Seconds earlier Jill had been handed some pills off Frankie that Gordon had apparently asked him to fetch. She'd never seen them before & hadn't been aware that her husband was taking any medication other than basic paracetamol to help with his pain. Jill was baffled and angry. They were married & with this she thought a sense of trust came. Why had her husband felt he couldn't open up to her?

With haste she walked to Gordon's consulting room, she briefly paused at the door and then, without knocking, walked in. Her husband was in front of her, filling in paperwork and going about his job but she could tell he wasn't himself. Having said this, nothing could stop her from feeling angry. She then placed the glass bottle containing the pills on his desk.

'From Frankie'
'Right' replied Gordon, knowing that he'd been rumbled.
To which Jill questioned him 'What else are you taking?'
'Nothing'
'Well you are. You must be taking sleeping tablets as well. That's what happened earlier, you took some nitrazepam by accident and fell asleep'
'I apologise for that'
'Are you self prescribing?'
'Nope...look we've both had a hell of a day; this really isn't the right time...'
'Gordon, you're doing it again! You're not listening to me. The fact of the matter is, you have been miserable and self-pitying since this car accident; you take no notice of me, you take no notice of the children, you take no notice of the patients for all I know!'
'That's not true! Look your tired, your exaggerating'
'YES AND I'M PREGNANT AS WELL. That's why I've been sick every single morning this week. So if everything's so okay with you, how come you didn't notice, hey?... I'm going home!'
'Jill. JILL WAIT!' to which Gordon ran after his wife. The usually strong woman that was his wife had left his office crying. How hadn't he noticed that his wife was pregnant? She was right; he'd been too absorbed in his own problems to care about anybody else. He hadn't been there for her when she'd needed him most. For that he was truly angry with himself.

He'd wanted to run after her so much & tell her how sorry he was and what a fool he'd been but he couldn't. He'd had to finish his last ward rounds & knew that if he'd of dashed home then everybody would have known something was wrong. Gordon knew Jill wouldn't want everybody knowing their private business.

When he did eventually get home he dawdled in his car. He didn't know what he was going to say to her but knew he had to prove himself. As he walked through the house there was no sign of Jill. Her handbag & doctor's bag lay on the kitchen table. The back door that led onto the garden was open. He made his way outside and walked along the gravelled path. There was his wife, sat on their garden chairs in the middle of the grass; the sun shining down onto her. And even though her mascara was smudged and she'd been crying, to him she was still so beautiful. From the moment they'd got together as a couple Gordon knew he must be the luckiest man on the planet and then when they got married he couldn't believe that this beautiful woman had chosen him to be her husband. Of all the people she could choose, she'd chosen him.

Gordon walked round the path and then up the three steps that led onto the grass. Then without hesitating he walked slowly over to his wife.

'Jill, I'm sorry'
'Where have you been Gordon?' Questioned Jill
'I had to do my last ward round' He replied. 'The baby, that's wonderful news.'
'Is it?'
'Yes, yes it is' Said Gordon as he sat down opposite her. 'Everything you said about me; how badly I let you down, how impossible I've been, it's all true. I know it and I hate myself for it but I promise you I'm going to change. You have to believe me.'
'How can I believe you Gordon when you won't even tell me what's the matter with you, hey?'
'After the car crash... I thought I could cope. I knew I had to for you, for the children, for everyone, but I couldn't. I have flashbacks, I see... I don't sleep and some mornings I'm even too scared to leave the house. I need help Jill and I'll get it, but most of all I just need you' Gordon explained.
'And I need you to more than ever now. I can help you but you have to talk to me Gordon, you have to trust me.'
'I do. I love you, that's one thing you can be absolutely certain of'

Jill let out a sigh to which Gordon stood up and walked over to her. He placed a kiss on her cheek and then held her in his arms whilst she cried. They both felt that they could now move forwards, everything was out in the open and they both knew how the other felt. Jill felt the most relief out of both of them. She now knew what was going on in Gordon's mind & she had also shared the news of the pregnancy with the person that meant the most to her. His reaction was just what she had hoped for. He was delighted and ecstatic at the prospect of becoming a father again but even happier that they were now expecting a child of their own.