*UPDATE*
Sorry it's been so long, I've been so so so busy.
"Will you kiss me Master?"
"Come with me pet." He went upstairs and I followed. He sat on his bed.
I shifted from foot to foot. "I- I don't know where to sit..." I trailed off.
"For now, right beside me." He smiled. I sat beside him. "Now I'm going to give you a couple weeks to get used to being a sub. So that means tonight you decide how far we go." He kissed my neck. "What should the safeword be?"
"Glee." I tilted my head so he had more to kiss. "That feels good Master."
"Does it now?" He grazed his teeth across the skin. He laughed when I shivered.
When he pulled away I pouted. He smiled and pushed lightly on my shoulders. I leaned back.
He stradled me and leaned down. "Still okay?" When I nodded he leaned the rest of the way and kissed me. Not just any kiss though, this was full of passion and desire. I wasn't ready to go all the way, but I could tell Master was. I decided to keep my lips sealed and not use the safeword tonight. Master slipped his hand up my shirt. I tensed, hoping Master didn't notice.
"Kurt...this isn't fair to you. I can tell you barely want my hand up your shirt." Master sat up.
"I'm sorry Master. I just haven't ever been with anyone before...well Britney, but we didn't do anything except heavily make out." I looked down.
"It's fine Kurt... I'm going to go take a shower." Master got up and walked into the bathroom. I heard the door lock.
"Master is not happy..." I mumbled to myself.
I told Master I needed a nap and he told me I could go upstairs, but I heard the piano so I snuck down the stairs and kneeled by the door to the basement.
Easy come, easy go, that's just how you live
Oh, take, take, take it all but you never give
Should've known you was trouble from the first kiss
Had your eyes wide open, why were they open?
Master was crying. I could hear it in his voice.
Gave you all I had and you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, yes you did
To give me all your love is all I ever asked
'Cause what you don't understand is
I'd catch a grenade for ya
Throw my hand on a blade for ya
I'd jump in front of a train for ya
You know I'd do anything for ya"
I need to let him in...
I would go through all this pain
Take a bullet straight through my brain
Yes, I would die for you, baby
But you won't do the same
No, no, no, no
I started to walk slowly down the stairs. I practiced going down them quietly the other day and managed to avoid all the noisy spots. I sat on the bottom step. Master was at the baby grand with his back to me.
Black, black, black and blue, beat me 'til I'm num
bTell the devil I said, hey, when you get back to where you're from
Mad women, bad women, that's just what you are, yeah
You'll smile in my face then rip the brakes out my car
Gave you all I had and you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, yes, you did
To give me all your love is all I ever asked
'Cause what you don't understand is
I do understand...I'm just scared...
I'd catch a grenade for ya
Throw my hand on a blade for ya
I'd jump in front of a train for ya
You know I'd do anything for ya
I would go through all this pain
Take a bullet straight through my brai
nYes, I would die for ya, baby
But you won't do the same
If my body was on fire
Ooh, you'd watch me burn down in flames
You said you loved me, you're a liar
'Cause you never, ever, ever did, baby
But darling, I'd still catch a grenade for ya
Throw my hand on a blade for ya
I'd jump in front of a train for ya
You know I'd do anything for ya
I would go through all this pain
Take a bullet straight through my brain
Yes, I would die for you, baby
But you won't do the same
No, you won't do the same
You wouldn't do the same
Ooh, you never do the same
No, no, no, no
"Kurt...why won't you let me in? Do you not trust me?" Master stood up.
"I do trust you Master. I'm just scared." I looked down.
"Why?" Master sat on the stairs and I moved down so I was kneeling at his feet.
"I've never had sex before, Master. I've never even touched myself. If I got turned on I tried to forget about it and I go take a cold shower..." I looked up into Master's eyes.
"Are you not comfortable with this?" Master looked hurt.
"No. I am. When I think about you, I think Master not Sam." I admitted.
"Then let me in Kurt." Master lifted my chin so I was looking at his eyes.
I swallowed hard and nodded. "What's down here anyways?" I looked around. "I've been down here before, but only admiring your guitar collection. Thank you for bringing mine here, Master."
"No problem, my love. Come on. I'll show you what's down here." Master took my hand and led me to the closed door on the right side of the basement. "Warning: whats behind this door is not PG-13." I giggled. He unlocked the door and opened it.
