If I Had Chosen Stefan 2
Today more memories came back of Damon and I! I am completely disgusted in what I am remembering I mean I could have never loved him! I think Alaric tampered with the memories cause he didn't like how I mourned over Stefan disappearing to his new life. I guess Stefan doesn't regret anything but I do. I regret letting him go I regret loving Damon I regret everything! I just can't put into perspective how much I love Stefan and despise Damon! I just want the gloss on the memories to go away so I can put the puzzle together and figure out why I loved Damon so much because right now there is still a fog upon parts of the memories. I also can't believe how everyone is coping so well with Bonnie being gone I mean to this day I still love/miss her so much! I wish I could talk to her from beyond the grave to tell her how Caroline is going nuts without her around. Caroline may not be the sharpest knife in the drawer but it's for god damn sure she's never lost anyone as important as Bonnie. I just really need answers! I could ask Alaric but he's busy at the moment, I could ask Stefen but he's god knows where and Caroline is being very spazy lately so really I don't know what the hell to do... TO BE CONTINUED