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" Mr. Mitchell, I don't know how we didn't detect this the first time but it looks like you're having…twins…
And then my world cashes completely. I can't seem to breath. My heart is pounding, I feel light headed. My vision starts to blur. The room begins spinnin-
" Mr. Mitchell" she says snapping her fingers in my face. I close my eyes as my body stops trembling. I stare at her, questioning her. Maybe she's playing a trick on me because I'm a pregnant man. She can tell I'm confused. So calmly and patiently she points at the screen, while holding the ultrasound transducer against my goo filled stomach.
I look at the screen gasping as I see two embryos indeed and in fact, swimming in my stomach. " Congratulations" she says, awkwardly after a few minutes of staring at my future. She excuses herself leaving me to sulk up what I will have to deal with for the rest of my life. And the worst part possibly and maybe, most definitely alone…
As I drive I can't even see the road. Maybe it's a good thing, maybe that way I'll crash and leave my misery. But as much as I want to die right now, I can't. my babies are more valuable. And it's not fair to them. I pull aside and bring my phone out. Dialing with shaky hands as my sobs take over my body. I curse as no one seems to pick up fast enough.
" Hi Logan, how's the ultrasound-Logan are you crying?" her tone finally sounds of the concerned mother that I so at this moment need. I breath harshly into the phone, before managing to find full words.
" Mrs. K-Knight(Gasp)c-c-can you( Loud sob) come p-pick me up, I-I can't d-drive r-right now…he finishes barely hearing when she says she's on her way, because his sobs were too loud. Twenty minuets later and a strained throat. I see the van pull up followed by James running towards the door a panicked look on his face. He opens the door immediately throwing a million questions my way. I can't answer I'm too lost to function properly.
He lifts me out of the car and carries me all the way to the van. All I hear is Mrs. Knight telling James to take the other car back. But he protests by saying he's not leaving me. The whole car ride back to the Palm Woods. James cradles me in his arms whispering comforting nothings into my ear. James is sweet he really is. Despite his vain demeanor. There's a friend in need, he's a friend indeed.
I feel my eyes close slowly as James takes me up to 2J. All I remember is hearing Carlos gasp and scream what happened. Then I pass out…I wake up to a warm cloth being dragged across my forehead. My irritated eyes flutter open, to a scene of a worried looking James. He smiles slightly as I fully open my eyes. Only to frown when I groan at the large headache attacking me.
" Logie…what's wrong?" he asks, calmly. I can tell he's genuinely sorry for me. And that's really the last thing I need right now. People feeling sorry for me. I'm tired of everyone that meets me, or everyone I know thinking I'm vulnerable. That I need protection always. Well I don't. do I appreciate it?. Yes. But not when they see me at my weakest. Because I know I'm not weak anymore. I'm strong enough to accept that I'm about to become a father. And today I was man enough to accept that I was having twins. I don't need Kendall.
I'll prove to him and everyone that Logan Mitchell is more man than the supposed leader of Big Time Rush. Man enough to bring two babies into this world and look after them and care for them myself. I'm tired of crying, of hoping that Kendall will see the light. I'm tired of everyone feeling sorry for me because I know that at the end of the day. That I will give my babies the best life possible, no matter how many times I have to kill myself emotionally they will everything.
" Where's everyone?" I ask, my voice dry and scratchy. He looks at me for a few seconds.
" Mrs. Knight took Carlos to go get the car from where you left it. Katie is with Tyler down by the pool and Kendall well-I cut him off.
" I don't care where Kendall is" I tell him, firmly. He frowns at this and I could hardly bring myself to care. He sighs sadly and looks down at his hands before back up at me.
" Logan, you can't stop fighting for him, you have to remind him everyday that you're carrying his baby". he tells me, and that's my breaking point.
" Honestly James, Kendall could go fuck himself. I don't need to remind him because he knows. I'm tired of waiting for something that's obviously not going to happe-he cuts me off. Looking quite shocked.
" Logan , you can't just not care about Kendall, this is his problem just as much as it is yours" he reminds me. I'm sick of everything in this fucking apartment reminding me of that blonde bitch. I don't care if Kendall helps me through this or not. That's up to him, if he wants to then I'll gladly let him. But right now even mentioning his name makes me sick.
" That's just it James I don't care anymore. He's a coward but I'm not, and I'll take care of my babies all on my own" I tell him, proud and dominantly. My confession takes him back, he looks at me as if I've grown two more heads.
" Babies?" he asks slowly. Then I physically slap myself for saying that out loud. I look down at my hands suddenly finding my sucky nail bids amusing. He lifts my chin up slowly with his fingers so I could look him in the eyes. I feel like I'm about to cry again, but only because of how scared James looks. He looks more frightened than I am. I wouldn't blame him either. It's one thing to find out your best GUY friend is Prego and another to find out he's having not only one but two babies.
I clear my throat before nodding. " Ya…I'm having twins" I whisper the last part. I see him and he looks like the wind has been knocked out of his body. Like as if he's just found out that Cuda will no longer be selling it's products do to a chemical that makes your hair fall out. He stares blankly at the ceiling. So many emotions flickering through his face.
We fall into a silence that seems to last an eternity. He's about to speak up when the door bursts open, followed by Mrs. Knight and Carlos. I'm relieved because Kendall didn't come with them. But now I'm nervous about my news. Mrs. Knight walks over to me and immediately starts babying me. Carlos looks like a lost puppy waiting to be found. And James still looks like he saw a ghost.
" Mama Knight I'm ok" I reassure her, but I know that's just bull shit, so does James by the way he looks at me. I sigh this is going to be one hell of a day. You see the situations you get yourself into Logan?. You could gone back home from the party but nooo. Now look at the mess you're in. I interrupt her telling her to take a seat. Her and Carlos stare at me on edge as I begin pacing in front of them.
