John arrives at the flat an hour after Mycroft left. The exsoldier notices the two cups next to his and Sherlocks chair. "Was Mycroft here?" He asks his flatmate. Sherlock stands at the window. Facing the glass. He don't answers. John ignores the fact that the consulting dedective didn't answer him. He never does when he's thinking.
John takes the two cups to the kitchen and goes back into the livingroom again. This time Sherlock turnes around when John enters the room.
The small man looks at him.
"Sherlock?" John asks quite because his flatmates eyes are still lost in something. The doctor fixes Sherlocks eyes. They are huge... The pupils are big...bigger than normal. "Oh shit, Sherlock! Did you take drugs?" And suddenly the always-changing eyes are clear again. And they fixes Johns.
"No." The consulting dedective answers short.
"John...I have to talk to you."
The army doctor nods confused...his flatmate sounds shy.
"Do you remember Christmas?" Sherlock asks.
John is more and more confused...why do Sherlock want to talk to him about last Christmas? "Of course I do! It was the only time you felt in love, Sherlock" John trys to joke but he can't even smile. What's wrong with his friend? "No." Sherlock answers again "it wasn't the only time..." John needs some minutes to understand what the tall man is talking about. "What do you mean Sherlock?"
"Do you remember, what I told you about love? The chemistry of love is easy. Do you remember John?"
"Yes, I do. But wh-" and then he understands what the dedective wants to say. They are still looking at each other. One of them with huge pupils..."You mean you...you lo-"
"I love you. John, thats what I wanted to say...since I know you. I want to spend the rest of my life with you."
John stares at his flatmate. He didn't expect that. He needs some time to find his voice again. Sherlock waits patiently. "Sherlock..I...you know...I have a girlfriend...I'm not gay...I'm sorry." John says and he feels really sorry for Sherlock.
Then he leaves the room, without knowing that the rest of Sherlocks life isn't that long anymore...