We were hanging out in Starbucks for a bit while I was waiting for Rosa to walk in and she finally did and sat down at the table. We talked casually for a bit and then the conversation steered to Holly.
"So, this is the girl you're babysitting?"
"Actually I'm living with Jc, Ricky, Kian and Connor," Holly said, defending herself.
"She's Connor's cousin," I said, hinting towards the plan that we had agreed on. "We've been hanging out."
"Oh...she doesn't seem your type, Jc."
"Oh, we're not going out or anything," I said and I felt bad for saying that because Holly looked down as soon as I said it.
"Well...am I your type?" Rosa asked, she was going towards the plan.
"What do you mean, Rosa?"
"Do you wanna go out?" With that Holly ran towards the restroom and I felt a pain of guilt, I didn't think that I could go through with it. "She really feels strongly about you, doesn't she?"
"I feel bad for this, I don't want to hurt her though and if we date I'm gonna hurt her, aren't I?" Rosa rubbed my back and rested her head on my shoulder. "I don't want to hurt anybody."
"You're not going to hurt her if you go out with her, you're being hard on yourself and you are a good person," She said and looked towards the restroom. "She's coming are we still going through with it?"
"Yeah, come on," I said and Rosa wrapped her arms around my neck.
"Are you sure, Jc?" I nodded and she put her lips against mine, I didn't feel anything for Rosa so kissing her didn't mean anything to me. I heard the Starbucks door open and saw Holly rush out, I pulled away from Rosa. I felt horrible for doing what I had just done. "You're not a bad person."
"Yes, I am," I said, not looking at her. "I'm a terrible, terrible person."
I went home after that and Connor was waiting for me.
"What did you do?" He asked and pushed me against the wall, gripping my shirt. "What did you do?!"
"What do you mean 'what did I do'? I did what you told me to!" He let go and turned his back on me. "Where's Holly? Is she alright?"
"She's in her bedroom, probably crying her eyes out. How could you?"
"I did what you told me to, made sure that she knew I was unavailable. I kissed Rosa in front of her, I didn't know that she'd react so emotionally," I said and Connor glared at me.
"Of course she's going to be emotional, she loves you." That came as a shock for me, I knew that Holly might have liked me but I didn't realize that she felt so strongly about me and I knew that I loved her too.
"Then why did you make me break her heart?"
"Honestly? I thought that you would hurt her." I shook my head, I knew that I wasn't the perfect boyfriend but I knew that I could be a better one for Holly. I heard footsteps coming to the door. "We can't let anyone know what we've been planning."
"Okay, shout at me then."
"Why did you do that to Holly?!" Connor yelled just as Kian walked in.
"Hey, what's going on? Why are you shouting at Jc?"
"He made Holly cry, she called me up in tears telling me to go get her at Nandos when she was supposed to be with Jc," Connor said, avoiding eye contact with me.
"I didn't mean to, I don't even know what I did." I was wondering how long we could keep this charade going.
"You obviously did something to upset her," Kian said.
"Does it really matter anyway?"
"She's my cousin! She called me a broke down in tears!" Connor yelled.
"I didn't mean to hurt her! I don't even know what I did!"
"Dude, it isn't right to make a girl cry, she was really upset about something."
"I would appreciate it if you wouldn't talk about me behind my back," Holly said, she didn't look at anyone but everyone knew that she was very upset.
"Holly, are you alright?" I was surprised to hear Ricky's voice, Connor and me looked at each other wondering how long her had been there and if he had heard what we had said.
"I'm fine." I went over to her knowing that I had to make this right, I tried to hold her hand but she pulled it away before I got the chance to. "I don't want you coming near me ever again."
"Holly, what did I do?"
"You snogged Rosa and didn't care about me, I walked straight past you, did you notice? No, because you were too busy with your girlfriend."
"That's what this is about, you're jealous." As soon as those words left my mouth she slapped me and I was in shock. I knew that I had pissed her off but I didn't think that she'd actually hit me and it hurt, she was quite strong.
"YES, I'M FUCKING JEALOUS!" She went into her room and slammed the door, the whole room was silent as they were probably just as shocked as I was.
"You have a lot of apologizing to do," Connor said, I knew that I needed to grovel and be extremely nice to win back her respect but I knew that it would be worth it.