I think we got drunk and had sex." She pointed to the bar right by them and then between them two.

Elliot looked confused and looked under her jacket again. "Oh boy."

"Keep the jacket by the way. I don't want it back." She told him and looked at her watch. "I have to pick up the girls. Where do you want me to drop you off at?"

"Um…precinct I guess." He answered.

Olivia said nothing and turned the car on.

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Phoenix sat with the twins as they ate their cereal.

"Where's mommy?" Evelyn asked.

"At work probably." Phoenix answered. "Do you two want more food?"

They shook their heads. They all heard a car pull into the driveway. Phoenix got up and spotted Olivia's car through the window.

"Stay here" He told the girls. He left the kitchen and pulled his shoes on. He went out the house to meet his wife. "Your about a day late."

"Sorry." She closed the door behind her. "They are fine though right?"

"They were with me." He answered and noticed her purple sweater and faded jeans. "Did you change?"

"Yeah." She answered with a nod and walked past him.

He grabbed her arm and pulled her back. "You went home and changed this morning or you were at home last night?"

She looked at his arm gripping hers. She pulled it away. "Why does it matter?"

"Because you didn't call. You were supposed to get the girls last night after work."

"You are their father Phoenix. If I don't show up because of work I know you are taking care of them. I don't have to watch them every single night and day. You didn't come home the other night also and you don't see me acting like a little bitch about it."

"You showered also didn't you?" He asked. He knew how her shampoo smelled after she showered.

"Yes Phoenix. I took a god damn shower, problem?" She asked angrily.

"Very funny. You and your damn sarcasm. So annoying."

"Don't start with me." She walked past him and went into the house.

Phoenix followed her into the house and went to the kitchen. He leaned on the doorway and watched Olivia smiling as she kneeled down by their daughters.

Olivia got their jackets and helped them in them. "Can you get me their shoes?"

Phoenix said nothing and got the twins shoes. He came into the kitchen and put the shoes on the twins. He gave both of them a kiss on the cheek. "Be good."

The twins looked over at him. "You're not coming with us?" Ella asked with sad eyes.

"Daddy you have to come home. That's where our home is." Evelyn told him. "Please?" She whined.

Phoenix scratched the back of his head and looked at Olivia. Olivia said nothing and looked at the ground. "Yea. I'm coming with you. Who wants to go with Daddy?"

Ella raised her hand. "I will!"

Olivia took Evelyn and Phoenix took Ella in his arms. Neither said a word to each other and went out of the house. Phoenix put Ella in his Range Rover and Olivia put Evelyn in her car. They glanced at each other before going into separate cars.

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Phoenix and Olivia put the twins to bed around ten o'clock that night. Olivia went to watch TV and Phoenix went to the kitchen to get food.

Olivia glanced over at him. "Can you make me something?" She asked.

Phoenix didn't answer but got another plate to make her a sandwich. Olivia was used to him being quiet so she didn't feel too bad that he hardly talked all day. He mostly talked to the girls and avoided her.

He made two sandwiches and went to the couch. He gave her one plate and sat on the other end of the couch to eat his.

"Thanks." She told him and took a bite. She glanced over at him and put her legs on the couch. She softly put her feet under his thigh. "I'm cold." She explained just to get him to say something to her for once.

He again didn't say anything. It wasn't that he was giving her the silent treatment; he was just quiet all the time. He ate his sandwich and watched the movie that was on.

Olivia bit her lip. She had to tell him what she did. If she didn't this was going to be worse. They were always honest with each other. "Can we talk?"

"You always talk. You never stop. It's not going to stop you from running your mouth now." He answered simply and paid attention to the movie.

Olivia sat up. "I mean with you talking back to me also. You being part of the conversation is us talking." She grabbed the remote and turned the TV off. "Please?"

"What? Go ahead talk." He answered annoyed. "Damn motor mouth." He mumbled under his breath.

Olivia didn't really care. He was cranky when he wanted quiet time and she wouldn't let him get it. Most of the time it ended with them making out. Not tonight. "You know I love you right?"

He didn't answer her.

Olivia nodded. "Well I love you. A lot actually."

