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Donna and Handy looked at each other in shock.

"I can't believe Rose is pregnant!" Donna exclaimed. "I didn't think Time lords could have babies with humans"

"It's possible alright," replied Handy "lots of things are possible. I've seen things. Well not me but the Doctor. The actual Doctor I mean, but... ohhhh, it's complicated, you know."

"I know." Said Donna. Her time Lord brain was working in a frenzy trying to make sense of the whole situation. She could almost feel it vibrating. Lots of thoughts were flying around. What if...? But couldn't it be...? *gasp*! It might be...

"It doesn't even have to be Rose!" exclaimed Donna and Handy at the same time.

"I suppose we'll have to keep reading," said Handy. "There must be something in this diary which will tell us who it is."

May 31st

I can't tell anyone about this. Not yet. I don't know if I'm ready to have a baby with him. I mean, I love him so so much but a BABY? I'm too young to have a baby!! Especially in our circumstances. Its surely not possible to have a healthy baby in our circumstances.

June 2nd

I talked to him about babies today. He said maybe one day but probably not. With the way things are, with us facing peril every day, what sort of world would that be to bring a baby into? It's true. If only we could settle down somewhere quite. Me, him and the baby. If the baby is OK and healthy. What if it has flippers or something? Or two heads? AAAAH!!!

June 3rd

I consulted the TARDIS again. I wanted to know about if my baby would have any problems. My baby. That's the thing. I know he doesn't want it after our conversation yesterday. The TARDIS said our baby was going to be OK. Unusual but OK. It told me that if I wanted to, there was a way to make it go away. Maybe it's hormones or something, but the very thought of killing my baby made me feel sick, a different kind of sick to the usual kind (I'm still being sick every morning. It's crap). Because I love this baby. I can feel it inside me, a product of our love. I can't tell him. He might make me get rid of it.

June 4th

Still being sick. 8.34 on the dot, as usual. It was horrible. He still hasn't noticed though. I'm careful about brushing my teeth. My little belly is sticking out now, I started wearing baggy clothes. Today he kissed me and said "You know when we were talking about babies?" I said yes. He continued "I really do love you so much. I love having you to myself. Maybe one day we'll settle down. But at the moment it's just you and me, the way I like it." I hope he didn't see my eyes filling with tears. When I was alone I cried and cried with my tears running like salty rivers all down my face, pouring out every bit of joy I have ever felt in my life. There is nothing now but sadness. And my baby.

"That's the last entry," Donna sighed.

"And we still don't know who it was."

"But we have found a vital clue," said Donna.

"Oh, you're clever, you," said Handy, "I know what it is..."

"Watch the bathrooms at 8.34!" They chorused.

~~That night~~

Rose often fell asleep listening to the double heartbeat of the love of her life. She felt so warm and safe wrapped up in his arms and smelling his woody smell. But recently she had been having trouble sleeping. Her secret was smothering her. She wanted so badly to tell her Doctor and maybe he would fix her. Fix everything.

She walked across the room and wrote in her diary.

June 5th

I hate that we have to have secrets between us. When I came back, we talked about whether it would work out and promised each other honesty. No lying, no hiding the truth to protect eachother. Just me and the Doctor telling eachother everything. But it didn't work like that. I have my horrible secret and I don't want to see the look in his eyes if I ever told him. It would kill him and because of that it would kill me. And also I can't tell him the other secret. The one the TARDIS whispered to me. We still have a telepathic link. When Ianto wants people to know his secret he'll tell everyone and its not my place to do that.

~The Doctor's diary~

June 5th. Well, sort of. Timey wimey and all that.

I wish I knew what was wrong with my Rose. She is not herself and hasn't been for a while. When I try to touch her she springs back like an elastic band like she doesn't want me at all. I think she has stopped loving me. They always do in the end. It feels like my world has fallen apart. I have lost her so many times and now she is physically here with me forever but she doesn't want to be anywhere near me.

~Jack's diary~

June 5th

Another day of Ianto acting weirdly. Once again I suggested that we have a shower together because he used to really like that but he said no. He doesn't like taking his clothes off near me anymore or letting me explore his body. He says he's getting fat. What else has he been doing? Oh yes, I spotted him eating anchovies with strawberry ice cream.

OH MY GOD. I think I know what's wrong with him!!!! I had this friend who was a dancer and she was really beautiful. We didn't *do it*, she really was just a friend. Anyway she got this eating disorder and she would eat weird things and then be sick. Ianto is sick sometimes too. He thinks I can't hear. Of course I can.

I really need to help him. My friend died from her problem because she starved to death. I will not let the same thing happen to the love of my life.

Even though it was the middle of the night, Jack woke his husband up.

"You're beautiful and I love you more than anything," he whispered. He kissed Ianto on the nose. Ianto rubbed his eyes sleepily.

"Thanks" he said.

"I know what's wrong with you, babe," he continued. "We'll get through this. We're strong and in love."

~Ianto's diary~

June 5th

I think Jack knows. This changes everything!!! I'm scared!

~8.34 toilet watch~

"I can hear someone being sick in this one" Handy whispered to Donna.

"This is our mummy-or-daddy-to-be then!" Donna was quite excited to have the mystery solved at last. She gripped Handy's hand as they waited impatiently for the toilet door to open. Whoever was in there was throwing up really really badly. It went on for ages.

Finally it stopped. They could hear the sound of running water and brushing teeth. Then the taps went off. Then footsteps. The lock going. Donna and Handy didn't even bother hiding, they were going to confront the person.

They held their breath.

Finally a figure emerged.

IT WAS ROSE!!

Donna grabbed her arm.

"Rose, we know your secret," she said. A look of horror flashed across Rose's face.

"But how? Please, please don't tell anyone. I... I'm going to be OK!"

"We looked at your diary," Handy said sheepishly. "We know you're pregnant but tell the Doctor because he'll be happy. I'm happy for you!"

Rose's face twitched slightly. "I suppose you're right. But please don't tell him yet. Let me tell him when I'm ready."

~Rose's diary~

June 6th

They caught me being sick this morning. They think I'm pregnant because they read a diary and assumed it was me. But the TARDIS told me who is pregnant. It's Ianto. He wants to keep it a secret, I don't know why. But I will let them think it's me. It protects Ianto. Most of all, it protects me. They won't find out my own horrible secret, the sickness that eats away at my soul. The Doctor can't know about that because I love him so much. Nobody can. I am sick and even the TARDIS can't cure me. Even the Doctor can't cure me. So it must stay a secret.

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