Ch.2-Explaintions

Carlisle stiffed hearing the chime-like voice of Alice.

"You're going to be in trouble if Esme ever finds out" she scolded.

He sighed he'd thought about that often. He was never going to let it slip after all he couldn't say it was a lie Carlisle loved his wife also. Evy, however her fiery personality attracted him quickly.

"I know, Alice believe me I do not intend to let her find out" the doctor told her, staring off into space. "She's human anyway."

Edward's golden eyes lit up amused.

"May I remind you that Esme was human as well when you met her?"

Carlisle nodded, unsuccessfully clearing the librarian from his mind.

"Yes, I'm perfectly aware of that son, but there's a quality Evelyn has Esme does not."

Edward chuckled. "What's that?"

His father considered the one trait he loved the most.

"Fire, zest for life; sure she is clumsy and naïve but she's adorable" Carlisle confessed, "And I love her."

Alice spoke up.

"But you love Esme too."

Cairo, Egypt

Evy paced her room feelings she desperately wanted to forget washing over her body. Beginning to sweat again, she laid down on her bed, fighting the lightheadedness. Rick knocked gently at his wife's door.

"Evy?" he called, "you alright?"

She still lay on her side with her mind racing. Tears leaked onto the pillow while she cried.

Carlisle I love you, I need you. Why must we choose between each other? Rick means the world to me but I can't breathe without you, Dr. Cullen. How do we choose?

Evy shook her head bringing herself back to reality. Resting her hand against her slightly pale, sweaty forehead she got up and opened the door. Rick stood outside it, she stepped aside to let him pass.

"Evy are you sure you're not ill?" questioned her husband wrapping her in his embrace. "It's unlike you to be so quiet."

"What I have is incurable" the librarian muttered to herself. "The love he gave me, its flame still burns bright."

Rick kissed Evy's lips she took comfort in it however it didn't taste the same as Carlisle's.

"Rick can you leave me awhile? I want to be alone" she asked her husband, knowing the dishonesty stressed their marriage.

He gazed into her blue eyes. "Of course, Honey."

Once Evy saw the door close she sank onto her knees crying. Strong as Evelyn O' Connell made people believe she was; matters of the heart left her weak and broken.

Should I call Carlisle or live with the pain of letting him slip through my fingers? I could just write a letter I suppose. What about Rick, what if he finds out? Evy O' Connell get over it it's now or never.

Forks, Washington

Carlisle sighed exasperatedly. "Yes, Alice I admit it I love Esme too."

The pixie-like vampire giggled, sounding like a pair of wind chimes again.

"You have to choose, Carlisle, Esme or Evy?"

He ran a hand through his blond hair, hanging his head low in defeat.

"I don't know," the doctor admitted ruefully. My heart tells me Evy my conscience however tells me stay with Esme. Any suggestions Alice or Edward?"

"Do what your heart tells you" said Alice.

"I agree," Edward responded in unison with his adopted sister. "You should be happy, Carlisle. You've been miserable lately my only advice is choose wisely."

Carlisle stared into space sighing heavily. He had a decision to make.