Prologue 2: letters unsent to mom
Dear mom
How are you, there above? I'm sure you're taking care of us from there too…
Gaara and Kankuro are fine, both have their up and down, that's for sure.
Kankuro in particular, lately is really weird. He is…happy. He'd never been happy, neither when he was made jounin, nor when he won on a lottery a lot of money… I bet he wasn't really happy even in the moment you gave birth to him. I bet he had an apathetical look, isn't it?
But now he is very happy: he has even started to sing. I and Gaara are really worried… what if he had found (finally) a woman? (Gaara bet he wasn't straight and, heck, he bet a lot of moneys with me!)
Maybe you're the only one who knows really what's happening.
Gaara is really busy this last period. I highly doubt he would even spend Christmas out of the kazekage office. I miss our talks in the afternoon. He sort of understand my problems, my doubts… sometimes he understood some of my theories… but the most of the time he said he was probably too distracted or too tired to try to understand, but still insisted I had to keep talking… maybe my voice is relaxing?
It's useless for me to talk about my sentimental life. Being a shinobi means you have to never show your feelings.
Still I can't keep myself to be friendly to people I should hate: many people in Konoha makes me feel safe with them, like if I have an house far away from mine. You know how much this means to me…
I'll be spending Christmas there. Maybe isn't really fair I spend away these days without my family, but I can't help feeling happy. I like being with them, even if they're loud and troublesome.
Now, this remind him of the shadow boy. I've already talked about him: the one who cried for his teammate health. He was the one who showed me that maybe sometimes everyone can show their weakness. After all he's a sweet boy, sure he thinks men are stronger than women, but I can always make him change his mind. On this past years many villagers thought we were together… fools! Why would I date someone like him?
Biggest problem who really stopped our relationship to begin is that: we hate each other' guts!
Sure, he helped me, he escort me, he even listened to me… he understand my way of thinking… but… there's another problem… he's lazy…too much! And he's from another village… and he has some girl who already like him…. And I'm way too troublesome for him (that's what he kept telling me, although on this past months he's started to be more kind, gentle, even softer…but don't ask me why because I truly don't know…).
We are not meant to be, that's all.
Mom I really miss you. Right now I'm two hours away from what will be my house in the next three weeks. I'm requested there to decide about some political marriage to strengthen the alliance between Suna and Konoha. My… I'm really tired: I met some missing nin while travelling. They were strong, enough to broke my fan in 3 points (right now is useless, I'll ask the Hokage to find someone to repair it). Then I've heard a strong sandstorm had blocked the communication in our village, I just hope those old bitches of the council remembered to send it before I left the village. It's already happened they sent it late… this time I hope is not too much!
Goodbye dear.
Lots of love
Your truly Tem