What If I Can't Let Go?

Chapter 2

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Violet's POV

How long had it been since the last time we had seen each other?

Silence answered my question. I stared at the while ceiling above me as I lied on my bed, letting my thoughts wander. Almost twenty years. Maybe more. Approximately twenty years had gone by since I had last summoned Jack and had a conversation with him.

Did he know how much time has passed since then?

He wasn't able to keep track of time, but he often caught on that lifetimes had gone by between us without him knowing. He never asked, I could tell from a look from his eyes that he knew. Nothing went unnoticed by him.

Closing my eyes, I took in a deep breath. Sometimes, I felt like I could see him right in front of me. I had him ingrained in my mind, I knew everything I needed about him. More memories of him than anyone could ever make in one lifetime, or even five. To make things worse, I could remember everything done to the fine, inconsequential details that someone might overlook.

The way his smile would light up a room. The haunting sadness in his eyes. The sound of his voice. I especially enjoyed listening to him speak, since I hadn't heard it in so long.

Honestly, not knowing everything was best for him. I felt sadness churn inside of me. Pressing a hand to my stomach, I rolled over to my side. It was better for me to suffer knowing everything than letting him feel this pain. Everything was set out this way, and I would rather it be this way.

Frowning, I willed my feelings to go away. I couldn't summon Jack. Not when I was like this. He would know. He always knew.

Getting up, I slowly got up. Sinking my feet onto the plush carpet of my room, I blankly stared at the emptiness of this place. I never bothered adding my own personal touch, making the place I called home very plain. I guess I never felt the need to.

Probably since I never knew how long my life would be.

Feeling the cold hardwood floor as I walked, I headed out to my kitchen space. Checking to make sure the food bowl was full, I also peeked over to the small bed hidden in the corner of my living room. I smiled when I saw the rise and fall of the blankets. Moving to the counter that acted as a divider between the two rooms, I picked up and skimmed over the mail I received. Sorting them by importance then setting them back down, I picked up my phone.

Just a few notifications of what I had to do later in the evening and my schedule for tomorrow all set out. I shouldn't have expected anything more. It was always the same thing in this life, I should have known by now, my routine was pretty consistent.

At least until I let Jack back into my life.

As for now, I had the next few hours to myself.

Looking into my fridge, I looked at the overstock of energy drinks I had made up myself. A recipe I had created a few lifetimes back, done to perfection by now. Although they were meant for the summoning rituals, I would drink one occasionally just to keep myself going, there wasn't any harm from taking one too many anyways.

Taking a bottle of it, I downed a quarter of it before placing it back into the fridge.

I needed to do something. Sitting around at home waiting for time to pass when all my memories had come back to me already was useless.

Changing into some comfortable clothes for a walk outside, I opted to tying my jacket around my waist, not minding the chill that autumn offered during the evening. Grabbing my headphones, I slipped them on just as I slipped outside. They allowed me to live my own life without getting to involved with others. Plus, they offered a sense of comfort to me since I purposely isolated myself from others.

A light melody filled my ears, causing me to nod to the beat. Setting a brisk pace to my walk, I decided to go around the neighbourhood, the path I choose setting off safety concerns in my brain.

Making my way through the residential area then breaking through the more laidback shopping district of town, I noticed the streetlights began to flicker on. The café I dropped by sometimes was still open, if I remembered correctly, it was hosting a baking session tonight. Everyone there was always super friendly.

Besides having already attended their sessions before during my previous life, I didn't want to risk getting too attached only to cause disappointment.

Just as I approached the dark alley that led to the hidden playground in the district, a flash in the sky caused me to halt my steps. I doubt anyone else noticed, most people were caught up in their own lives, that and they were inside rather than walking down dark alleyways at night.

Pulling my headphones down to rest around my neck, I paused my music as well.

That flash I saw, couldn't have been normal. Was it a Pokémon?

Judging it by the direction it went, I was certain it was going the same way I was. Deciding I had nothing to lose, I kept moving forward, sensing something – someone? – was already waiting for me there.

Stepping out from the buildings, I could make out a figure sitting in a patch of grass. As I slowly approached, I noticed she was a brunette wearing a dress. Her presence felt familiar despite the fact I probably wouldn't know who she was.

"Are you okay?" I asked softly.

She blinked, turning to look at me. Her blue eyes flashed with recognition. "I'm fine. Thank you."

Had we met before? I blinked, racking though my memories.

"Hey! Look out!"

I was walking past the dark alleyway after work, caught up in my thoughts when a guy's voice threw me back into reality. At first, I wasn't sure what he meant. But then the light within the alleyway flickered, I think I saw a figure of a girl but I could have been wrong, and I saw standing before me a man with a knife glinting in his hands.

I offered a hand out, helping her up. While she was still holding my hand, I could sense something off about her. "You're not human, are you?"

Immediately, she retracted her hand, surprise and shock coating her face.

"How do you know?" she asked, wrapping her arms around herself. "Can you tell by looking at me?"