"Is this the part of the movie where I tell you I love you too baby, we both cry, have this amazing passionate kiss and have crazy make-up sex where we are so mad at each other we fuck each other's brains out until dawn?"

Olivia just stared at him. "I think I fell asleep during that movie. Thank you for ruining the moment though."

"Such a shame. I was becoming horny." He got up from the couch. "I would have fucked your brains out right now with pleasure." He grinned at her.

Olivia rolled her eyes knowing he was being a jerk because he was mad. "Do you always solve your problems with being an asshole?"

"I don't know, do you always point your gun at your lovers? Is that how they get off? Violence huh? I bet you liked it rough before you met me didn't you?"

Olivia got off the couch. "Stop being a jerk."

"Poor baby. Can't handle what you dish out huh?"

Olivia glared at him for a second and just went into their bedroom. Walking away from him was the only way to make him calm down. She closed the door behind her.

Phoenix took a deep breath and followed her in. He closed the door behind him. "I thought you wanted to talk."

"I did. With my husband. Not this pathetic excuse of a man." She pointed at him. "When you are the man I married then I will have a conversation with you. While you are this bastard, I refuse to talk to you."

He crossed his arms on his chest. "What is your problem? I'm serious. Are you that screwed up? Do you not realize how you acted?"

"I apologized to you Phoenix. Once again, I am sorry. If you cant accept my apology then that's on you."

Phoenix said nothing and went to the bathroom of their room at what caught his eye.

"Phoenix?" She asked confused.

He crouched down by her jeans she changed this morning. He picked them up and smelled them. It was her sweat. She hardly sweated but he knew well enough she sweated around her legs during sex.

"What are you doing?" She asked as she stood in the doorway and watched him.

He dropped the jeans to the floor again and opened the laundry basket. He spotted her panties in there.

"Phoenix." She said his name again seeing what he was about to figure out. There was no need to hide them since she always did the laundry. She didn't think he would be able to figure it out this quick before she told him.

He looked at her and then slowly picked her panties up by two fingers. He showed them to her. "I sure as hell know that is not my semen on these Olivia."

Olivia stood frozen. "Maybe…those are old."

"No." He shook his head and tossed them in the laundry bin again. "You wore these yesterday morning."

"How do you know? We didn't see each other since you didn't come home."

"Do you not get it?" He asked in a louder voice. "My world revolved around you! I know what you wear, what you think and what you want to eat at a certain time of the day! I fucking know you Olivia and I wish I didn't!"

Olivia took a step back. "I was trying to tell you." She explained. "I was going to tell you but then you began your sarcasm thing. I was trying to explain."

"With who?" He asked and took another step toward her. Olivia just looked at him. His mouth dropped. "Elliot" He answered for himself.

"We got drunk." She added. "It was a drunk mistake that was never supposed to happen. I'm so sorry baby."

"Don't you fucking dare call me baby right now!" He ordered. "I am not your baby. My baby wouldn't cheat on me with that fucking loser."

"I understand you're upset. I would be too if I were you." She nodded. "We were drunk. Us hooking up was never supposed to happen."

"Us? Choose your words carefully sweetheart."

"Ok, I'm sorry. I was drunk. He was drunk. It was a mistake. I'm so sorry."

Phoenix took a deep breath and sat down on the bed. "Tell me what happened. I need to know. Where did he touch you? Where did it happen?"

Olivia sat down next to him. "Well we were drinking and he touched my leg, I kissed him-"

"I don't want to know!" He quickly got up. "You disgust me!"

Olivia bit her lip. "It didn't mean anything. It was just drunk sex."

"Just sex? I can't imagine you having sex with another man, it makes me sick."

"I'm sorry Phoenix. I really am." She pleaded.

He shook his head. "I can't believe you did this."

"I know. I hate myself" She got up and tried to take his hand.

He pulled it away. "I cant. I keep imagining you kissing him. Him touching you in places only I should. I can't imagine your best friend in my wife. It's disgusting."

Olivia closed her eyes. "I wish I could take it back."

He looked over at her. "I don't want you to see him again."

"What?"

"I want you to ask for a new partner or transfer."

"Phoenix he is my best friend. I trust him to watch my back."

"I trusted you also. It's either him or me."