"My god is that thing ever creepy" murmured John to himself.The letter was shocking. As well as completely unprecedented. No one had ever heard from SkyNet. The war was started with no words, it progressed without discourse, and John had assumed it would end that way as well. If SkyNet had been willing to accept some sort of surrender, it would have offered terms before Judgement Day and the deaths of three billion people, and if we were willing to accept surrender from SkyNet, we would have to be fools. 'Such a personal, if super-villainish, tone though. A quiet computerized word in my ear, strictly entre-nous, very hush-hush.' thought John. 'It's not like I didn't know that there were... human-like characteristics to SkyNet, some of its tactical decisions hinted at it; almost teasing. Like the taunting I just read, but non-verbal.'
What was perhaps more disturbing to John was how accurate its predictions were. He knew Cameron was metal the second he saw her. She was too perfect. In that second, he saw what she was and what had made her. It was perhaps the most terrifying moment of his life, including Judgement Day. 'Love at first sight combined with a fear I could never before have imagined.' 'I was afraid for her as well as myself.' He thought to himself incredulously. It would be fruitless, John knew, to lie to himself about his feelings. As well as potentially dangerous.
He had nearly changed the parameters of the jump that sent Kyle Reece to the past because he lied to himself about why he was doing it. He had almost sent ten people with Kyle to make sure that his father survived, as well as to make sure that SkyNet didn't come about as a result of the terminator's chip. He spent hour upon hour simulating events, but the variables were too great. It would be a toss of the dice, with everything on the line. It was probably the very same reason that SkyNet didn't send any other model back to that time: far too risky. But John was human, he had told himself, risk is in my blood. Fortunately or unfortunately the jump had gone the way it had always gone: Kyle Reece went back alone. He went back alone because he forced John to explain to him the mission, and John found that he couldn't lie anymore. His father had protected him, convinced him that the risk was too high.
'She's just so perfect' John thought to himself 'Perfect for me' he mentally clarified to himself, 'others found her pretty enough, beautiful. But for me... . SkyNet might have actually succeeded in killing me if she had been less perfect, but that wasn't the real point of it. What a tangled web, it wants to kill me/ it wants to play with me. That's so human; winning is not enough. Standing alone on the ash-heap of victory no longer appeals to it. What does it want now? Adulation? Recognition? Maybe,' he thought to himself sarcastically' it plans to give up the old kill humanity plan in favor of becoming the most unique computer dating service ever. Now you date the computer!'
'SkyNet is also right that Cameron causes me problems no matter what.' However, SkyNet might also have provided him with the means to accomplish his most cherished idea. He might, after all, be able to stop Judgement Day, and even though he couldn't save his father, he might be able to save his mother.' Before the jumps are made though, I am going to have to write a letter' he thought with a smile. "It's rude not to reply to a letter, after all."