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| Lets make a list of things I don't own shall we? 1:Gundam Wing 2: Kagato 3: Washu 4: Risika 5:Tenchi Muyo 6: DBZ 7: A convertable 8: the presidensy 9: Florida 10: All the money in the world 11: ect. The Bloody Secret I stared in horror realizing what he was trying to do. "Heero get the hell outta the way!!" I screeched. Those weren't Riuko's moves. I ran toward them as fast I could praying I got there it time! 'Riouko' grabbed Quatra by the neck and slamed him against the wall. "Aaaauuuuugggghhh!!!" Quatra screamed as evergy sparks shot out his neck. "Kagato Stop! The boy did nothing to you!!" He faced me and stared at me as a sadistic grin broke over his face. A low chuckle escaped him." So the little kitten finally figured it out?" 'Riuko' growled. Suddenly Kagato's appearence took its body back. Huh? How did he do this? I look to his wrist and notice a small bracelet like contraption where the image came from. He noticed my gaze. "Hmph! A brilliant device really. It is able to take a bodily image and project it in the third dimention around the body of the holder." Well that solves the mystery and the mystery of why he fell on his ass. Wait. Kagato didn't have lasers....I took a closer look at his other hand and noticed a small round object. My gems! How the hell did he get those! "Let him go Kagato!" I snarled. "You know the saying machine. An eye for an eye." He said holding one of my gems up in his good hand. I flinched. I hated it when he called me a machine. "How did you get those! Were's Riuko!" "You are not in any position to make demands of me Risika." He didn't raise his voice to me once. I now know what it is to look into the face of Satan himself. "I won't go back Kagato." He smirked. "I think you will." He increased his grip on Quatra's throat causing more screams of pain. "What the hell is he talking about Relena!" "What does he want!" "Why is he after you!" The pilots all shouted at me at once. The shouting was making my eyes clench shut and my hands ball into fists. No no no no no no no. Please god I know my price is high but please don't make this it. "Relena." I recognized the monotone voice and opened my eyes. Only to be met with a fist. I looked up at Heero from my position on the ground holding my cheek. He hit me. He hit me. He hit me. "Give him what he wants Relena." His eyes held no feeling. "You have no idea what he wants." I stated in mere awe. Congratulations Perfect soldier. You may now say Mission completed. I stand up. My back straight as a bar and my fists at my side. My eyes once again held no feeling as I walked toward my new master and the dying Quatra. Its time now. Its time to go back to hell. Everyone watches. Yet no one stops me. I can hear the far away voice of my Riu-chan begging me to stop. But its too late. My reservation in hell had been long since made. I hold my wrists out to Kagato as he clutches them with the gems still in his hands. Its feels like he has poured acid through my body! Oh god nothing had ever hurt this much! A tear streams down my cheek. Not for the pain but the conclusion of reality I have finally come to recognized. I am alone. I am a grain of sand amongst a huge black void. I hear Riuko scream my name. Heh he's finally here. He is the only one who has never betrayed me. Such a loyal friend. My beautiful friend. You will have your partner back. Flash back of us come to my mind. Flash back Riuko is sitting on a window sill in the lab with his back against the border and his left leg on the sill. We have just destroyed an orphanage at a colony. Children. That was what hit home for him. I don't dare go near him. "Why are you not repulsed by me my beautiful?" His words surprise me but I quickly regain my composure. " Why would I?" He looks toward his hands after a few moments he violently whips his head away from them and towards the window. "I'm a monster. My hands are covered with blood that will last as long as we do." His face draws into a scowl. Is that what you think my precious? I walk over to the sill and sit opposite of him. I take his hand in my own and caress it. After a minute or two I break the silence. "I don't see anything." He stares at me for a while and I bring his head to rest on my chest. "Never leave me Sika-chan."He whispers. "I'll stay by your side for as long as you need me." "Then you'll be here forever."He whispers in my ear. "You'd be surprised at how short forever really is. Nothing else was said. End flash back I collapse to the ground when the process is over. I refuse to open my eyes and see the monster I have once again become. I don't have to look at the Gundam Pilots to see the repulsion in there eyes that I know is there. "Open your eyes Sika-chan." I hear a voice that is not Kagato's. My eyes reluctantly open. I