This is the second one! My exams are coming and I should seriously be concentrating but... HAHA KLAINE IS LIFE SO. Hope you guys like this! It's a little bit angsty I think? I dunno =/ All of these are crap I think =(
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Kurt's pov
I stared into the mirror. What did I see? Someone useless. Someone pathetic. Someone who doesn't deserved to be loved by this beautiful boy who cares so much about me.
"Blaine doesn't deserve me... He doesn't at all...", I muttered as tears started falling down my face.
I should've known from the start. Blaine was far too perfect to be in love with someone like me. Sebastian deserves him, not me. The way Blaine was talking to him, smiling, laughing... What was I thinking when I thought I could have a future with Blaine? I'm so freaking stupid.
"W-where are they..." I murmured while ransacking my drawer.
I haven't used these since forever. I didn't need it because I was finally happy. Blaine helped me with that. I guess things weren't meant to be that way.
At the first cut, blood trickled down my wrists. It wasn't deep but it was enough for me to feel the pain needed. Second, third, fourth, fifth. By now my table was terribly stained and I winced. The fifth cut was a centimeter too deep. I felt a tear fall from my right eye but did I care? No. This is worth it. I need this. I'm worthless. One more cut. Just one more...
Before the blade touched my bloody skin, I heard the door handle clicked. I jumped involuntarily and turned my head. I gasped and dropped my blade, obviously speechless about what to say. Blaine came in and slammed the door behind him, a sense of urgency in his movements.
"Kurt what's going on?!", he yelled the moment he came in.
I sat there motionless and my mouth was slightly parted. Why the hell was Blaine here anyways? How did he know I would be in here?
"Kurt, give me that," he demanded and pulled away my blade. He took a few pieces of tissue papers and wiped my wrist. His actions were somewhat fierce and I shook.
"O-ouch!" I winced again. It genuinely hurt.
Instantly, Blaine became gentler and no sooner than that, I heard sobs from him. Why was I letting him do this?
"Blaine, stop this. J-just leave me alone!" I shouted back.
"Kurt, I won't let you do this to yourself. Whatever the fuck's going on, let me take care of you first. Then you can explain what's wrong." Blaine shot back.
I widened my eyes. I can take of myself perfectly fine without him interfering with my life. But I couldn't speak up. I was too weak to. Too weak like I always have been. I looked at Blaine who was now so delicately using a wet towel to wipe. of the blood stains. He then immediately when to my first aid kit and carefully bandaged my wrist.
"T-thank you, but... You can leave now- I... I have things to -" I said in a shaky breath but was suddenly interrupted because Blaine lept foward and hugged me. He was tearing up again, I could tell.
"Blaine, please stop, " I told him and ended up crying as well.
"No, Kurt. Please tell me what I did wrong? Why were you hurting yourself? "Blaine pulled away and looked me in the eye. His eyes were red and puffy now.
"You didn't do anything wrong Blaine. Gods! It's me. I'm just worthless, im-imperfect and basically just shit. Why would you want anything like that, Blaine?" My voiced was raised by the time I completed my sentence.
Blaine stared at me in complete astonishment.
"I don't get it, Kurt -"
"Please Blaine. There are so many others boys out there that deserve you so much more than I do. I mean, look at you. You're worthy of someone more capable than me. Worthy enough for Sebastian. H-he deserves to be with you, Blaine. I'm just a good-for nothing who- mngh!"
Blaine had leaned in and kissed me. I sighed. I missed this so much but... I couldn't let him do this to himself anymore. I reluctantly pushed him away.
"Blaine, no! I told you I can't do this!" I really cried hard this time.
"Kurt, listen there is nothing going on with me and Sebastian! I don't like him. At all. Kurt please look at me...", he trailed off and held my hands, giving them a gentle squeeze.
I looked at him- his face was similarly tear-stained.
"I don't want us to end, Kurt. Please, I love you so much, I can't bear to be without you every single day."
I shook my head vigorously and stood up, walking to my bed. I slumped on my bed.
"Get out...", my voiced was muffled but audible for Blaine.
Blaine didn't listen though. Instead, he sat beside me. Obstinate little shit.
"Kurt sit up and listen to me. Please," Blaine begged.
I grunted a little and forced myself to sit.
"Kurt, look. You are the most interesting, most amazing person I have ever, ever met. You have the most awesome personality, you are oh, so adorable and sweet. Not forgetting, you are beautiful. The most beautiful man I have ever met and I don't want to lose him. Sebastian means nothing to me and Kurt Hummel will forever remain in my heart. Nobody can replace him because he is my boyfriend and mine forever. Kurt... I love you..." Blaine ended that with a sincere look in his mesmerising hazel eyes
"D-did you just- I, I..."I was struggling to finish my sentence because I was so stupidly shocked.
Blaine nodded with a faint smile appearing on his lips.
"Kurt Elizabeth Hummel, I've been with you for a period of time now. Every now and then I would feel something, very deeply in my soul. Finally I found what it is though. It's love. I love you so, so much and I don't want to lose you so easily..."
I gulped but there was a bump in my throat. I was speechless because it was the first time that Blaine had said he loved me. Not like, but love. I couldn't speak and I didn't know how to react. Without another word, he lounged in and kissed me again. This one wasn't forced because I gave in too. It was passionate, sweet and beautiful as well. I sighed and swung my arms around his neck. After what seemed like forever, Blaine gently pulled away. Like always, he took my breathe away. Then, he carefully held my chin and spoke.
"Please never belittle yourself or question yourself again please? "
"O-okay...", I barely whispered.
"Where's your guitar?" Blaine asked out of no where.
I pointed to the cabinet nearest to my drawer. He went to pick it up and started playing me a song.
"Aha... I wrote it myself so pardon me if it's bad," he blushed and strumed the guitar.
"I promise that one day I'll be around
I'll keep you safe I'll keep you sound
Right now it's pretty crazy and I don't know how to stop or slow it down
Hey
I know there are some things we need to talk about
And I can't stay
Just let me hold you for a little longer now
Take a piece of my heart
And make it all your own
So when we are apart, you'll never be alone
You'll never be alone
You'll never be alone!
When you miss, close your eyes
I may be far but never gone
When you're far, sleep tonight
Just remember that we lay under the same stars
And hey
I know there are somethings we need to talk about
And I can't stay
Just let me hold for a little longer now
And take a piece of my heart
And make it all your own
So when we apart
We'll never be alone
Never be alone
You'll never be alone...
So take a piece of my heart,
and make it all your own
So when we are apart
you'll never be alone..."
It was absolutely stunning and I finally had the courage to hug Blaine back.
"I love you too," I said to him, sniffing.
Blaine went in for another kiss again. This was when I realized I was probably good enough for him. Maybe I do deserve him. As if Blaine was reading my mind he spoke.
"I love you and I deserve you, Kurt. You're amazing so don't ever belittle yourself again, okay?" he asked and gently squeezed my hand.
"Okay," I replied.
"I'll love you forever," he promised
"I will too," I smiled.
And gosh, who'd thought that night would be our first. I was the luckiest guy alive to have it with who loves Kurt Hummel as he us. I love you too, Blaine. I love you...
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Okay done done! Ahas review maybe? Or helpe suggest what I should write next. Thanks! Oh and the song Blaine sang is called Never Be Alone by SHAWN MENDES (BAE)