I intook a deep breath, breathing it out several seconds later, shakily. The tape was now in my possesion, Sam hadn't really told me what it was, just that I had to listen and that it was important. I know I shouldn't listen to trouty mouth. Most of the stuff that escapes his huge mouth is shit, but he looked so serious when he told me what to do. I had to listen, whatever was on this tape had clearly shaken him. I sat down on the curb outside the 7/11, and plugged my headphones in, before closing my eyes as the tape began to play.
Well, hello you! Santana, Santana Lopez. Long time no speak huh? Well, at least it seems like a long time, for you maybe anyway. And no, before you stop this tape and run away, thinking you've gone insane, it is Cassie. Yes, Cassie Anderson. You're best friend and partner in crime, remember? Yes, its that physcho that killed herself. Don't be alarmed though, I'm not here to cause any trouble. I assume Sam gave you the tape? Yes, well thats good. He listened. Well, this is my explanation I guess. I thought you deserved one, so here goes:
I paused the tape before she could go any further, her voice ringing in my ears. Tears rolled down my cheeks. It was her. She wanted to talk to me. She actually wanted to talk to me.
It took a few minutes before I could press play again, but I did.
I suppose you're wondering why I killed myself. Right? Well thats simple. My life was a train wreck. Wait, this is weird. I'm talking about my death, as if i've already died, but thats the strange thing about it, isn't it Santana? Where I am right now, i'm alive. But where you are right now, i'm dead. Isn't that weird? Its like something out of a creepy, twisted horror movie. Well, thats my life in a nutshell. A horror story. My life's a mess. My dad is dead, overdosed. As you very well know. What you don't know however, is that I lost a baby last week. Yes, a real baby. A real baby. Puck got me pregnant, surprise surprise. It was really just a matter of time. But yeah, either way, I miscarried. My body can't take shit like that I guess. Too weak. Its about to get weaker. What you also didn't know, and I bet you and all others are itching to find out, is my cause of death. Well, I haven't done it yet, where I am. But where you are, I did it a while ago, I suspect. Well, i'm about to overdose. Yes, overdose. Like father, like daughter huh? Funny, that. Well here, with me now, I have the same pills he used. He only used 3, he died instantly. I guess thats convinient, mom won't have to go buy another box, cause theres still 7 left, so i'll be leaving them with 4. Anyway, so, my life is messy. I know your life isn't great, but don't you dare do this. Don't follow my lead. Promise me you wont. I want you to live to the fullest. Life is short, and sweet. Just like me. Haha. Anyway, so I want you to do one final thing for me: I need, I really need you to pass this tape on to Finn for me. Yes, Finn. Nobody else. And make sure he listens to it alone, without Berry. She'll get her turn when the time comes. Don't tell anyone about this. Promise me. Don't tell Finn what this is, he'll find out for himself. Swear you won't tell a soul, they'll find out when the time is right. Finn, only Finn. Okay? I love you. Thanks for everything, Sanny. Take care now. I love you. Thank you, stay strong. Stay smiling. You have a beautiful smile, it's a shame I didn't see it more. Smile, laugh, have fun! Also, when they actually finally make a shrek 5, cause I know they will, make sure you watch it. For me. You know how much I love shrek. Make sure you, and all of the new directions watch it, together. For me. Okay, gotta go now. I gotta go visit my new apartment, in heaven. Thats quite good actually. I wonder if it'll have a TV? Well, theres only one way to find out. Lots of love, bye sweetie.
I was a wreck, sobbing on the floor. It was in a public place, and I was getting strange looks, but I didn't care. I needed to get this to Finn, right now.