Stood swaying near the doorway Brendan whispered in to Ste's ear.

''Hey, i better go looking for them.'' He spoke so softly. ''I understand if you want to stay here.''

''Of course i'll come. They're my fuckin' kids Brendan!'' He shouted breaking their hold, pulling away from Brendan

''All right. Jesus Ste, i'm trying here. I'm trying to understand more. I'm trying to help.'' He said walking away grabbing his coat and slinging his arm into the sleeve, nestling his neck in to the big fur collar. ''If you want me to leave, just say the wor-''

''No, i don't! Sorry, i'm just-'' Ste whimpered, whelling up again.

''I know'' Brendan sighed and kissed his forehead.

''I'll go freshen up.''

''I'll start the car''

''Okay.''

Brendan rushed to the car, jumping in and starting the engine. His heart was racing faster than it had in a while. He was..scared. Brendan. Scared. I don't like this, scared. This is fucking me. No fucking way. Walker better not f hurt them if he has.. Ste jumped in and slammed the door shut.

''Okay, lets go!'' Brendan wasn't concentrating, he was in his own little world trying to figure out what Walker was trying to do. Trying to predict his next move. ''BRENDAN!''

''Yeah, yeah sorry!'' He pressed hard down on the acceleration pedal. Driving through the village about a hundred times faster than the speed limit. Cheryl was stood outside the Deli, clearly waiting for Ste. Her arms raised she was waving for them to slow down. Slow down. Slow fucking down. Brendan slammed on the brakes, both of the men being thrown forward. ''WHAT CHEZ!?'' Brendan shouted out the window so almost have of the village could hear his deep bellowing Irish accent.

''You were going about over a million times the speed limit, do you want to get arrested again, Bren?''

''To be honest, Chez. I couldn't give two fucks, ok.''

''What's the matter with you/ Woke up on the wrong side of the bed?''

''NO LEAH AND LUCAS WEREN'T IN THEIR FUCKING BEDS AND WALKER HAS THEM, OK?'' He shouted at her. He didn't mean to, it just came out. Ste burst in to tears at this. 'Aw, shit. Steven, i'm so sorry. I didn't mean''

''Brendan, what? Oh my God. What can i do?'' Chez asked less calm.

''Help us find them?'' Ste whispered through his tears. Brendan looked forward, he couldn't make eye contact with anyone now. He had to hide his emotions to keep Ste strong. This was what was best for Steven. This helped. Brendan sped off and left Cheryl standing, she ran to her and Nate's car and started it quickly, following her brother, she'd never seen him like that. Never.

''How you feeling?'' Brendan managed to squeeze out through gritted teeth holding back his tears. The lump in his throat getting bigger. Why am i showing emotions? This shouldn't fucking happen. I need to stay fucking strong. Since when does Brendan fucking Brady cry.

''Do you really need to ask that?

''Yeah, i'm um sorry.''

''Its not your fault!'' Ste reassured him.

''That's the thing, Steven. It is.'' Brendan replied, his voice sad. ''Everything i love, everything i have turns to shit. I can't keep hold of it, its like sand slipping through my fingers. Even when i leave my past behind for you. For the kids, to be a better man. It comes crawling back destroying everything it touches. That's what i do, I destroy things. I push people so far away and eventually i push them so far that-''

''Hey, shut up will you? I don't blame you for this. You've changed for me, for the kids. When we get them back, we can be a proper family. Just like we planned. Just like you promised. Ok?'' Ste kissed Brendan's cheek seeing that single tear trickle down his face and on to his mustache. He didn't like seeing Brendan like this, not macho. He wasn't..Brendan.

''I have changed, i promise. I love you, Steven.''

''I know you have. I love you too.'' He replied.

''This is Walker's hide out. Scum.'' Brendan said disgust in his voice. ''Kevin told me where he would be, i rang him when you were freshening up''

''He might be lying. Protecting him.''

''He sounded pretty terrified, may as well look around, eh?'' Sounding bad again, like Brendan again. ''You stay in the car while i look, ok?''

''Okay!'' Ste was stubborn, there was no way he was just going to sit there. Brendan got out and looked around what looked like a disused petrol station. Brendan stepped inside a cabin pulling back a curtain that revealed a collage of pictures of him, him and Cheryl, him and Ste..him and Leah and Lucas. He felt a sharp pain in his lower side, he felt cold. His black shirt clinging to his body, it felt wet. He looked down. A knife. Blood. Lots of blood.

