[ Natsu ]

Honestly, I'm mad. We both have an agreement too. If there are any important decisions to be made, then we sit down and talk. So how could he go against it? How could he even face such a decision all on his own? As far as I can recall myself, Sting and I are in a relationship. Therefore partners don't hide any secrets at all and stay honest.

„Why weren't you talking with me about this at all, Sting?"
„I've talked with my foster parents about this step and they gave me their allowance"

is his only response right now as he starts right now to pack his suitcase. Since when does he come so clear with them?

„But you never told me you're up for a scholarship"

are now the words coming from me as I cross my arms and pout as he seems to ignore me right now. What is going on inside of him? Three years ago, when we met he was all against going to school and now he's quite eager to educate himself even further? Somehow, I can't really believe this at all. For a while, there is silence between us. A deadly and overwhelming silence.

„So, how do you think our relationship will go on?"
„Simply, I'll end it with tonight. Then both of us are free to move into the direction they want to"

is he now saying to me and I feel how everything inside of me starts to churn. No. This can't be for real. I'm stuck in some sort of nightmare and when I wake up, Sting smiles at me and he even gives me a kiss to assure everything is allright.

But before I can talk more with him about this topic my pager goes off and enervated as I am I roll my eyes.

„We talk about this after I'm back home"

is all I say in a very serious tone to him, then I head out to the fire station.

************

I need to break my ties in order to achieve my dream. The last three years with Natsu were quite fun and I learned a lot about human interaction, but I have to leave. If I simply stay at his side, I might end up the way my foster parents want me to. I worked and learned so hard, that this scholarship is my ticket to attend the next round of the casting held in Tokyo. He never would have let me go if I told him my true intentions. I want to attend the music school within the same building as the famous art academy located in Ueno. With all the knowledge I'm able to gather there my chances to become a famous singer will rise.

I can see clearly, Natsu wants to talk more about me leaving the country, but right now he has to head out for work. A deep sigh leaves right now my lips as he leaves the apartment. That gives me enough time to get all my belongings packed and ready for my flight to Tokyo-Narita in a few hours from now. He'll survive for sure without me around. Besides, somehow I feel like the right spark is missing in my relationship with Natsu. That's another reason why I decide to go. Because, I feel no passion, no longing any more towards him.

Once I'm ready, I call our friends Lucy and Loke to get me to the airport. The two of them are always reliable and Loke also owns his own freight-forwarding company. So he can pick up with one of his trucks all of my belongings and send it to the address I'm going to stay in the next years from now on. Lucy drives me with her tiny Honda to the airport and she's quite curious why I wasn't asking Natsu in the first place.

„He had to head off to work"

is my only response towards her words as I look out the window and honestly I feel no sign of regret or remorse at all. I only tell her I'm attending school abroad for a while. She doesn't need to know, that Natsu wasn't quite pleased and that I decided to break up with him. Yeah, both of us will be better off this way. Otherwise, it would only be a masked tragedy slowly spiraling downwards.

As I reach the departure hall I thank Lucy for driving me, then I take my suitcase as well my two bags and the backpack and head to the counter of the airline I'm going to head over to Tokyo.

„Hey Lucy"
„What is it, Sting?"
„Just tell Natsu, I'm going to call him once I arrived safely in Tokyo"

are now my words towards the slender young blond woman I'm befriended with, show a smile and with a quick nod of her head she's off. Deep inside I know, I can entrust Natsu completely into her care. He won't be lonely at all.

************

Couple of hours later the plane is finally landing in Tokyo. I haven't told Natsu my flight was going in the early morning hours, so I left him in the believe he has still some hours time to spend with me. I can only hope he won't be mad about me. I do this in order to be more independent and to achieve what I really want to be. I'm quite curious about this country. Without Natsu knowing at all, I even attended classes in order to learn proper japanese. Sure, I was able to pick up a bit from him. But, I wanted to improve my skills. Therefore, I spent the last two years secretly studying japanese. Now while I live in this country I'm able to improve my skills even more. So, let the fun beginn. I'm ready to face my new life