I gasped. The room was huge. It looked like the inside of a toy shop. There were about 20 different kinds of dildos on the wall some of them the size of an elephant. There were a few riding crops hanging up. Multiple different colors of bondage tape. There was a box with a rope sticking out of it in the corner. "Wow." Butt plugs sat on a table near the door. Finally there was a table in the center of the room. It had cuffs on it. and underneath I noticed there was a sex machine.
"It has to stay locked because I don't want someone walking in here, but here's a key for it. Feel free to come in here anytime." He walked out and I followed. "It's sound proof by the way."
"Do you mind if I look around in there, Master?" I asked sheepishly.
"No problem. I need to go get a bunch of stuff from the store. Do you need anything?" He asked starting up the stairs.
"Brownie mix and ice cream?"
"You want brownies for dessert tonight?"
"No. I want to make brownie milkshakes tonight. My mom taught me how to make them when she was alive and they are the most amazing things ever." I smiled.
"Okay. Movie tonight?"
"Disney." I giggled.
"I know. I'll be back in an hour. Have fun Kurt." Master winked and went up the stairs.
I sat down at the piano bench and waited until I heard the garage door close. Master probably has a camera in that room somewhere...I stood up and headed into the room. While searching for a video camera, I found more dildos and some beads and a bunch of gags. After ten minutes of rummaging I finally found a video camera and a tripod. I set it up and looked at all of his toys. Since I had never actually touched myself I wanted Master to be able to watch it.
I found the lube pretty easily. There were many MANY bottles of it in a cupboard. I decided to just take the smallest dildo off the wall and set the items down on the table. I lined the camera up so that the whole table was in view. The camera had a remote so i walked over to the table and took my clothes off. I left my boxers on and hopped up on the table which was, surprisingly, high. I hit the record button and started softly stroking myself through my boxers. Damn that felt really good.
I pulled my boxers off and blushed lightly. I had never looked at my penis when it was erect...its kinda impressive. I slowly stroked myself and groaned softly. I stroked faster and moaned. I got up on my knees and looked at the camera to make sure I was still in view. I lubed up my index finger and slid it into my ass. Oh god. I slid in another. I brushed across my prostate and my knees almost gave out. I pulled out my fingers and grabbed the dildo. I licked the tip of it then slid it into my mouth. After getting it really wet I put some lube on it just for good measure and pushed it into my ass slowly.
Once I got adjusted I started pushing my hips back into the toy. I pushed it in hard and pulled it out fast. I did it a few times and felt a weird tingly sensation in my stomach. I felt my penis twitch and before I knew what was going on I came, hard. I pulled the toy out and clicked the 'stop' button on the remote.
I got off the table and grabbed the side to steady myself. I started searching around for a towel or something. I found one and cleaned up myself and the mess on the table. I took the dildo into the basement bathroom and rinsed it off. I grabbed my clothes and went into the laundry room. I tossed the towel, my shirt, and my pants into the washer and started it. I put my boxers on and headed up to my room for some sweats. I didn't feel like putting on a shirt.
I walked down to the kitchen and got a handful of granola and a banana. I sat on the counter and ate them. Tossing the peel away, I walked into the living room and sat on the couch.
A little while later I heard the garage door and got down on my knees on the floor and waited for Master to come inside. I heard him on the phone. "No Puck. I think Kurt's letting me in tonight." A pause. Master laughed. "Shut up. You know what I meant. Although that would be nice." Another pause. "I gotta go dude. I'm getting ready to make dinner. Bye." He hung up and I crawled across the short distance. "Hey you." He smiled and put up the groceries.
"I made you something..." I leaned against the wall and pulled the CD out of my pocket.
"What's that?" He asked putting the ice cream away.
"Well..." I cleared my throat. "I found a video camera in that room downstairs..."
Master dropped a box of popcorn on the floor. "Did you now? And what did you do with that?" He picked up the box and leaned on the counter.
"I...Since I hadn't touched myself before...I...erm...I wanted you to see..." I sat up and put the CD on the counter. Sitting back on my heels I looked up at Master. "I used one of the toys, Master."
"How was it?" He walked over to me.
"It felt really good. I..." I swallowed. "I'm ready, Master."
I think this is the longest fic I've written...I hope this partially made up for not posting. Again, I'm really sorry. I started a college class this fall and it's really hard and time consuming. Also my aunt died before I went on vacation and I'm still recovering from that. Review!