"Hu…..huh….hm….." Tokiya hum some melody as he let his fingers run through Otoya hair. Do it gently and carefully with care.
Otoya just rest his head on Tokiya laps can't move much since last night Tokiya isn't very gentle with him on bed. (You guys know what I meant) He never gentle to him anyway but he can't get use to it yet. Even though it has been more years since they get together.
"Do you love me?" Tokiya asks as he pinch Otoya cheek smiling sweetly to him but his smile is just a mask since his true self is scarier, way scarier than anything else. Looking at his eyes there's darkness inside and coldness that he will never forget.
"I love you." Otoya says.
He doesn't want to make this person angrier or lonely so wouldn't it best if he stay by Tokiya side a little more longer, his bandage start to come loose and Tokiya quickly tighten it as he see blood come out. Otoya didn't scream in pain scare if it make Tokiya angry so every time he will bite his lips.
Feeling Tokiya hands touching him, it's warm like a human but his heart is already become a monster, normal people will run away once they know what Tokiya really is but Otoya is different he want to stay by his side.
"Tokiya….." Otoya sat on his laps, his hands is around Tokiya neck. He leaned closer to that person and kiss him.
Tokiya kiss him back pulling Otoya closer to him. Otoya grip his shirt since he is there's pain at his lower part of the body but never says anything.
"You seems a lot paler, are you angry that i take out your eye?" Tokiya asks.
Otoya shook his head. "Not at all Tokiya, I'm deserved being punish by you."
Tokiya smirks as Otoya show the sign of royalty to him and that's the way he like it, by placing an invisible chain so Otoya won't able to run away from him.
"I will have to go now Otoya and never let anyone else enter this place except for me."
"Yes." Otoya says softly.
Tokiya carry Otoya in his arms and carry him all the way to the living room, placing the boy on the sofa. Kiss Otoya one more time before going out and Otoya just wait until he hear the sound of the door is being lock, this house has become a cage from him since other than doors the widow is also lock. Even if there's fire in the house he can't escape.
This is his life now.
"….." Otoya sigh. Touching his eye that has been remove out by Tokiya, he never sees someone actually eat the part of the organ except in the movie. Now all he has now is an eye which feels very weird since now he can only see half the sight he usually sees. Looks like he will get fired once his boss sees him as one eye person and even his manager will left him without hesitation.
Maybe even his friends will leave him.
"They nice, they will never leave me but maybe Ren won't talk to me again since Tokiya has beaten him up."
He has nothing better to do here in this house, just sit near the big window and look outside. Sometime he spot little animals wander around at the garden but he can't get out to touch them since he was lock in here which is funny since animals the one that suppose to lock in a cage.
"It's scary to think that I'm the lonely one."
Watching outside the blue sky and the clouds trying to guess what shapes its making. He starts to get bored, there's no communication inside the house which he know why. Tokiya won't allow him to talk to someone except for him, last week was the last time he ever steps out from the house but now his freedom has also been taken away.
"Are you sure you still want to stay with him? Look what he have done to you!"Sho shout unsatisfied with Otoya decision. "Get out from there when you still got the chance."
"Sho is right, you have to get out from there." Natsuki says as he places his hand on Otoya shoulder. "Get out before it's too late."
"GUYS!" Otoya put on a fake smile and push away Natsuki hand. "Tokiya is a kind guy, I just fell down from the stair and that's all. Tokiya love me."
"He's crazy!" Sho shouts.
"That's enough! I love him and he loves me back and that's all the matter please doesn't bother with the life I have chosen. I thought you two understand how I felt because you're my friends."
Sho and Natsuki look at each other before looking back at Otoya.
"If you really love him then help him instead of letting him keep hurting you. Heal his sickness. It's not too late for that."
"Tokiya can hurt me, as long he loves me. That's all that matter right?" Otoya says sadly.
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"I'm worry, it's been more than a week that Otoya hasn't contact us and the manager says that he was not there at the airport."
Sho just look at his phone worry of his friend. He has been friend with Otoya since high school and they're close even though they're in different class.
"Huh! What is so special about him?" Satsuki says as he yawns.
Sho just sigh as he looks at Satsuki, Satsuki and Natsuki share the same body. When he wear glasses he will become Natsuki a nice person that like to help others but if his not with glasses he will Satsuki a cold guy but actually was very kind deep inside.
"He is our friend Satsuki; we should do our best to help him." Sho says.
"I don't care one bit."
"Satsuki…."
"We also have our problem too don't we, since….." He pauses. "You never tell me who d you love more between Natsuki and me."
Sho just stare at Satsuki, feeling very guilty about being selfish the time. He can't help it since he has fallen in love with them both the same time, Natsuki is a kind guy and very different from other while Satsuki music is the most amazing thing ever. That is why he fell in love with them and because of him they both are fighting deep inside who he love best.
"I love you two the same way." Sho says and drink his lemonade.
"We both still won't accept that answer."
"You two are annoying just go to sleep."
"It's still in the afternoon Sho, I'm not sleepy yet."
"Just do something that's not related to me. I'm going to finish my assignment now so goodbye."
"Hm…" Satsuki smirks. "I wonder why he didn't realize he act so cute when he's angry."
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"I'm home." Tokiya walk in the house, Otoya smile at him even though it hurts but try his best to do it.
"Welcome home Tokiya."
Embracing Otoya tightly as he can, missing him so much, his scent and his warm. "Did you miss me?" Tokiya asks and Otoya nod like a good boy.
"I miss you."
"Tell me you love me Otoya."
"I love you."
He seems very satisfied with Otoya answer, taking of his clothes and start to act rough as his touch Otoya body, shivering in fear as he feels Tokiya hands around him.
"What's wrong Otoya?"
Staying in silent, looking at Tokiya face scare if another of his eyes will poke again then he won't able to see anything again. If he doesn't speak Tokiya might even cut his tongue so it's better if he answer than face the consequences.
"There's nothing wrong." He lied.
"You seem to lie at me Otoya, have you forgotten that I hate people lying to me."
Tokiya rush to the kitchen and all Otoya do is just stand in his place not moving an inch since if he does want to run there's no escape since everything is lock. Hearing glasses broken means that Tokiya is searching something very desperately.
'What is he planning now? Oh my god please let this be less painful, please let it be a spoon or fork as long it's not a knife.'
Tokiya came out with a knife, looks like Otoya is not very lucky today.
"Tokiya….." Otoya cries.
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"Why do you leave me? I thought you love me?"
"I'm sorry Tokiya but you're not my type. Also I found a guy that is richer than you so forget about me okay."
"All this time you lie to me! You tell me your feelings to me are true."
"Everyone lie, so get out from my sight!"
She left him, not even say the word goodbye. Ever since that Tokiya experience some more hardship especially that his mother left him. Everyone left him because of stupid reason, true love doesn't exist. All of them are idiot every night he cut himself so he can suppress the anger inside him until one day.
"Tokiya!" Otoya shouts. "I love you."
It was then or the first time in his life he experience love once more.
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"Otoya….." Tokiya says as he sit at the side of the bed watching Otoya fell asleep, and trace his finger at the wound he give to Otoya. Even though he did that Otoya embrace him as he let out all his anger to him.
"Hurt me more if you have too."
Laughing silently as he keep look Otoya.
Otoya open his eyes watching Tokiya cry, slowly reaching out his hand placing it on Tokiya cheek.
"Tokiya…" He calls his lover name. "If it still painful you can hurt me."
"Why? Why do you still love me after what I have done to you?"
"This is what they call love." Otoya closes his eyes and fell back asleep.