" Ok…so I don't really no how to uh say this…but a-she speaks over me.
" Logan you can tell us, were not here to judge you sweetie you know that" she reminds me. I nod she is really sweet it's just her Satan child that I hate right now.
" Well…ok what I'm about to say is huge, and I mean like huge, huge…but it'd be like so sweet if no one hit me after this" I stammer clearly nervous. Carlos snaps at me. I stop and sigh defeated.
" So I was at the clinic today and the doctor gave me some uh news about the baby".
" Is it ok? I mean you didn't have a miscarriage did you?" she asks, ever so motherly.
Sigh, " No Mrs. Knight that is not even close to it…ok I'm just gonna stop beating around the bush…so today life decided to take another huge dump on me…and uh ya, I'm having twins…I tell her dejected. I wait for their reactions but it's exactly what I expected. A long awkward silence. Even Carlos is affected by it. And oh gosh the look on Mrs. Knight's look is killing me right now. She looks as if she just got a call from the California prison telling her that Katie was arrested for bank robbery, fifteen counts of illegal pirated movies. For shopping at the black market for taking over the world with a floating shaved ice stand, for finding Bitters' body buried under a pile of all her Dak Zevon junk.
We remain in the awkward bath of my news. I don't blame them, it's just too much to take in before dinner. Speaking of dinner I'm kinda craving a burrito. Oh gosh the cravings will start kicking in soon. Damn it! I totally forgot about that part. I get my train of thought back on track when the door opens. And lo and behold, Kendall. The smug bastard walks in totally wrecked looking. He probably just came back from fucking his girlfriend.
My stomach turns at his presence. He frowns as he walks in to the scene. I really just want to grab something and throw it at his stupid face. He knows why everyone's been so reserved around here lately. And all he could do is avoid the situation by having meaningless sex with that other blonde bimbo. You know after the whole smorgasbord went down. I thought I might of felt something for him, but now he can just forget about it.
" What's going on…he trails off, looking at me before looking at the others. I just cross my arms and begin looking at my nails. Rocking on my heels while humming to myself. Mrs. Knight looks up at me furrowing her brows.
" Logan how can you be so calm about all this?' she questions, I stop looking at my nails and stare down at her blankly shrugging my shoulders. " I'm not, I'm actually freaking out…on the inside" I tell her nonchalantly. And it's true I' am freaking out, but I'm not about to show Kendall. Again like I said before, Fuck yourself.
She sighs while rubbing her temples. Kendall's still looking at me, like bitch let this go it ain't mine. I mentally flip him off. She stands and releases a shaky breath, while looking at Kendall. He stares at her waiting for her to speak. She clears her throat and wipes her hands on her shirt.
" Kendall, Logan just came back from the clinic…
He looks at her like he doesn't give a shit. Fuck you!.
" And…Logan do you want to tell him or should I?" she asks. I nod at her to tell her stupid child the news.
" Well the doctors found something interesting…she trails off, trying to remain collected as to not scare him away. I chuckle under my breath. Because for a moment Kendall looks excited and that get's me angry. She's about to speak again but I cut her off.
" Ok let's cut the bullshit, we don't need to make this some Lifetime moment. I came back and found out that You(Points finger)got me pregnant, and now thanks to YOU!, I'm carrying both of your kids!" I yell completely heated. Oh man the look on his face…priceless.
He stiffens eyes going wide mouth gasping like a fish. Karma is all I can think of right now. Mrs. Knight and the guys stare at me shocked. I never blow up like that but it's about time I did. I'm no longer putting caution up. I'm staring to assert my dominance, keep off grass bitch. The motherfucker suddenly becomes Helen Keller. I wish he stayed like that forever, then I would never hear his stupid voice again.
He breaks away from his trance. And looks at everyone. " Twins?" he asks, in a very hushed tone.
"Ya twins, thank you very much for completely raping my teen years, son of a bitch".
" I don't know why you're snapping at me for? That's your problem not mine, you opened your legs" he tells me, and that fucking makes me explode. I swear I felt something inside me snap. He's lucky there is the couch blocking us, because I would have ended him.
" Me?, Me?…are you fucking serious!. You were the one that opened my legs, and you were the one that caused this. If you would have just followed your shit quality girlfriend we wouldn't even be in this mess. But instead you convinced me to drink a bottle of crappy vodka and get me knocked up!. And I was stupid and drunk enough to fucking go along!, but I'm man enough to realize that it's my fault just as much as it is yours, and I'm man enough to accept that I'm the father and not doubt them!" I snap, I don't even care anymore like I said. I just hope this fucks his life just as much as mine.
He looks mad, do I care? Not a chance. Mrs. Knight is full on sobbing. James and Carlos are staring at me like I'm Godzilla. He keeps denying this but he no longer will be able to. He'll just have to accept it.
" They're not my babies!" he yells.
" If you're not man enough to admit it, than be man enough to get a test. But you know what they are your babies, and you will grow up knowing it to, so fuck you and your precious masculinity!, because I'm done. With Big Time Rush, with all this bullshit, with California but I'm especially done with you!. I fucking hate you Kendall Knight!. And YOUR babies will get to hear wonderful stories about how their pathetic excuse of a father doubted them.
And with that I was gone. Ignoring the protests from the guys. I slam my room door and flop down on my bed, I begin to cry. But because I know that I' am truly done. I can't stay here anymore. So I'm going back to Minnesota, hopefully one day Kendall will finally stop acting like he doesn't care and come see his kids. But when that happens no one will ever know…
" It's you and me against the world kiddos…