Here's chapter 2...very sad or dark or whatever you wanna call it

Maddie now explains why she is so sad, or broken

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HighSchoolMusicalForever: Kind words are always welcome...thank you so much, I'm glad you like it.

on with the chapter

Hurt

I had a lot of friends when I was in 9th grade at Our Lady of Perpetual Sorrow. Rylan was one of them. He was my best friend. I never wanted to be popular. I didn't want the praise. All I wanted was one thing: Rylan. Apparently, I was wrong. I thought he wanted me for me. He didn't. Some days I can't even look at myself in the mirror, I am so disgusted with what I see in the reflection.

I had it all and now, I have nothing. He took it away. He tore my heart out, stepped on it, turning it into one million little pieces, and then he expected me to put it back together by myself. I am actually glad that he can no longer hurt me. I can no longer feel the pain, the agony of seeing his evil smirk every day. Those deep green eyes, the way they would stare into my dark brown ones. The way he would whisper, "I love you, Maddie" into my ear, and I would believe him. Now that he's gone, I can finally be myself again, goof around with Zack and Cody when I work at the Tipton, flirt with a cute guy every time he walks by the candy counter, but every now and then, I start to think about him. All the memories come flooding back. I keep having that night replay in my head over and over, its like a tape recorder on the frits; rewind, pause, play, rewind, pause, play. I couldn't stop it and I still can't, no matter how hard I try. It all started one night, two years ago, January 10, 2004.

I went to a party that my friend Tommy had invited me to. At the party, I had come in wearing a short jean skirt, black leggings, a bright pink sequenced tank top, and a pair of tan knee-high boots. A lot of the guys definitely noticed me that night, one in particular: Rylan. He had been drinking so I'm pretty sure that it was safe to say he was very drunk. He asked me if I wanted to go up to Tommy's room. The only reason I said yes was because I wanted to talk to him. As soon as he got into the bedroom, he closed the door, locked it, and started kissing me.

"Rylan, what are you doing?" I practically yelled at him. I knew what he was trying to do, I tried to escape, but he wouldn't let me leave. He just kept pushing me down on the bed, harder and harder each and every time. I can't believe no one knew I was gone. I would have thought for sure Tommy would have come to look for me considering I was one of his best friends. I couldn't believe that no one knew I was gone, with a drunken man nonetheless. Rylan wouldn't let me out of his grasp. He threw me of the bed one final time, pinned me down so I couldn't move, and then, it happened. I kept screaming for it to stop, but he wouldn't, he couldn't. He was drunk, after all.

About an hour or so later, Rylan left me. I was a crying and hurt ball of mush on the bed. I think he was sober enough by that time to come up with an excuse to everyone as to why we left to go upstairs. I attempted to fall asleep, but I was up crying almost the whole night.

Sooner or later, it was morning; I woke up to realize that I was in Tommy's bed. Tommy understood and let me stay there because he's like family, even though he didn't actually know what happened. I couldn't believe that I could have been so stupid to let that happen.

Yes, that slime ball raped me. I can't get it out of my head. He took my life, and broke it. I actually thought he loved me…but he broke my heart, too. I did learn a lot from that night. Naturally only my family and my close friends (Zack, Cody, Carrie, and London) know what happened to me, so they comforted me back to normal.

When I get back to my house, my mom greets me.

"Hey honey, how was the audition." My mom asks.

"It was great. Ms. Mayer says she'll call me soon saying whether I made it or not."

"I'll be hoping for the best." My mom hugs me, "I hope you get it."

"I don't." My snobby brother, Liam, says.

"Shut up Liam, you wouldn't know acting if it bit you in the-"

"Madeline Fitzpatrick, don't even think about saying that." Mom says.

"Sorry mom. Oh, shoot, I need to get ready for work."

"Have a good day at work, honey."

"Thanks mom, I will. I'll be back later." And with that, I walk out the door and head for the Tipton, hoping that London can say something stupid enough to put me in a good mood.

Nothing can bring Maddie down...go her

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