I'm really sorry for the long wait... my internet shut down AGAIN and I couldn't get on in four days :cry:

Well, anyway.... I'm not sure where I'm going with this but I hope you like it........ and I'm very very VERY sorry for the mistakes in the last chapter....

My Brother, My Love

Chapter 2

Kaoru and I sat on our bed after a long day of hosting and learning. He stared into my eyes as I tried to control my trembling hands. "Hikaru, what was that?" My heart skipped a beat.

"W-what was w-what?" I stuttered, trying not to make eye contact with him.

"You know... What happened earlier..? When you... kissed me..."

"It was for the girls." I lied, turning my back toward him so he couldn't see me blushing. "Just for show."

"Oh..." It was quiet for a while, and that bothered me. What was he thinking about? Does he hate me? I cringed at the thought. "Just for show?" He broke the silence. I looked over my shoulder at my brother, who had been staring into space.

"Yes..." He looked straight back at me, causing me to blush once more.

"I--"

"You hate me, don't you..?" I shut my eyes and turned my head away, fighting back tears. The bed moved as Kaoru crawled to me and gently pulled my chin so I was facing him. I slowly opened my eyes and met my brother's.

"I don't hate you... Never have and never will..." He sighed and moved away, leaving me in desperate needs of his comfort. "I'm just... a little hurt that it was only for show..."

"W-what?"

"Nothing. It doesn't matter." He smiled and rubbed the back of his neck.

"Hurt?"

"It doesn't matter." He looked away, setting his hand on his lap.

"Kaoru, tell me..." He sighed and looked back up at me.

"Hikaru, I love you. Not as a brother, but... but more than that..." My heart sunk and the room began to swirl. "I... enjoyed the kiss, actually..." He leaned toward me, his hand back on my chin, pulling my face closer to his. "And I... want more..." He pressed his lips to mine.

I jolted up, the sheets flying off of me. A dream? It was all just a dream? I looked over my shoulder at Kaoru, who was sound asleep. My fists clenched in the blanket as tears built up and slowly began to pour out. How could I be so stupid? I shouldn't have kissed him. It was wrong and I shouldn't have done it. I knew he hated me for it. "Hikaru..?" I quickly wiped tears away, trying to control my sobs. "Hikaru, are you crying?" Kaoru set his hand on my shoulder.

"No." I lied, sobbing.

"What's wrong, Hikaru?"

"Nothing." I shoved his hand away but he grabbed my arm and pulled me to my back with his other one, leaning over me.

"Please tell me..." He looked into my eyes making more tears escape down my cheeks and to my ears.

"Kaoru..." I looked away. "I..." How was I supposed to tell him how I felt? "I..." My heart sped up and my breath became heavy as I sobbed into the sheets. I felt his cold, soft fingers on my cheek as he turned my face toward him gently.

"It's okay, Hikaru..." He shushed me, sitting up and pulling me into his arms. I cried on his shoulder as he rubbed my back.

"Kaoru... I love you..."

"I lo--"

"No... I love... you more than that..." I pulled away and looked at him to see his reaction, wiping my eyes with the back of my hand. He smiled and kissed my nose.

"Silly, brother..."

xXx

He held my hand as we welcomed the young women into the music room. I've never been this happy in my life. In fact, I couldn't wipe the stupid grin off my face. "How are you, Hitachiin." Two girls sat across from us at a table, one of them curling their long, blonde hair between their fingers.

"Very well. And you?" We spoke in unison. They smiled.

"I'm fine, I guess." The girl with short, brown hair folded her fingers together and leaned her chin on them.

"I'm well. It's a beautiful day, isn't it?"

"Ah, yes..." I agreed, looking out the window next to us.

"But not as beautiful as you two..." We said again, giving them a heart-filled smile. They turned red and smiled back.

"Such beautiful eyes..." Kaoru reached over and cupped the blonde's chin, staring in her crystal blue eyes. Her face went completely red as she stared back. Jealousy rushed inside and I caught myself glaring at the blonde.

"Suzu..." The blonde whispered. I looked over at the other girl and stood up as Tamaki started playing the piano for the girl he was hosting. I held out my hand to her.

"May I have this dance, Ai?" She looked up at me and took my hand. I pulled her to an open area and spun her around, realizing how short she was she was about a foot shorter.

"My name is Misaki..." She looked down with her face but up at me with her eyes. I smiled and cocked my head to the side. "I'm terrible at guessing... Are you... Hikaru..?" I opened my eyes and looked down at her. "Sorry... That's wrong, isn't it..? I'm so sorry..." She tried to pull away but I pulled her closer, against my chest.

"No, no. That was right. I was just surprised, that's all." I swayed side to side, holding the small of her back gently. "Misaki, correct?" She nodded. "It suits you."

"Oh, thank you..." She smiled up at me. I smiled back and looked away toward my brother, smile fading, who had also been dancing with Suzu. "You're jealous, aren't you?" I turned back to Misaki.

"I'd rather dance with you, my love." She smiled.

"But you're jealous of Suzu." She looked over my arm. I sighed.

"It doesn't matter. Come on, dance with me." I smiled again, turning us around several times. Misaki giggled. "Aw, kawaii!" I laughed, swaying again.

"Hey!" I bumped into someone behind me. "Careful..." I looked over my shoulder at Haruhi.

"Gomen!"

"It's okay." She smiled.

"Hikaru-kun..?" I looked back at Misaki. "May I have you tomorrow..?"

"Of course!" I grinned.