AN: I really didn't expect to get this much positive feedback on this. But thank you guys!
He had zero expression, I couldn't tell if he was happy to see me or if he was mad at me. Nothing.
"Hey." I said quietly. "Um, can I come in?"
"Uh ya." He moved out of the way and I walked in.
"Sorry to show up out of no where. I just need to, um kinda just wanted to-" I started.
"Ok Court, why are you here?" He interrupted.
"Well, I guess that answers my question." I mumble to myself while putting my coat and keys down. He was definitely mad at me. He cleared his throat and was swaying from side to side impatiently. "Okay seriously what the hell did I do that's pissing you off so badly!" Well I knew the answer to that question.
"What did you do! Oh you know, just the whole ignoring me completely for like the past year thing, and declining the role that we PERSONALLY made for you." Ya, he was definitely pissed off.
"Well maybe next time, before you personally make a role for me, talk to me about if I can actually do the role or not!" Why was I screaming. Why did I blurt that out earlier. I should be the one trying to be rational about this, but for someone reason rational wasn't an option for me right now.
"Okay fine. But maybe next time YOUR offered a role put what you want before what your boyfriend wants!" So he could tell I was lying before.
"Okay, wait were getting into a whole other area." I said trying not to bring that up because he was right.
"Oh but that is why you declined the role right." I looked down at the floor to avoid eye contact. "Well!"
"Okay, FINE! Yes, yes that's why I declined the fucking role that apparently means everything to you!" At this point I was pissed off too. Although to be honest I don't think I had a reason to be. He had a right to be saying everything he was. I was the one who was being an ass before.
"Wait, means everything to me? Court, that's not why I'm so pissed off about this!"
"Oh, okay. Then why are you so mad at me!"
"Because, you declining that role basically meant you wanted nothing to do with me!"
"What?" I responded somewhat confused.
"When you declined that I knew it was because of Johnny. I mean you've basically been ignoring me since the first day you met the guy." I guess he had a point there. I sighed, "Okay, you have a point there."
"I just have one question. Why? Why did you let the guy basically control you. I felt like he was making all your decisions for you and you were letting him! When you started dating him, you turned into a completely different person! I mean we were best friends before. I can admit we weren't as close these past few years, but I feel like we were finally starting to re-build our friendship and then he walked into your life and you changed."
"Okay. I'm sorry. I realized what I was doing, but I figured I should do everything I could to try and make that work. Although, I should've realized that if someone wants you to cut friends out of your life then you probably shouldn't be with them." We both laughed, which I don't think either of us had done in a little while.
"I guess you deserve an apology too. I shouldn't have snapped at you like that earlier. I should've called when you broke up with Johnny to see if you were okay. Which reminds me, how are you?"
I smiled. He was finally willing to talk to me rationally again. "I'm fine now. I've been talking to Jen and Lisa a lot more recently and they really helped me through it."
"That's great. I'm glad your doing okay." He smiled at me. I didn't really know how to bring up the other thing I wanted to talk to him about. So, an awkward silence occurred. "So um, Court why exactly did you come over." Well there's my opener.
"Right! Um, so I kinda noticed something while I was watching your show." I started, my voice shaking.
"And that would be?" He said gesturing with his hands.
I laughed nervously, "Um, well obviously as you know" I gestured towards him. "on the episode earlier tonight you had been kissing Terri, and I started to feel a knot in my stomach." His face was still clueless. "Kinda like the knot you get in your stomach when your, um, jealous." I said cautiously. I realized I had been looking at the ground so I looked up at him. He was in complete shock.
He smiled nervously, "Okay so Court, what exactly are you trying to say?"
"I guess I'm trying to say, what I'm trying to say is, well I'm trying to say, you know I'm saying, I'm-" I stuttered.
"Court?" He said trying to help me out.
"I have feelings for you!" I blurted out. Well theres no turning back now.
He exhaled smiling. "Your joking."
I stood there some what speechless. "Does it look like I'm joking?"
His eyes grew wider. "Oh." You could almost see the gears turning in his head. "So um, when did you, how did you, why did you feel like, why are you, why didn't you, so you just sorta-" His hands were going crazy trying to gesture everything he was saying.
"Okay, Matty I get it, this is a lot to take in. But, I would really love it if you could say something."
"Well, what do you want me to say Court. I mean first you come in here and I see you for the first time in like a year and a half and you blow up on me about the whole Johnny thing. Then we start talking normally again. But then, you drop a bomb on me like this that you have feelings for me!"
"First of all, YOU blew up on ME!" I said gesturing between us. "Second of all, you don't get to pick who you fall in love with..." Well, I've now established OUT LOUD that this feeling is love.
He turned back to me shocked again. "Oh, so now your IN LOVE with me!"
"Hey! You can't throw that in my face because you can't say that you haven't been in love with ME!"
"Oh, so now you know who I've been in love with!" He was clearly trying to get out of this.
"Well, am I wrong!" It was quiet for a little while. "Well?" I said impatiently.
"Fine, yes! Fine, I've been in love with you!"
"Why didn't you tell me?" I asked starting to calm down.
"How could I have told you." He said as if it were obvious.
"What do you mean?" I said knowing what the reasons.
"Well, first of all when I realized this you were already in a serious relationship and I wasn't gonna break that up. Second of all we were costars and best friends, and I didn't want to ruin either of those things because we broke up."
"God, why do people always assume you'll break up. What if we didn't break up! The past 3 serious relationships I've been in have ended horribly yes, but what if that was because it just wasn't with the right person."
We were both speechless after this. I think we both just didn't really know how to react after all of this blowing up. I finally spoke up, "So um, just out of curiosity, are you still in love with me?"
He looked down and then back up at me. "Um, maybe on some level, ya I am."
"So..." I responded with a hint of sadness in my voice.
"So,"
"Well, what do you wanna do," I gestured between us, "about us."
"Well, I guess we just forget about us. In a more than friends way I guess."
This confused the hell out of me. "What? Why! We don't work together anymore so there's no problem there, we're friends yes and I would love us to get closer again but if we started dating LIKE I SAID BEFORE who knows that we would break up, we both-"
"Court," He interrupted.
"have feelings for each other so we don't have to worry about the feeling no being mutual." I continued. "I mean we're both not seeing anybody, it's not like we live very far apart, we've known each other for like 20 years so we know basically everything about each other, I mean it would be like-"
"Courteney," He interrupted again.
"I'm not finished yet!" I responded slightly annoyed. "It would be like starting on like the thousandth date, so we wouldn't have a lot of anxiety about it. We have amazing chemistry as you and I both know. I don't really think it would be a shocker to anyone considering-"
"Seriously, CC." He interrupted a little more firmly.
"What! What reason could you possibly have that's good enough to explain why," I didn't get to finish my sentence because I was interrupted by his lips on mine.
AN: Again, I would really love to hear what you guys think!