stare into endless pools of ice. "Riuko?" He nodds and takes me into his arms. I feel nothing. Its over. Its all over. I have nothing left to lose. A sudden rage takes over my body. I want to kill. I want to feel blood drip through my hands. How satisfying. A grin brakes over my face. A grin I haven't used in one hundred years. Hmm I think its time to make up for lost time. I leap up and survey the residents around me. I spot Heero. Sweet Heero. Do you have any Idea how much you've hurt me? Its time to pay you back. I charge at him, laser blade ready and waiting for the kill. He doesn't move. Hm how quaint for the Perfect Soldier to never run. "IT'S TIME TO DIE!!!" I screech as I prepare to impale him with my laser sword. He dodges, but this just intrigues me. I leap and counter all his dodges all the while slicing my sword around him. I manage to slice his arm and rib. The sight of the blood makes me stop. Its beautiful. Such a deep shade of red. It spills over its sire wound and coats its master red. I lick my lips and chuckle at my work. I want to see his eyes when I kill him. I tackle him to the ground. How funny, he doesn't even put up a fight. Whats wrong sweet soldier? To afraid to hit a girl? No matter. I'm straddling his hips while I have pinned his shoulders to the ground. I creat and energy blade and bring it to his neck. There's no fear in his eyes. Just like a warrior should be. I do notice something in his eyes though. Over the years I've grown quite perseptive. There's love. But he's afraid of it? I chuckle as I realize this. He loved me. He ruined me. A poem comes to mind.' Love me. break me. hit me. hate me.' How true. I bring the blad closer to his neck and lean down to whisper something in his ear. "How does it feel to be killed by the one you love Precious Soldier? Hurts doesn't it? I speak from personal experience." A chuckle passes my lips as I'm ready to slice his throat. "Aaaaggghhhh!!!!" I scream and clutch my wrist. My gem glows a vicious red as it coats me with pain. I look over and see Kagato pressing some button on a small control. "Come Risika. Stop wasting time." He speaks as if he's a robot. Kagato presses the button again and once more I'm filled with an unbearable pain. I raise myself and get up as I walk toward my new master and my new hell. Riuko sends me an apologetic glance. "Lets go." I nodd and begin my way back to the familiar base. I know Riuko's behind me with Kagato but I know longer care. 'I'm sorry' 'Why? didn't you get what you want Riu?' 'I'd never hurt you, you know that!' 'Hmph! Yeah sure.' 'Sika-chan please' 'Don't you dare!' '(sigh) Don't leave me again Sika-chan. Some one always takes you away from me.Cusho.Heero. Please I can't take this.' I say no more. He's been suffering just as I have. God I've missed him. Riuko was right. Its like going blind yet seeing perfectly. Then why am I still blind? After a few hours we reach the newly rebuilt lab. We walk in after passing thousands of security sheilds. I notice a woman with spikey pink hair standing with her back facing us. She's obviously working on something. "Washu I have retrieved her." What? Why does he speak like that?Washu whips around and eyes meet mine. She says nothing as she staggers toward me. "My baby? Oh my precious duaghter!" She embraces me and practically squeezes the life out of me. I manage to sneak out of her embrace and walk over to stand by Riuko. "Whats wrong Risika? What happened?" I stare at her for a while before answering. "Life" with that I walk toward my room. I survey my sancturay from the storm with amusement. Its just the way I left it. The room was entirely black and red. The room itself was enormous complete with conopy bed and all. I walk to my bed and notice my work suit on it(read chap 2 to know what it looks like.) I quickly change back into it and look myself over in the mirror. My arms wrap around my body trying to comfort myself. But I find I don't need to since a pair of arms had already wound themselves around my curvey waist. "You look beautiful." Riuko whispers in my ear."Then why do I feel so ugly?" He stares at my reflection for a while before picking me up baby style and carrying me to the bed. He stops when he is right infront of it and puts his hand under my shirt. "Raise your arms please." I do as he askes and let him take off my shirt along with the rest of my clothes. There's no blushing. We know eathother to well to stoop to cheap blushing. He strips untill he's down to his black boxers. Riuko once again picks me up and tucks me into my bed. I watch him as he lifts the covers and climbs in hiself. My Riu-chan then tucks me in his arms. Thats all that happens, I know he would never take adavantage of the state I am in now. I've never had to be protected in my entire three hundred years of existence. But in this moment