Thanks to everyone who commented and fav'ed so far. I hope you enjoyed it. This is Star-Rae pairing, so there will be descriptions of physical relationships between women. I apologize to any real lesbians who read this, I'm sure I've gotten most of it wrong.
I don't own Teen Titans, or any related characters. Which is probably for the best, my stories are far too disturbing to be on television.
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Chapter Two: Confessions, Part One
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Titan's Tower
It had been a long day. A criminal group attempted to rob a Federal Reserve using stolen military weaponry, yadda, yadda, yadda, I won't bore you with the details. Suffice it to say, the Titans lost an entire day being blasted at by a group of idiots who didn't bother to read the manual. As such, the aforementioned thieves managed to overheat their equipment and (to make a long story short) were now in the hospital. The Titans not injured, although they were horribly inconvenienced.
Now it was late in the evening, and they could relax. Well, most of them could relax. Raven was having a bit of an identity crisis. She was confused by her newfound attraction to her teammate Starfire. She had known Star for several years, and they had been friendly albeit distant.
Now however, Raven found herself melting every time she looked at her. To make things worse, last night Raven had a dream. And yes, it was one of those dreams. To top it off, it was a really good one. So good, in fact, that Raven was a little ashamed of herself for thinking of it. Now, she had no idea how to deal with her emerging emotions.
Raven was sitting in her room meditating, or at least trying to, when she heard a knock on her door. "Yes?"
"Friend Raven? May I talk with you?" Starfire said through the door
'Oh God, it's her. Oh no, what do I do? Why does she want to talk? She must know how I feel about her. Could she have found out? Oh, what do I tell her?'
"Friend Raven?"
"COM-ing" Raven yelped back. She opened the door and Starfire went inside.
"So, is there something you want to talk about?" Starfire sat on Raven's bed.
"My friend, is there something troubling you? I have noticed that you seem rather disturbed as of late. You have been acting quite erratically. First you are quiet and withdrawn, then you are jumpy and nervous. It seems like you are a different person altogether. Please tell me if you are at all upset."
Raven sighed, and sat down next to Starfire "I'm fine. It's just...I've been a little distracted recently."
"Well, is there anything I can do to help?"
At that point, Raven flashed back to her dream. She could see Starfire, feel her, taste her. She remembered how soft and gentle her touch was, and how much she loved her kiss. 'If only I could tell you how you can help.'
"Uh, no. I'll be fine. I just need to sort some things out."
"Oh." Starfire was quiet for a moment, then she said "Could it be that there is someone special you have feelings for?"
"What?! How did you-I mean, why did-Why do you say that?"
Starfire smiled "I thought that was the reason. You have found a boy who has stolen your heart, have you not?"
'Tell her! Tell her how you feel! Tell her!' "Uh, yeah. I've found a bu-boy." 'Ugh, I'm such an idiot'
"Well good for you, Friend Raven. Does he live nearby?"
"Uh, um...he lives across town." 'God, I am such a bad liar'
"Well, I hope to meet him someday."
"Uh, you can't. We're not-uh, telling anyone."
"Oh, I see. You do not wish to endanger him by letting one of our enemies find out about him."
"Uh, yeah. We don't want...what you said."
"Well, congratulations. I am sure that you will be happy together." Starfire leaned in and hugged Raven, who held her close, and "accidentally" thought about her dream again. Raven had to physically restrain herself from kissing Starfire's neck. To be blunt, Raven found herself...a little frisky.
"Well, I am off to prepare dinner. We are having a traditional Tamaranian meal. I'll give you a hint, it contains grumchek beetles and mustard."
And the frisky, it went away.
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Raven's Room, later that evening
Raven laid in her bed. She was still kicking herself over what she said to Starfire. She had the perfect opportunity to talk to Starfire about her feelings and she passed it up. But how did she feel for her?
'I'll admit I've found myself enjoying her company a lot lately, but that just means we're good friends. Right?'
'But this doesn't feel like friendship. It feels like I want something more from her. Something special. Oh, god. I think I'm beginning to fall in love with her.'
This opened a whole new series of problems. Like, how could she fall for another girl? She never thought of herself as a lesbian, nor had she felt like this for any other girl. Of course, she hadn't felt this way for any boy, either. Maybe it didn't matter what she loved, it was just that she loved Starfire. And Starfire just happened to be a girl.
'Okay, I love Starfire. Good. But how do I tell her? I can't just go up to her and say "Hi Starfire, nice day isn't it? Oh, and by the way, I'm gay for you." That would be...'
'...Easy. I mean, why not? I can tell her that. Well, not exactly that, but I can go and talk to her. What's the worst that can happen? She could freak out, and leave earth and I'd never see her again. Wait, that's pretty bad.'
