SAM smile as he saw dean in the window smiling happy and not by force..

SAM felt happy yet sad that dean move on..without him but was glad,,

Sam once more stare at dean and then walk away.

not wanting dean to notice him..

day pass as he finish another hunt..

monster and demon are coming and going

killing innocence people..

stress over come him as he fight and fight... without ever stopping

ignoring his pain and wounded..

knowing it might kill him.. some day soon.

he hope...

SAM woke up with a painful grasped

and let out a ugly screams! ,''

Sam tremble out of his bed and ran to the bathroom and throw up in disgust.

tear trailing down his pale face.. SAM cried and cry.. hope his nightmare will go away...

but it never does.. sorrow fill his heart as he try to calm down...and breath..

Sammy saw only darkness around him... as he stood still in his place in the bathroom..

SAM slowly got up and clean himself up.. making sure they nothing wrong with his appearance..

Sam sighed tired

change his clothe and went to get breakfast.. and drive to a new hunt...

SAM felt SO alone ,he made so many sacrifice, him and dean.. but his brother finally have his peace. one of them must continue to fight in this war.. against the demon and angels,, that wanting this world to end.. dean and him stop it.. now they looking for him.. to make him pay.

for stopping it..

Sam walk around tired and lonely ..he just got back from a hunt..

his whole body ache but still keep strolling alone.

night is here.. and the moon is so high and beautiful in the sky.

Sam close his eye and feel the cold breeze around him, making him shiver..

the forest is SO empty and dark. seeing some animal running around drinking some water from the river that was close bye...

Sam saw it was big rock that was close to the river and can see the moon more better there, ,so he went and sit down..,,

minute pass as he stood there breath the air and smile tired,,

sudden tear come out pouring Sam sobbed as he try too stop himself.. but couldn't...

the memories of hell. the aw full scream, the plead fro the pain to stop.

the beaten, the torture, the evil laugh, the mocking voice is all in his head.

it won't go away..

SAM wipe the tear away and brush his hair away from his eye..

SAM narrowed his eye when he heard some noise and turn too see a a lonely wolf.. watching him.. closed

Sam stared calmly making sure not move or show no fear..

or make it mad.

the mysterious wolf stare , and walk away to the river and took a couple of drink and left..

SAM just stare, tell he couldn't see the wolf no more , then turn back to the sky.. . .. . sadness still hold him tight, never really free from them. .. .

Sam remember the day when he wasn't so broken and hurt like this..

Sam gaze to the darkness and bright moon in the river reflection..

memories of hell, never letting him go , making him go insane..

silence scream and cry, pray for it too end.

but he still here, broken and waste out from fighting SO long..

but it his burden, for started the apocalypse...this is his punishment..

facing the day alone, with no one watching his back from the demon evil in the world.

all alone, going to city and city. saving life, bleeding for people that he doesn't even know.

SAM got up and walk back to the hotel room, and hope for a peace full night...

but he know nothing goes easy for a Winchester.

SAM lay in bed, glance at the empty wall, wanting to vanished and stop feeling this pain and lonely.

Sam close his eye and goes to slept, wander if he can died like this

peaceful and quiet.. but he know he will wake up and face this world alone

what hurt the most, not being with his brother, that will always break him..as darkness take full control and Sam know no more.

morning came...

as SAM grumble out of bed tired

takening a cold shower. geting dress and goes to get breakfast and then going back to the endless road of hunting.