I don't think I could live without it. We are not able to sleep. I am not able to talk. So instead he speaks to me. Riuko's ice eyes stare into my soul as he whispers his words to me. "I looked every where for you when you left. I first tried Lake Mayumi. I had expected you to be there." I close my eyes so he won't be able to see the pain in them, but I know that our connection lets him feel it instead. "Why would I go there." "To pay your respects." "Cusho doesn't wants my repects." "You don't know that." I suddenly become angry. "I promised him I would never bother him again and I'm going to keep that promis!" Riuko stares at me for a while. Nothing else is said. I have nothing of that place anymore. All I have are my memories. And so I will remember. Flash back I was out stalking again. I had lost Riuko in the woods some where, but I'm not concerned. The humans have developed something called a mobile suit now. They are a bit hard to beat. Especially if they catch us. At the moment I'm stalking another soldier. For some odd reason this one interests me. He has shoulder length brown hair and golden eyes. Hm how exotic. I squat on a tree limb and watch him walk. He seems to sense some one watching him. I become more alert and prepare to leap onto him. Suddenly he brakes into a mad dash! Shit he must've seen me! I leap every two branches trying my best to catch up to him, but all these stupid leaves obscure my view! Just then I catch site of him. And unfortunately the enormous machine he has just jumped into. "It's a mobile suit!" Crap he must have heard of me from one of the stupid old men who like to tell tales about about us to scare their grandchildren. It doesn't matter now. I leap skyward off my branch and creat a power ball. Once I am level with him I blast. I managed to take his arm off but he keeps firing at me! I am growing tired as I dodge all of his attacks. I make a last attempt and creat an energy blade. I raise my arms about to stike him......................Its all over. The mechanical arm has sliced through my hip and I feel myself falling. Damn! how could I have been foolish enough to leave an opening for his attack! My mind is going unconcious as I pumet into Lake Mayumi. I welcome the darkness that has become so much apart of me. "Uhhggg..." My entire body hurts like hell. I feel warm water running on my forehead. Huh! What the hell! I'm alive! My eyes shoot open to find myself staring into endless pools of gold. "Aarrrgghh!!!" I yank myself up and pin him too the wall as I bring a laser blade to his neck. "Hey! Hey calm down! I just saved your life!" "Yeah and you also shot me out of the sky!" "Yeah well you were attacking me!" I growl at him and bring the blade closer. As much as I hate it he is right. And I must always pay my debts. I take a step back and bow to him. "Thank you." Funny how foreign those words sound on my toung. I did not kill him so there for my debt is paid. I begin toward the exit when I hear his voice call out to me. "Hey! Your not going out there are you? You'll freeze to death!" I look and notice it has begun snowing. I can survive the cold, but it does get uncomfortable."Look you can stay here for a while. No one would mind." His eyes held concern. Concern for me? "Wh-why are you being so kind to me? I can promis to help you but other than that I have nothing else to offer." He shook his head at me. "I don't want anything. I just don't want you to catch your death of cold." I cock my head to the side, not understanding why he was doing this. No one has ever been kind to me. No one wants to befriend the monster. But then again I don't want any friends. "Suppose I could. It is a tad late." He smiles at me and I am once again taken back. That wasn't a sadistic smile that only Riuko and I give. It showed no cruelty what so ever. I let him drag me to my room for the night. We reach the door and he opens it for me. "Oh by the way, my names Cusho whats yours?" He sticks his hand out as he says this. Whats he want a tip? "ummm sorry I don't have any money for you." He laughes and shakes his head at me. "Man, You really are a foreigner aren't you? Here, give me your hand." I do as he says and place my hand in his. I awe at how small and frail my hand seems in his. The hand that has drowned itself in blood. Cusho begins to shake it up and down slowly and I follow in suit, understanding what he wants."So whats your name?" I look at him with my green cat like eyes. I had no name. I begin to think of what an old man called me right before I killed him. "I have no name. But some one once called me Risika, is that all right?" He smiles warmly at me and I find myself smiling back. "Its just fine." He then leaves and I walk into my room. Its small, with a nightstand, a sleeping bag and a T.v. I'm tired so the sleepingbag seems most