I smiled, amused by her. "Ah, no. I'm just attentive. That, and I can sense you're different, your aura isn't like everyone else."

"Oh. Okay." She tilted her head, looking at me with curious eyes. "You're that girl from alleyway last week. I'm glad you're still alive. Humans usually live such short lives."

She took the words out of my mouth. I gave her a small nod. Noticing her shiver slightly, I offered her my jacket. Putting it around her shoulders, she smiled in thanks as she pulled it closer to preserve her warmth.

"So this is what being cold feels like," she murmured.

From everything I knew about her so far, I was certain human wasn't what she was. She wasn't a spirt either. Taking a seat on the bench, I patiently watched as she followed me and waited for her to say something.

"You're right, I'm actually an angel." Her voice came out quiet, almost as if she were afraid anyone else would hear. "The truth is... I got in trouble for doing something I wasn't supposed to do. So now I'm stuck as a human until the higher angels think I've learned my lesson."

"You're okay with telling me all this?" I asked, feeling a slight breeze. I could see she wasn't used to this cold, shivering again slightly, but I welcomed this feeling.

"Mmhm," she hummed. "I saved your life, I think I can trust you."

I subconsciously reached over to touch the bandages on my right forearm. Blue eyes seemed to have noticed and stared.

"Don't humans usually act more surprised when they hear stuff like this?"

This caused me to laugh. "I guess for most people but I'm different like you. I'm actually – if you count my spirit, past and memories – over three hundred years old. Nothing surprises me anymore."

The brunette's eyes lit up at this fact. "Really? I don't know about human years, but I'm really old too! I don't act that way according to the higher angels though." She paused, taking in the rest of my answer. "Wait, how do you know I'm different? Like, how can you sense it?"

"I can summon ghosts," I replied. "Well, just a single ghost, but it just a feeling that I get depending on who I'm around. It's kind of hard to explain."

As we sat there and talked, I noticed the missing parts of my strange story fell into place. Using the angel girl's explanation and pairing it with my memories, I could see how things worked out.

A man had been lurking in the dark alleyway, seeking revenge on his ex-girlfriend for breaking up with him, through attempt murder. Since it was so dark and he knew his ex-girlfriend would often walk by this alleyway, he tried to set his plan into motion.

Sadly, I was mistaken for his ex, having similar features. The angel girl had noticed, knowing this incident would unintentionally cause my potential death. Using her powers, she had caused the burnt-out streetlight and caused it to flicker, hoping someone could help her intervene.

"Hey! Look out!"

Seeing the man with the knife, my survival reflexes immediately kicked in. I tried to duck out of the way, feeling a slight sting on my right forearm. Vague memories of self defence from a previous life flooded my brain. Trying to imitate those motions, I somehow managed to get the man to drop his knife and kick it away.

A frazzled and terrified look overcame the man as he stared at me. As I was formulating a plan on how to take the man down, rapid footsteps and a direct order came from another younger guy.

"Butterfree, use Sleep Powder!"

The butterfly Pokémon quickly caused the man to fall into a deep slumber, relieving me of the adrenaline that had my body had anticipated.

"Are you okay?" The guy had green hair and stunning eyes that matched. "You're bleeding."

I glanced down at the cut on my arm. "Ah, this is nothing. Thank you for helping me."

"Don't worry about it, I'd help anyone in this situation."

His eyes flickered down the alleyway, mine did the same, and although the light no longer worked, I still felt the presence of someone having been down that alleyway.

"I'll call the police," he offered. "We should also take care of your injury."

"Alright. Thank you."

"Thanks for helping," I said to the brunette. "It would've been a shame to have lived another life where I couldn't contact Jack when I already have all my memories. I'm sorry it caused you to be stuck like this though."

She waved me off. "No worries! I'll be back as an angel protecting you all again in no time."

"Do you need a place to stay? I have a spare bedroom in my apartment." I offered, trying to think of a way to make things up to her for helping me. "You're more than welcome at my place."

"That'd be great!" She clapped her hands together.

We stood up, walking away from the playground area.

"What's your name?" I asked, realizing we missed something so crucial before getting to know each other. "I'm Violet, but you can call me Vi."

"May," she replied. "I hope you don't mind watching over me while I'm a human, Vi. I didn't know humans could feel so much. Like this pounding in my chest... I think it's called a heartbeat?"

"Yup."

May looked genuinely proud to be right. "Cool! Looks like watching those shows on TV while I was an angel has its perks! I told them I wasn't waste time."

As we approached my apartment, May kept asking various questions about being a human. The one she asked as we were at the key pad to open the front door caused me to pause and required me to think.

"Hey Vi, you mentioned someone named Jack. Who is he?"

A bittersweet feeling filled me.

"Jack is a spirit. He's the one I've kept summoning throughout all these years and lifetimes. He's... my everything."

Hehe, a love that goes beyond lifetimes... So cute. :)

Anyways, the first few chapters will have background info, but there's definitely more to come! (For both frozenflowershipping and contestshipping!)

Thanks for reading and have a fantastic day!

~Skitty13