Description: This is another story that I've had stewing in my mind ever since i was halfway done writing the most recent one i posted on line onto notebook paper. Its another Jackie/Hyde fanfic...ooooh big shocker huh? I know, me writing a Jackie/Hyde story? Who would have ever thought. ... P . This is my original version of Jackie and Hyde's first major break up. I've decided to put my own spin on things.
Disclaimer: I don't own any part of That 70's show. But you know that if i did, i would cut out the 8th season because randy and Sam ruined the show and Jackie ending up with fez was the nail in the coffin for it to me.
Author's Note: Alright,the response was positive. I got not a lot but at least some feedback. I'll continue this story as well as the others. How quick and often i update my stories is completely depend on you, the readers. Show me that your reading by leaving a review, it doesn't have to be huge just a simple 'love what your doing hope you'll update soon'. Thats cool with me. It's just important that I know people are reading these stories. If your a writer, then you know what I'm talking about. We live for reviews, their like magic words of encouragement. So this chapter will be a tiny bit longer then the last one. It's going to be one of two flash back chapters. His first flash back is of Jackie and Hyde's fateful break up. Now i couldn't remember how it played out word for word so bare with me people. The end of this chapter will be Jackie's thoughts on things and then the second flash back in the chapter to follow will be what took place before Hyde's initial thoughts in the first chapter. If that sounds confusing, I'll apologize now. You'll know what i mean once you read on though. So enjoy and leave some magical words of encouragement for me. )
Chapter #1
(Flashback; Hyde's El Camino)
(Hyde's pov)
" Alright, Steven. I know what you think you saw was bad. But just let me explain.", declares Jackie as she hurriedly rushes through the doors of the Hub. I tense as she grabs my hands in hers. I've never noticed until just now how tiny her hands were. Taking a breath, I lead her outside to the Camino and open the passenger door for her. Shutting the door once more, I head over to the drivers side and climb in beside her. As Jackie continues, I silently prepare myself for what I am about to tell her. I can tell already that things are not going to end well. There are going to probably be a lot of tears shed and hitting and possibly slapping on Jackie's part. But I have to tell her the truth. It's better she hear it from me then that moron Kelso.
" Jackie..", I start as an attempt to cut her rambling short. It's of no use though, she's so focused are proving her innocence that she doesn't even hear me. I gulp as she moves in closer to me. I want so much to take her into my arms and hold her. But I know that it's not going to be a good idea. Especially after I say what I have to say. The last thing Jackie is going to want is to be comforted by me. No, she is going to want to yell and kick and scream at me. I try to mentally brace myself for the bruises my shins are about to endure. It's going to hurt like hell, but not nearly as much as the tears I'll see stream down her cheeks. I hate myself right now, I really do.
" ...Michael came to me because he was really upset. But I told him that you didn't want us hanging out alone together, that I promised. Then he told me how Fez had a sex dream about him.", continues Jackie without even stopping to take a breath. Damn, that girl can talk and fast. My head is spinning she's talking so quickly. I can't even stop her. I'm not all that sure I want to though. Because I know that as soon as she stops talking, I have to start. Right now that is the last thing that I want to do. I know this is going to be the last time Jackie and I are this close and holding each other's hands. She's not going to want to see or speak to me when everything is said and done. Not that I'm really going to blame her. If I were Jackie, I wouldn't want to see me either. God, I wish that I could just go back and change what I did. Life would be so much easier if that were only possible. But it's not. I made a huge mistake and now I'm about to pay for it. Possibly by loosing Jackie forever. That thought alone is killing me right now. Things are never going to be the same between us anymore, I just know it.
" Jackie..", I try once more, but to no avail. My attempts to get her attention are useless. Jackie is simply too wrapped up in telling her side of things. What's worse is that I know all of this now. But I didn't last night. When I saw Jackie with Kelso on the couch, I got really mad. That's when I went and did something stupid. If I had any brains, I would have tried to go and talk with Jackie. But I felt so betrayed. I mean, Jackie promised not to hangout with Kelso alone. Then what do I find her doing? Hanging out with Kelso alone. The exact thing she promised she wouldn't do anymore. That alone angered me to no end. I didn't even want to hear what she had to say at the time. I honestly didn't care. I saw what I saw and was set on hurting Jackie back. Little did I know that nothing had happened. So now, I'm about to break Jackie's heart over nothing. Because I was too stupid and insecure to go and talk with her. I deserve whatever I have coming to me when I tell Jackie what happened. This is all my fault after all. I might as well be a man and take the beating I'm sure to receive.
