For this assignment, we looked through a PowerPoint and wrote down a phrase for each picture. Afterwards, we were assigned to write a 300 word story based on a phrase we wrote for a picture. I really loved the assignment, and I incorporated lyrics into it. Once again, I turned it in late, so no show and tell. :( The picture is shown on my blog: http: // leotafinck . blogspot . com /2009 /11/for-my-fanfiction-readers . html [Just without all of the spaces.]

These are my personal views of God.

Lyrics are owned by XTC and Nicholas Jonas. I have no ownership.

"Dear God."

Radiance. Purity. Glow. Then darkness. Does he really exist? All I could feel was the air whipping around me as I plummeted into oblivion. Away from the world. Abolished from heaven. Shunned from the golden gates above. From white, to black. A glowing soul, to a sphere of coal. I sunk to the bottom of the ocean, not sure why I was here. Questioning my beliefs for Him. Who is Him? It's incomprehensive. It makes no sense. Illegitimate. I now know why I am now isolated, surrounded by nothing but inexistence. He is not real.

"I can't believe in you."

Everyone does, and everyone can. Just not me. Belief just feels like a trend. I just don't understand. It's like not having a mind of your own. Like it being possessed by another. What's the use? Dependency is foolish and weak. Who is He? Is He the hero, or the villain? No one could ever know. Is this a joke? Is He just a silly character in their twisted story? Seems like it.

"Did you make mankind after we made you?

And the devil too!"

From revulsion to neutrality. My knowledge of Him is subtle. What do others think of this 'God'? People share their stories. It's all the same: "He saved me." But how? How did this random creature, probably from someone's imagination, save you? Help you? Protect you from harm? There is no way to really know. It's just a choice. A choice to believe… in Him. Realization hit me with great impact. Where did I come from? The holy gates of heaven.

"Won't You send a sign down, just to ease my doubt?
I'm trying to hear You, but the silence is so loud…"

Selfish. Shameful. Disappointed. In myself. All along, the answer was right in front of me. He is real. He made me. Suddenly, I started to float with ease, to the top of the pool. Once there, the ripples on the surface cascaded into a pool of waves. He is speaking to me. The sun shone on my now changing form, from the jet black of disbelief, to the shining gold of glory. He saved me from oblivion. I was shimmering with love. I was saved. I couldn't return to heaven, but one day, He will see that I have changed my ways. I will never turn my back on Him again. The pieces fell into place. There is a God.

"…I think I see a rainbow from behind the clouds,

and I hear You now, dear God."

But I'm still so unsure.

So? :) How was it? I would REALLY appreciate feedback! Maybe some prompts to write baout as well? The songs by XTC and Nick Jonas are both called "Dear God."