'But that won't happen. She's not that panicky. The worst that will happen is she'll say "no" and it will be weird for a while, and then we'll get over it. Okay. I can live with that.'
And with that, Raven got up, and went to face her destiny.
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Starfire's Room
Knock, knock
"Come in"
Raven entered Starfire's room, Star was sitting in front of her mirror.
"Hello, friend Raven! I have been meaning to talk to you. I was thinking about the boy you said you like and thought that perhaps if we met here in the tower it would be safe..."
"Starfire, I, um...there is no boy, I made that up."
"What? But why?"
Raven took a deep breath. "Because I-I do have feelings for someone. I was just afraid to tell you who that person was."
Starfire took Raven's hand "My friend, you can tell me anything. There is no reason to be afraid."
"Well, that's just it. There is a reason I should be nervous. A very good reason, in fact."
"Wh-What is it? What could be so bad about this person-"
"NO! No, there isn't anything bad about-I'm in love with...with the most beautiful creature on this or any other planet."
"But then, why wouldn't tell me?"
"Because I- it's...It's you."
"...Wh-what?"
"It's you. I've fallen in love with you."
"...F-friend Raven, this is no time for making jokes..."
"It's not a joke, I can't help it. You're the one I love. And I'm sorry if it's weird, or if it makes you uncomfortable, but the fact remains I...I love you. You're so beautiful, and I just want to hold you, and love you, and I-I just love you so much."
"I...I...R-raven...I-I don't"
Raven couldn't take it anymore. She grabbed Starfire, held her tight and kissed her. And the world was perfect. Nothing else mattered. There was nothing else. Nothing but her and Starfire and their all-encompassing kiss. Raven let go, and looked into Starfire's face, tears in her eyes.
"R-Raven...I don't-"
"I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. I shouldn't have said anything. I'll just-I've got to go." And Raven ran out of her room, leaving a confused Starfire to ponder the meaning of their encounter.
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Raven's room, some time later
Raven had been crying for quite a while. She knew she had blown it. She scared Starfire off, and now Star must have thought she was a freak, or a pervert. Why did she feel this way? Why couldn't she control her emotions? Raven heard a knock on her door.
"(sob) Go away!"
"Friend Raven? Please let me in! I must speak with you!"
(sniff) "...Kory?"
"Please, may I talk to you for just a few moments?"
Raven got off her bed, and opened the door for Starfire. She walked in, and sat on the bed. "Star, I'm so sorry-"
"Please. I need to say a few things."
Raven sat on a chair across from Starfire.
"Raven, I just want to say that I have thought quite a lot about what you said. And I must say, I am a little surprised to learn how you feel towards me. On my planet, women do not...have such feelings for one another as here on Earth."
Raven felt the world fall out from under her. This was it, Star was telling her that she had no feelings for her.
"I must say that I am honored that you would find me...appealing in this way. In fact, I see it as a compliment that you think I am attractive. But when I think of what others would say..."
"I don't care. I don't care what anyone thinks. I love you, and I just want to be with you."
Starfire sighed "Raven, I must confess something. Since we...spoke this morning, I have thought long and hard about what you said. I realized that you are the only person I have ever met who has said such things to me. And while those things were...a little scary, I must admit I enjoyed hearing them. And I am glad to hear them from my best friend. But, this is so...confusing. If you truly do love me, and do not care what others think, than say so now. And please think hard before you answer."
Raven held Starfire's face in her hands. She looked into her eyes and said "I love you. And I don't care what anyone else says. Please tell me how you feel."
"Raven, I-I don't know. I've known you for years, and we were such good friends. But this is...I don't know what to think right now."
"Please, tell me. Just tell me if you love me."
A tear rolled down Starfire's cheek, as she looked into Raven's eyes. "Raven, you are my friend, and I trust you. If you think that we can be...l-lovers, then I will trust your judgment. If you think we can be more than friends and make it work, then I will gladly give you my love." And with that, Starfire leaned and kissed Raven.
They sat on Raven's bed, for a while, kissing and holding each other. Then Starfire said "Raven, I-I want to...you know."
Raven looked into her eyes "You mean, you want us to..."
"Yes. Wait, what are you talking about?"
"I thought you meant sex."
"Oh, right, that's what I meant. Do you know what we do?"
"Just relax, and let me take care of you."
Raven kissed Starfire, and reached behind her. She pulled down the zipper on her leotard, and pulled it off with her cloak. She sat before Starfire, topless, with her clothes in her lap. Starfire stared at her lovely body, as Raven made her way towards her. She felt Raven pulling at her top, and kissed her.
They made love well into the night.
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Well, there's the second chapter. I hope you enjoyed it. A few chapters are left, so keep reading. And please review.