Chapter Two

"Hey, Dr. Robbins!" April shouted down the corridor that led to the PEDs wing.

"Hey, April. How is that baby bump of yours doing?" Arizona smiled as she noticed April's stomach growing everyday.

"Doing just fine, thanks. Hey, you don't look so great! You okay? I mean I don't intend to sound harsh but you know, you've looked better" April said with some concern. She knew Arizona was not 'fine' like she always said. She knew she was struggling with the changes that had happened, and the massive change that was soon to occur. Callie moving to New York was something a lot of the staff hadn't expected. Some even believed that it wouldn't end up happening. April knows that Arizona was one of those people. She could see that her friend was tired and broken but it was a struggle to get Arizona to open up. I guess thats what happens when you are the daughter of a marine. Arizona showed no one her emotional side.

"Oh, Thanks, April. Way to make a girl feel good" Arizona gave her a half smile. "Im fine, but thanks for the concern, and um, yeah I'm okay". April tried her hardest to believe her friend but she was worried about her.

"Hey, Arizona! You want to go to Joe's tonight? I could do with some company" April tried to look as casual as possible.

"Uh, April, You are pregnant" Arizona laughed.

"Yeah, I'm aware of that" April stated, pointing to her bump. "I'll have water, and you, well you can have whatever you like".

"Okay, I get off at 7 tonight. Meet you out front?" Arizona questioned .

"Sounds good, Dr. Robbins. See you tonight" April waved as she headed for the elevator.

Arizona smiled at the thought of getting a little normality back in her life. It had been so long since she went out with friends. Sofia was with Callie tonight which made things much easier. She refused to ask Callie to swap days with her after the comments made during the court hearing.

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Arizona stood at the nurses station on PEDs whilst signing off on her last case of the day. It was 6:45pm and it had been a relatively quiet day. She decided to head off to the locker room before anyone could catch her and keep her at the hospital any longer.

Opening the door to the locker room, she was happy to see that it was empty. Pulling off her scrub top, she rolled her shoulders and stretched her neck in the hope that it would release a little tension.

"Hi, Sorry, I didn't know you were in here" A husky voice says, startling Arizona.

"Oh, Um, Hi. Its okay. I will be gone in a moment" Arizona said as she turned to see an almost naked Callie. Dripping from her recent shower in nothing but a towel. Arizona tried desperately to hide her half naked body without making it too obvious. Quickly changing into a deep red shirt, she turned to give Callie a half smile whilst swinging her purse over her shoulder.

"Arizo-"

"Bye, Callie" Arizona quickly and quietly responded. Before she realised it, she was outside Grey Sloan and standing in front of April Kepner.

"Hey, are you okay? You look like you've seen, um, I don't know but you look off!" April asked concerned.

"I need a drink, lets go" Arizona responded while grabbing April's hand.

Arizona doesn't remember travelling from the locker room to the front of the hospital. She switched off and zoned out before she could do or say something she might regret. Seeing Callie standing in front of her, naked or not made her heart ache. She had so much she wanted to say to Callie. She so much she needed Callie to hear, but she figured that eventually her and Callie would find each other again. How wrong she was and now she felt it was too late. She cant believe that she ever thought Callie would remain single. Hello, its Callie freaking Torres. Hottest woman on this planet. Now Callie Torres is moving to New York to be with the new love of her life. This sucks, I suck. God, how stupid can someone be. Arizona thought to herself. She was now stood outside Joes, once again with no idea how she got there. God I really must stop zoning out. She thought.

"So, what will it be, Arizona?"

"Huh"

"To drink? What would you like to drink?"

"Oh, Um, Tequila please, April"

"Woah, You're starting early" April laughed.

"Yeah, Guess I am" was all Arizona replied while looking around Joes.

April stood watching Arizona as she downed her 3rd tequila. They had only been in Joes for 15 minutes. April was determined to get to the bottom of Arizona's current mood. She knew something was going on and she was going to find out.

"Hey, maybe you should slow down a little" April suggested while putting her hand on Arizona's shoulder. It was so much as a comforting hand but more to get her attention.

"Why? I don't have anywhere to be right now. I have the next 3 days off and Sofia is with Callie" Arizona snorted when she said the other woman's name.

"Oh, so thats what this is all about? You know, Arizona, if you need anyone to talk to, I'm here. You know that, right?"April said sympathetically. "Im always here if you need to talk, whatever it is about".

"Thanks, but I'm fine. Oh god, how many more times can I keep using that line before people think I'm a liar. Im not a liar, I was raised better than that". Arizona slurred.

"I know you aren't a liar, Arizona. But I do know something is wrong. I mean, aside from the obvious. You know, the whole court thing and New York, but it seems to of really hit you over the last few days" April says hoping to god that Arizona doesn't clam up.

"Yeah, well, I haven't been the same since she walked out of that therapy session all that time ago. Pfft, Long before perfect Penny came along" Arizona snorted.