" ...and he was really freaked out about it. So, I was only comforting him and nothing happened. You have to believe me, Steven. It's the truth, I swear.", finishes Jackie finally, her eyes glistening with unshed tears. By now her grip on my hands has tightened considerably. I never realized how strong she was. My knuckles are white from the grip she has on me. Staring down at her hands, I caress them in mine. Looking up once more, my eyes meet hers once again. I hate what I am about to do. I'm about to hurt Jackie. I'm about to break her heart. And there is nothing that I can do to stop it either. What's done is done, I can't go back. So I might as well fess up and deal with the consequences. Jackie's going to feel betrayed. But maybe since I'm being so forward about things, I'll still have a chance. Maybe if I just give her time, we'll be able to work things out again. Maybe she'll only hate me for a while. Right now that's all that I can hope for. Well, I guess here goes nothing. ...
(Jackie's pov)
Turning to face me completely now, Hyde takes his sunglasses off and I can see his eyes for once," look, Jackie. I know all of this now. But before I did, I was really mad. And there was this nurse..."
" ...And?", I question quietly as I urge him to go on. By now my stomach is doing somersaults and my heart is in my throat. I've plead my case to Steven and I can only hope that he believes me. But at the same time I am silently praying. I'm praying that he isn't going to give me anymore bad news. I'm not all that sure that I want to know what he has to say. From the look on his face, I can already tell that it's nothing good. Please, god don't let him say what I think he is going to say. If you have a heart you won't let him utter the words I'm thinking he's about to say.
" And, I'm really sorry. It will never happen again.", he promises as his gaze turns downward. My heart sinks to the bottom of my stomach at his confession. He didn't even have to say it. I know what he meant. Steven...my Steven...cheated on me. How could he do this to me. He told me that he was different. That he wasn't like Michael. That he would never cheat or hurt me. But he lied. He is exactly like Michael. Even worse if that were even possible. Steven cheated to hurt me. Because he thought that I was sneaking around with Michael. Is he that insecure? Does he honestly trust me that little? Before I know it, my entire body starts to tremble and shake violently. My attempts to hold bad the tears are inevitable as they stream down my cheeks anyway. I don't know who I hate more right now. Myself for crying, or Steven for betraying my trust and cheating on me.
" That is exactly what Michael used to say.", I mutter as I shake my head in disbelief. Steven's hand reaches out to touch mine once more, but I slap it away. He has no right to try and comfort or even touch me. How could he do this to me? How could he go off and screw some nurse? He should have just came to me. But he couldn't do that could he? His pride was wounded and he wanted me to pay for it. Well now I am and with a broken heart. How dare he try and console me! He's the reason that I'm crying, he's the reason that I'm trembling uncontrollably. Not Michael, or anyone else it's because of him. I hate him for doing this to me. I hate Steven for making me feel this way and for crushing my already broken heart into even more fractured pieces. As if Michael's cheating wasn't enough? Now I have to live with the betrayal of Steven as well? God, I deserve so much better than this. I deserve a guy that would never dream of making me cry or breaking my heart. I thought Steven was that guy. But, obviously I was dead wrong.
" Come on, Jackie. I'm sorry.", consoles Hyde as he tries to reach out to me once more. I shove him away as I glare at him through tear shed eyes. I want to hurt Steven. I want to pound on him so he can feel the pain that I feel. More than anything, I want to pummel him until everything hurts a little less. But that's not going to happen. It's not going to help or solve anything. No matter how hard I slap or kick Steven, he still cheated on me. Nothing will ever change that. I gave my trust and heart to him entirely, and what do I get in return? I receive my heart handed to me in shattered fragments of what it used to be. That's what I get in return. Well I have had enough. After this, no more will I ever give my heart away. Never again, until I am sure the person that I give it to will keep it safe and protect me from this pain and heartache that I feel right now.
Suddenly becoming upset with myself as tears continue to roll down my cheeks freely, I shake my head violently," No, Steven. I'm sorry, but it's over." ...
(Jackie's thought's)
Holy crap! I'm never going to finish reading this Nancy Drew book. I can't stop thinking about the break up. Steven cheated on me. I trusted him, and he hurt me. How could he do that? How could he break my heart? Was he really that jealous of Michael? Why couldn't he just come talk to me? Why did he have to cheat? ...He told me that he loved me today. I've waited so long to hear those words from him.
He chose to say them today. Like, I'll just take him back. Like it would make everything alright. Well it doesn't. So I told him that I don't love him anymore. Because, I don't. How could I? He cheated on me. After Michael, I swore that I'd never take another cheater back. Now, if only my heart and mind could agree on things. ... (end Jackie's thoughts)