appealing to me. I strip and crawl into the navy sleeping back. My eyes seem heavy and I find myself closing them in an alert sleeplike state. Alway alert. Hmm Cusho is it? (Chuckle) I will stay. I wake up to the smell of a food that I've never heard of. I look at my clothes to get dressed but notice that they're still soaked with the exception of my bra and underwear. I simply put on what is available at the moment. I trott down stairs like a happy puppy. Table is littered with bacon, eggs, toast, waffles, pancakes, and other goodies. I immedieately dig in, not waiting or caring of anybody else. I notice Cusho staring at me. There's a stream of blood coming from his nose. Did someone hit him? "Cusho you ok?" I walk towards him but notice the closer I get the more blood spurts out his nose. He turns away from me and his face has seemed to turn the most awful shade of red. "Whats your problem!" He blushes even more when he answers me. "Risika.....you're down here half naked." I look over my body and find no marks. "I don't have any scares. Whats wrong with it?" I get closer curious as to know why he doesn't like me anymore. "Nothings wrong with your body! You just don't wear that. You have to wear clothes over it!" I cock my head to the side puzzled. "Why?" "Becauseitmakesguyslikemeveryuncomfortablesowillyoupleaseputsomeclotheson!" I didn't catch all of what he said. Something like my body makes guys uncomfortable. But I go to change anyway. I manage to find a black and red kimono that he has left me on the bed. I quickly change into it and make my way down stares. Cusho seems relieved but he still won't make eye contact with me. I sigh and eat whats on my plate any way. We talk and find much about eachother. I know his parents died in a plane crash and left him with his grandparents. They passed on a couple of years ago leaving him this large house in the woods right next to lake Mayumi. He knows a little about me, like what I am, Riuko, Washu and such like that. I didn't really want to talk about it. He offered to let me stay here untill I find my own place. I have excepted. I can only pray Riuko doesn't find me. two years later I have lived with my beloved Cusho for two years now. I have never been happier in my entire life! He smiles at me and tells me stories! Riuko has stopped comunicating with me a year ago and has promised not to tell Washu and Kagato where I am. Kagato couldn't care less but Washu is a different story. Cusho is coming home now, I think I'll walk him the rest of the way. I keep my kimono on and leap from branch to brach following his tracking. I finally find him but he's not alone. He's with a girl. Cusho is talking to her and holding her hand."C-Cusho? Whats going on?" I look from him to the girl. "Hey! Risika! I'm glad your here! Risika meet Relena." Relena had big brown eyes and waist length black hair. Hmph how plain! What does he see in this creature? She glares at me and holds Cusho's hand tighter. I send her my own glare and walk over to Cusho. "I just thought I'd walk you home Cusho!" I chirped.He looks at me with the same smile. "That won't be necessary. Relena was keeping great company." Ouch! I walked home with them anyway. I learned about this girl also. She was the Prime Minister of Spain's Daughter. The spanish princess. She was perfect in every way possible. Perfect posture. Calm quiet. Total Pacifist.And Cusho was eating it up.But she'd never have him! I had seen him first! Cusho loves me! He has too.......... It has been a year since the princess has lived with us. I stay out of her way and try not to start fights with her. For some reason Cusho was depressed today so I went into town to be him a present. And I didn't steal it either! It a china doll. And a beautiful one might I add. I had saved up for months to buy it for him. I didn't know if male and females had different tastes in toys, but if I loved it then Cusho must at least like it. I run up the stares to his room to surprise him. I slam the door open in all the excitement. "Cu-chan look! I got you a gif-" The precious China doll that I had saved for shatters to the ground.They are kissing. Relena and my Cu-chan. He doesn't love me. HE DOESN'T LOVE ME!!!! They stare at me. To afraid to move. They look at me like I'm a deer ready to run. I clutch the door frame for support as tears run down my face. I clutch my chest as if it would stop my heart from shattering like the doll. "Risi-" He doesn't have a chance to explain as I bolt out the door and toward the stares. I know they follow me but I don't care. I don't want to hear his explanation of why he loves her and not me. I must have tripped bucause next thing I know I'm falling down the stares. I stagger up and sprint out the door, not caring for my bloody nose or the blood dripping from my forehead. They chase me still, untill I finally lose them in the forest. I lay on the ground for hours, through the rain and wind. I can hear a voice whispering in my head, one that is not Riuko's. 