Ste sat patiently just as Brendan had instructed, Cheryl pulled up next to him in her car.

''Ste, where's Bren?''

''In there. He's been a while, i'm going to go look for him.''

''Did he tell you to wait, love?''

''Of course he did.'' Ste said stubbornly ''But i ain't just standing round, this is my kids were talking about!''

''Okay, babe. Well, i'm just out here. Shout me if anything is wrong.''

''I will, don't worry.''

Brendan looked around to see blonde hair, chiseled features, an earring in the man's tragus. It was Kevin. Brendan grabbed his face, slammed it against the cabin wall. It shook. Ste paused as he saw the building shaking. He sped up towards the cabin.

Kevin punched Brendan where he had been stabbed just moments ago. Brendan winced, the pain was extraordinary, it was indescribable. Brendan punched him back in the jaw.

''Tell me where Walker is, Kevin. You know how easy it is for someone like me to make your life a living hell'' Punching him again in his gut. ''Where is he, Kevin? Tell me!''

''I can't!'' He whimpered. He was terrified. Walker had warned him about Brendan, how scary he could be. He had to stand his ground. Pull yourself together Kevin, tell him the wrong address or something. No, he'll fucking know i'm lying. Shit. Shit. Shit.

''Tell me.'' Brendan said through gritted teeth yet again. Now punching him where it hurt most. Brendan's fist was bleeding. He was losing vision, and blood quickly. He swayed. Kevin pushed him out of the way and ran. Ste was stood in the doorway and pushed Kevin back into the cabin.

''Brendan!'' Ste yelped ''Are you okay? 'Eyar what the fuck have you done Kevin? CHERYL. CHERLY GET IN HERE QUICK'' You could hear the car door slam, Ste turned to Kevin. ''Where the fuck are my kids?'' He picked up the metal pole next to him.

''Steven, I can't see. My eyes. My vision. I'm fucking freezing'' Brendan whimpered. Cheryl ran in and saw Brendan lying on the floor motionless, his face showing nothing but agony.

''BRENDAN! Babe, i'm here don't you worry..shh'' She cradled him, his eyes closing. She put pressure on to his wound and bandaged it up. He winced. This definitively wasn't the Brendan they were used to.

''Ah fucking hell Chez!'' He said softly.

''Kevin, i swear to fucking God. If you don't tell me where my kids are, I will beat you up so fucking much with this metal pole.'' Showing the pole off to him. Ste kind of likes this, proving to Brendan he was a man. Even though, this wasn't the ideal moment. This isn't what he wanted at all.

''Okay, okay. Please don't''

''I won't if you tell me!'' Ste promised.

''He took them to the west block of flats, flat 6, Hyland Road, London. I was meant to meet him after i'd well..killed Brendan'' Ste looked at Brendan, tears forming in his eyes once again.

''London?''

''Yes.''

''Why?''

''I don't, i don't know.''

Brendan was in agony, Cheryl held him tight. Kevin stood up quickly and ran out. Ste let him go, he had told him all he needed to know and he ran over to Brendan.

''Ste, babe stay with him while i get my phone?''

''Yes 'course, go quick!'' Ste cradled him like Cheryl had, he kissed his forehead, his neck any open skin he saw, he kissed. He was so cold. He couldn't take his eyes of Brendan, he looked innocent..Brendan really wasn't okay. ''Hey, Brendan stay with me okay? I can't do this, any of this without you''

''You did a good job, well done. Have i ever told you i love you?'' He managed to squeeze out, struggling to breathe now.

''Not just a scrawny fuck then?'' He smiled, his eyes scanning over Brendan's face showing the complete opposite of what his smile showed.

''No, you're so much more, You're my Steven.'' Brendan said. Suddenly, a pain struck his left side. ''Argh fuck, my argh-''

''Brendan..Brendan stay with me.'' Ste cried. Brendan's breathing slowed. Ste kissing him, Brendan faintly kissing back ''CHERYL! Please'' Ste cried.

''Hello, police, ambulance or fire brigade?'' Cheryl's phone was on speaker. Everything was kind of fading now..going white.

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