"So lets talk about it. Surely it would do you some good to talk. Anyway, talking never hurt anyone, right?"

"Sure, lets talk all about me and my sad, pathetic cheating life. Thats where this all started. Well, no. Actually it was when poor little me became a cripple because of that stupid freaking plane crash, but more so when I slept with that woman who meant absolutely nothing to me whatsoever!" Arizona says breathlessly.

"O-o-okay. Um, So, Um." April stuttered, unsure how to start the conversation.

"Oh, April. Don't worry about me. I will be fine. I will get my life together soon enough. When Callie is gone, I can rebuild. Oh who am I trying to kid, I love her. I cannot bare the thought of her actually getting on that plane and leaving Seattle" Arizona whispers, feeling the tears building in her eyes.

"But you will see her throughout the year when she comes for Sofia? No?" April calmly replies.

"I don't want her to leave, April. I love her. I've always loved her. There will never be anyone else like her. That smile…Oh, that smile. Its like winning the lottery over and over again when she smiles. Wars could be fought over that smile. Have you seen her smile, April?"

"I have. Many many times. Its a good smile" April gave Arizona a smile and laughed.

"That used to be just MY smile. Not Penny's. Mine. She was my Calliope. Now she is Penny's Calliope and I can't take it. She actually calls her Calliope, Ugh." Arizona pulls a face at her statement. No one ever called Callie by her full name. That was reserved for only Arizona and Callie' father.

"I didn't realise you felt this way, Arizona. I mean, I know how perfect you two were together, but, I thought you were okay with the way things had gone. Well, except for the whole custody battle" April was genuinely shocked to hear how much Arizona still loved Callie. Damn she is good at hiding her feelings. April thought to herself.

"I never, ever wanted that to happen. I just couldn't let her take my daughter away from me. Not all the way to New York, with someone who Sofia barely knows. In what universe did Callie think I would be okay with that? My actual hope was that Callie would back down once she knew I had a lawyer. That she would decide it wasn't worth the risk, but she didn't. She took it to court and I wasn't expecting it or prepared for it at all." Arizona mumbled quietly.

"But you won, Arizona. you have your baby girl here with you? Isn't that what you wanted?" April questioned.

"She misses her, April. She misses her to the point that she told me last night that she keeps her eyes open when she goes to bed and waits for Callie to come home. It breaks my heart. Yes, I have my baby girl with me, but she wants to be with her Mama."

"Oh" was all that April could bring herself to say.

"Yes, Oh, indeed. I thought that Callie would decide not to leave, and Penny would go off to New York alone. Callie would then be left here, and we could try to make a go of things again. That clearly didn't work" Arizona was fighting back tears now. She was also ordering another drink.

"Hey, Joe. Can I get a very large white wine please"

"Sure, Robbins." Joe left to pour her drink.

"Oh, Arizona. I don't know what to say. Does Callie know you feel this way?" April's heart was breaking for her friend.

"Ha, No!" Arizona laughed.

"Maybe you should tell her? It may help?" April didn't know what she should say or do.

"No, April. That ship has sailed, and sank. If Callie still loved me, she wouldn't be moving to New York. She would of told Penny it wasn't going to work and she would of stayed here with Sofia. Instead, she decided to go to court to take Sofia with her. That, to me, speaks volumes." Arizona took a sip of her wine.

"Well, yes, I can see your point. But, how do you know if you don't speak to her. Correct me if I'm wrong, but, you've avoided her since the court hearing. Yes?" April refused to let this one lie.

"Yes, I cant look at her. I took her daughter away from her. How can I hold a normal conversation with her. I seen her today, when my shift was ending. I went to the locker room to change and she was in there. She had just gotten out of the shower. I didn't know she was in there. Then she came around to the lockers dressed in nothing but, well, barely a towel. I wanted to die there and then. My heart felt like it was beating out of my chest. So many times she had come into our bedroom in a towel, so many times I just stood and stared at the beauty in front of me, and today, I didn't know where to look." Arizona's cheeks started to redden.

"Oh, Thats why you came out of work today looking flustered. Well, I wouldn't say flustered but more, Um, dejected." The look in April's eyes showed so much sympathy.

"Yes" Arizona sighed. "I don't know what to do. I want Callie. More than I've ever wanted anyone in my life. More so than I did all those years ago, when I kissed her in that bathroom, right there" she pointed over to the bathroom with her wine glass.

"Oh, I need another drink. Wow, I must be thirsty tonight". She laughed.

"Um" April hesitated. "Maybe we should get you home soon".

"Why? I have nothing to go home for" Arizona laughed.

"You do. You need to be home so you are fresh tomorrow when your baby girl comes home" April smiled.

"You know, You're right, April. Lets hit the road. I could use some fresh air." Arizona stood and slightly swayed.

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