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2 years later.

It has now been 20 years of this life and I can honestly understand what my family was trying to tell me about life getting mundane after so long. I feel like I do the same thing repeatedly and nothing ever ends. The only one that knows this is Jasper we talked about it in depth. He says that it's just me adjusting to a life of eternity. The only time I feel like myself like the old me is when I'm with Jasper in our library that has an adjoining door. He sits in his playing his guitar and I sit in mine reading a new book.

Today started out like any other. We were all doing our own thing either getting ready to go to work or go to school depending on what we decided to do this time around. Jasper and I decided to take college courses at the local college while Edward is interning at the hospital with Carlisle and Esme picked up a new design job for some of the wives of the doctors at the hospital. Rose and Emmett have decided to take yet another honeymoon to somewhere tropical. Jasper and I drive to the college together it's the only time we can actually talk, otherwise we have to use our secret language we have discovered.

"Bella" Jasper asks as soon as we were out of earshot from the house.

"Yes Jazz?"

"Do you ever feel that you need time to just get away from everyone and life and just be yourself"

"Yeah I do, I've been feeling that a lot lately. I know Edward would take me anywhere I wanted to go, but sometimes it's nice to get away from him as well. In addition, the family and the consent worrying they do that I am fitting into this lifestyle I chose. That is why I love our time at school it's the one place he doesn't follow me."

"Well, I was thinking since you shield me a lot while you're not even thinking about it. It has given me a lot of time to think about things, and I think that the reason I've been having such a hard time with my bloodlust. Even Alice and I have been fighting more often it's because I just need time to find myself"

"Jazz are you leaving?"

"Yeah Bella I am. I am going home to Texas to my Ranch there to my Friends Peter and Charlotte to try and find something about who I was when I was human I have always been sheltered since I came into this life. First with Maria and now with the family I have yet to go back to my roots and figure out who Jasper Whitlock really is."

"I understand that jazz if I could I would get away from life as well." I let out a long sigh.

"Well Bella I was thinking that I'd like you to come with me. We are great friends and we with your shield we will be completely alone we wont have to worry if our decisions are being watched."

"Jazz I don't know that is a big thing how will I tell Edward that I am leaving?"

"Well I have thought about that to I will tell the family that I am going to Texas for a few months a few weeks later you can say that you are going to go back to forks to see your Dad and Sue. We can just meet in Texas and no one will be the wiser because your shield will keep us protected. By the time we come home we will have found ourselves and de- stressed our lives. Maybe then we can live the next decade or so happy."

"That sounds like a great plan Jazz wow now I'm really excited."

"Yeah but anytime were at the house we will have to talk with our code if anyone gets any suspicion our whole loves will be turned upside down."

"That's fine Jazz I Still can't wait to get home and book tickets."

"Good I'm so glad you have decided to do this Bella I really thing that good things will come of this and we will both be happier in the end."

If only I knew then how right he was.