Chapter 2: Mad with Jealousy
Utena's slumber is more peaceful than it used to be. Lying in her arms as we sleep, I still feel some uneasiness in her. She still twitches every now and then. No more screaming. No more nightmares. No more waking with cold sweats. She's almost back to the real world…
I have yet to decide if the world she told me she came from, if the events that happened, could be real. They have to be though. She's proof. I still don't get how she survived. The single wound beneath her heart should have been fatal. I'm grateful that it wasn't. It must have felt like death though.
Maybe I don't understand everything that happened…but this Anthy Himemiya…
The way Utena looked when she spoke of her, when she was telling me about what had happened at this 'Ohtori Academy', made me mad with jealousy. Utena misses her. Utena must have loved her. And she, Anthy, pushed a blade through Utena?
It's better that Utena is here with me. She can live a normal life here. She's doing very well getting on her feet. I watch her play basketball with the guys in the gym who can't beat her. We eat lunch together between our classes at the school down the street. She has a job at the coffee shop on the corner. When we're at home, we spend time together, we have fun together. We go out with our friends every now and then.
Ohtori is behind her. I hope she thinks it is too. She doesn't talk about it, but I bet she thinks about it, about her. It's not that I'm worried Utena would leave me…or maybe I am. What if Ohtori is real? What if Anthy shows up out of nowhere? What if she really isn't happy with me?
Maybe I am paranoid.