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I awoke the next morning finding it hard to breathe. My chest was aching-burning, feeling as though it was being compressed so tightly that my lungs were likely to burst at any second. I gasped for air, realizing a second to late, it was Edward causing my distress. I found his arms were wrapped around me in an iron grip.
"Edward!" I gasped.
His arms immediately released me, flipping me over so that I was lying on my back, looking up at his horrified-angelic face. I was still gasping for breath when his frantic voice began.
"Bella! Bella sweetheart! I'm so sorry! Are you okay? I didn't- I mean- Oh god Bella I'm sorry…"
As soon as my panting slowed, I reached up to touch his frightened face. "Edward, it's fine- I'm fine really. Calm down." I cooed.
Relief immediately washed over his face, erasing any sign of distraught. And then, disgust. "Damnit! I'm such a fool! I didn't even realize…" his beautiful face was full of heartbreaking anguish. "I didn't mean to…" I solemnly realized that if my angel could cry, he would be right now.
"Edward… please don't…" I pleaded. "Please don't be sad." Edward looked down at me- face still twisted with pain.
"Bella… I could've… you could've died right in my arms…I could've killed you myself…" Edward just stared back at me. And I did the same. We sat like that for an immeasurable moment, lost in each other's agony.
Finally, he bent his head down to rest it on my shoulder, but pulled back almost instantly. "What was that for?" I cried pathetically. "Bella, how can I trust my self to… touch you now? Maybe you don't realize how close that really was to…" he trailed off, knowing that I would understand his unspoken words.
"Edward, it was a one time thing. Not a big deal. Really." I tried my best t sound cheerful. But how could I be happy when he was in such pain…
I could tell he hated to see me upset, so he tried to mask his pain. His effort was wasted. " I'm sorry Bella I just… hate being the one that always puts you in danger. Sorry. I'll… try harder next time." I could see right through his charade.
Then he simply laid his head next to mine on the pillow again, this time, he stayed unmoving, watching me. " I love you. You know that right? No matter what you do, no matter how many mistakes you make, I will always love you." I kept my face serious as I spoke these words to him, my tone grave.
"I know." He answered quietly. " Would you believe that I love you to? I know it's entirely selfish of me to feel so but believe it or not it's true." I could only smile at that. I had waited to hear those words for so long that every time he spoke them my heart skipped a beat.
"Yes. I most definitely believe that." I grinned.
We laid there, lost in each other's eyes, for what seemed like hours when Edward finally rose, pulling me up with him. " Come on," He spoke, "Get dressed. I was hoping I could take you to our meadow today."
I was up before he could say anything else. My eyes darted to the window, a sunny day. I could only smile. I rushed to my dresser and pulled out my white tank top and blue jeans, the same outfit I wore the first time Edward took me to our meadow. Ran to the bathroom and threw my hair up in a messy bun. I was ready in a matter of minutes.
I darted back to my room only to smash into an unbreakable force.
I looked up, winded, and Edward smiled, my favorite crooked smile. And before I had time to catch my breath, his mouth was on mine. I reached up to wrap my arms around his neck. We stood there motionless for about five minutes when he released me. "Sorry," he grinned, "Just had to make sure I wouldn't hurt you again."
"No regrets here," I spoke, still struggling to catch my breath. Then he picked me up, bridal style, carrying me down the stairs and out the door.
"Seeing as your trucks slower than a tortoise, we'll be running the whole way." He informed me, a smug look on his face. And before I had time to defend my truck, he slung me on his back and we were running. And then, two minutes later, we had stopped, already standing on the edge of the meadow. Edward set me down, and I gazed up at him.
"I love you," I stated, pushing myself up on my tiptoes to plant a soft kiss on his lips. He only smiled. Then, I took his hand and led him into the center of the meadow.
Edward layed down in the grass, into a very similar position as our first visit. Only this time, I was comfortable enough to join him. We layed side by side, tracing each others hands silently. The ground, Edwards arms, they were both so comfortable, I closed my eyes in complete bliss.
I opened them only to find that the sky had grown dark, the sun setting, and I realized I had fallen asleep. "Oh! Edward! Charlie!" I cried.
"Hmmm?" He asked confused, as if I had pulled him from another train of thought.
"We have to go! Charlie will be home any second!" I shrieked.
"Oh sorry Bella, I wasn't paying attention." He apologized. He stood up blindingly fast, tossing me on his back. I immediately felt extremely dense for not realizing it would take less than five minutes to get back home. Leaving me plenty of time to prepare a simple meal for Charlie. Edward chuckled sensing my thoughts.
We arrived at my house with a half an hour to spare. I dove into the kitchen and threw together a plate of left over lasagna. Then, I retreated to my room into the waiting arms of my angel.
"I missed you." He wined. I could only blush, and then I heard I heard Charlie downstairs.
"Bella! I'm home!" he bellowed.
"I'll be back," I groaned, and headed out the door. "Hi dad, how was your day?" I asked reaching the end of the staircase.
"Good. I skipped my lunch break to go see how Harry's family's doing." He answered sadly. "I wish I had good news. Sue's holding up for the kids but… I just don't know." He shook his head solemnly. It hurt me to see my Charlie in so much pain. So I walked around the table to hug him. He straitened up in surprise, but, to surprise, he hugged me back. "Thanks Bells," he sighed. "You should probably go on to bed. It's pretty late." He informed me. Sensing his need to be alone, I walked back up the stairs, wishing there was more I could do.
But all my pain was forgotten when Edward met me at my doorway, with a kiss. When he released me he led me back into my room. "Bella," he started. "I'm not going to be able to take you to school tomorrow."
"Why not?" I asked hearing the pain in my voice.
"I'm going hunting with Alice tomorrow." He stated. I noticed, for the first time today, that his eyes were pitch black. "Think you can survive that much without me?" he grinned. But his eyes and tone were serious.
"Yeah," I smiled, knowing it didn't reach my eyes. Then I stood up to go and have another human moment.
When I returned, I noticed Edward wasn't in my room. And I panicked. "Edward!" I called in a voice soft enough I new Charlie wouldn't hear. "Edward! Edward where'd you go?" I felt myself getting dizzy. I felt myself falling when I felt something hard catch me.
There was panic in Edward's voice. "Bella? Bella are you okay?"
"You're here…" I sighed in relief.
"I went back to the house to get some clothes. Bella! Are you sure your okay?" he asked anxious.
"Yes. Yes your back. I'm fine." I smiled, relief washing through my face. But his face was filled with pain. He pulled me into bed and layed me down. He tried to release me for fear f hurting me again. But I protested. "No!" I screeched. And then, reassured by his presence. I drifted off to sleep.
Sorry. There was more fluff in this chapter than I intended. The next chapter will be MUCH better. Promise. Please review. Thanks. : )
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