'Kill them' "no" 'Why?' "....." 'They hurt you.' "People het hurt" 'But your not a person. Your the great Risika, killer of all who dare' "I won't kill cusho" 'They hurt you so bad' "....." 'It would take the pain away' Would it? Yes I am Risika. I have no feelings. I make my way back to the house and to his room. Bothe of them are there. She sleeps with him. He holds her. No one has ever held me. The moonlight makes him look like the greek gods I've read about. No! I can't think that now. I creat a laser blade and raise it above my head to strike them down. Images of him helping me. him making me laugh. Him making me smile, dance through my head. 'Kill them' THe laser blade dissapears. 'Kill them. She made him stop loveing you' He never stopped loving me. He just love her more. I look at Relena. "You were a good challenge my rival." With that I leap out the window and the voice haunts me no more. It has been three years since I've last seen my precious Cusho. I have gone back to Riuko and we began our assignments once more. There is a war going on and a leader is paying Kagato a great amount to let us fight on his side. We race to the battle and I notice a familiar path. I shrug it off and continue to fight. They are using mobile suits so it has made it harder. But not by much. A mobil suit shoots at me and I dodge it. That is untill I notice a familiar looking house. CUSHO'S HOUSE! I race infront of of the beam and send one of my own. I've wasted most of my enegy deflecting it but it was worth it. I leap into the house and search for Cusho. "Cusho!!!" Instead Relena comes running down the stairs with a baby in her arms. They have a family now...I shake it off. "C'mon we have to get out of here!!" I grab her arm and drag her out just as another beam hits the house and destroys it. "Stay here I gotta help." I try to lead them away. After hours of fighting it is starting to die down. Now only one mobile suit stands. Riuko is off making sure the enemy is retreating. I get cocky and beging to play with the mobile suit. "Is that the best you can do!!!" I taunt him and make him shoot at me as I dodge all of his attacks. One attack was too close and it destroyed a part of the forest. I glare at the suit and finally destroy it. I laugh and walk around to find Relena and her baby. "HEy Princes where are you?!" I call to her. But when I finally find her I wish I hadn't. She's laying there covered in blood with her dead baby still tucked away in her arms. "No.." I race toward her and kneel as I pick her up. Her blood coats my body and I know she is dead. I bend my head down and begin to sob. "Relena?" please don't be Cusho please don't be Cusho please don't be Cusho. My prayers aren't answered. He stands there in his battle gear with a look of utter devestation on his face. "How could you...?" I then realize what this must look like to him. "Cusho no!" He walkes over and rips Relena out of my hands and begins to sob himself. I stand up and back away, unable to take this devestating scene. He looks up at me with pure rage and hate. "You worthless bitch!!" He screams me and and begins to try and strike me with his sword. "Cusho Please listen!" "THey're right! You're nothing but a heartless monster!" I can't stand to hear these words from him. I jump to him and embrace him. "Ugghhhnnnnn" I feel the pain of the sword through my stomach. I let him go and clutch my stomach as I back away. I give him one last look as I dash away from him forever. It is night and I lay on the ground curled up in a ball clutching my stomach still. I don't let myself regenerate. I'd rather die then live with Cusho hating me. Suddenly I see Riuko leap down from a branch infront of me. "Risika?" "leave me." I have nothing to say to him. "Regenerate Risika." He demands. "No" "DO IT!" "Let me die" "Never." He grabbed my gemed wrists and a forceful pain flooded through me. I could feel my wound healing . "Stop" He wouldn't listen to me. When the job was done he gave me one last look and left me alone. My wound was gone and so was my heart. I am a killer. I was created a killer and I'll go out a killer. I leaped to my feet and ran toward the Mayumi lake. But when I got there I saw something that destroyed me and the monster I shared my body with. "God, please......no...." Ok people THAT chapter took alot out of me! I had a HUGE case of writers block that was giving me the mother ship of all headaches, so be patient for the next chapter. Oh yeah did you know I got ten emails about finishing my story?! Thanks you sooo much I love it when people email me. I'll put the thank u list up with the next chapter I'm just too tired to do it now. | ||
