Disclaimer: I do not own Ouran High School Host Club. However I do own Mai and Juliana.
Pairing:?? /Haruhi (I started off with a specific pairing but this story may take a life of its own sorry!!)
Rating: M (Sexual Situations, Mature Language) this rating will be required in later chapters so I'm keeping it as this.
You will never be happy if you continue to search for what happiness consists of. You will never live if you are looking for the meaning of Life.
Albert Camus
Chapter 2: Love, Compassion and the hope of a Butterfly
Several things can go through your mind while you are being kissed by someone of the same sex depending on the person of course. One, either you could accept it and enjoy it; some people are very open-minded in that sense. Two, you could also take it as it goes and then apologize properly explaining that you can't return their feelings when the kiss is over. Or lastly, you can completely over react and boldly calm that you are straight and want nothing to do with the same sex regarding intimate relations.
Thinking logically while trying not to over react was something Haruhi had worked at over time. She had even taken pointers from Kyouya-sempai in certain situations, without him knowing of course. Logically speaking the last option wouldn't be valid since she was supposed to be a guy working with the Host Club. She didn't know how to react and which option she should take. However, the fact that this was the second girl who she had kissed and been kissed by ripped through her mind making her want to pull back as fast as she could. Being involved in the Host Club was taking her down a path of no return and if it ever came out that she was a girl, who knows what people would think about her. Who knows what her father would think if half of these things got back to him. Haruhi was about to pull back from Juliana when suddenly the girl herself pulled back. The look in her eyes was of mixed emotions that Haruhi couldn't begin to read and right before she was about to excuse her self, Juliana began to speak.
"I like you a lot," she began as she blushed deeply. "I'm sorry that I tricked you into giving me a tour but I needed for us to be alone so I could ask you...if..." she began to hesitate. "I wanted to know if you would be my boyfriend."
Haruhi's eyes widen as her heart began to pound. "Calm down, calm down!" she thought to herself as she stared at the foreign red head. Confessions came a dime a dozen with her and this one wouldn't be any different. She would just turn down this one like any other one and then move on with her life. It wasn't like she was going to be around for a very long time anyway. She was only going to be registered in Ouran for a mere three months. Why would she want a relationship that would last for such a short amount of time was a mystery to Haruhi, but something she couldn't let crowd her mind. She let out a loud and tiresome sigh but before she could respond her cell phone began to ring. She quickly recognized the ring tone she used to signify that she was receiving a text message. She reached into her pocket, and pulled out the device and read the message she had received. Her eyes widen in panic, as read its contents; she had to leave now she couldn't waste any more time here.
"I'm sorry Juliana, can we talk about this tomorrow I have to get going now," Haruhi said as she stuck her phone back in her pocket in a rush.
The girl looked at her with concern but didn't bother to press on the situation; obviously the message that had been received was very urgent. "Okay I'll just see tomorrow in class," she responded politely.
"Thank you," Haruhi said as she broke out into a run towards the exit.
Kaoru was in shock, the king was knocked out cold on the school's hallways floor. Hikaru couldn't take his eyes off of the scene that had played out in front of him, so his twin knew he was probably feeling the same way he was at the moment. They had watched Haruhi get kissed by their classmate and was soon asked out. They didn't know if the text message was a way to get away but they were happy that she was able to get out of the situation before she had to respond.
The younger twin sighed heavily as he looked down at the blond lying on the floor. His eyes quickly diverted to his older brother as he noticed Hikaru's frustration. He had not liked the attention Juliana was giving Haruhi from the beginning, and now his suspicions had been confirmed. Hikaru was standing there, obviously angry at what he had seen, and before Kaoru realized what he was doing, he was walking towards the unsuspecting girl.
Haruhi had gotten home as fast as she could after she had received the alarming message from her cousin. When she arrived in front of the building, her worst fears had been realized. There was an ambulance there along with several other cars she didn't recognize. Had her father gotten so bad that other family members needed to be called over? Her heart sunk at the possibility of things being fatal.
She had been hiding the fact that her father had become ill for some time now. She always assumed that he would eventually get better. But after weeks of his health slowly plummeting, she began to skip Host Club activities in order to get home and take care of him. Eventually her cousin Mai had caught wind of what was going on and volunteered her services since she was a licensed nurse. With that Haruhi had felt a bit better. But no matter how much Mai helped he just wouldn't get better, and now it had come down to this.
She turned into the parking lot and ran up the stairs as fast as she could. Her chest was hurting badly because most of the way there all she did was run. But she couldn't help it after seeing everything so far; she couldn't help but think of the worst. What would she do without her father? She was still a high school student and still needed guidance! It wouldn't be fair if God took her mother away and then took her father, it just wouldn't be fair. Her thoughts became jumbled as she ran into the opened door of her apartment only to bump hard into the person standing in the door way. She stumbled back a bit dazed before she looked up in surprise and confusion.
"Ky-Kyouya-sempai?" she whispered as she looked up at him.
The vice president of the Host Club towered over her as he peered back at her. It seems he had been watching the operation of things as they went on.
"I told myself I would not interfere with the affairs of your family. However your cousin Mai does work for my family's hospital and when I received wind of your father's worsening condition I felt that it was time I step in and offered my services."
"But...why?" she asked in disbelief. Her eyes were focused on his as she waited for his answer. She could hear the paramedics getting ready to take her father out of the apartment, but she still couldn't figure out why he was being so nice to her.
"It's simple," he began in a matter of fact tone. "If your attention is divided you can't perform your duties need with the Host Club. That causes a loss of revenue and possible loss of customers. I'm just making sure that everything goes well for you so it does not hurt what the Host Club's affairs."
Haruhi eyes welled up as tears began to fall. Kyouya-Sempai would always be Kyouya-sempai but she knew that it was more to it but he would never admit it. She walked over to him and wrapped her arms around his waist, and laid her head on his back. She could feel him stiffen but she didn't care. Although this wasn't something she would normally do, she couldn't muster up the words to explain how thankful she was. She could feel his body relax a bit and heard an audible sigh escape his lips. His hands gently went to her own that were clasps around his waist as they stood there silently.
Tamaki opened his eyes slowly as he surveyed his surroundings. He could feel the cool floor underneath his body as he blinked a few times to focus on the ceiling above. His thoughts began to go into overdrive as he recalled the reason why he had lost consciousness in the first place. He remembered Haruhi speaking to a classmate and then suddenly the girl kissing his beloved daughter! The blond sat up suddenly as he looked over at Hikaru who was staring straight ahead of him. Tamaki followed his gaze and noticed Kaoru was heading over to the girl who had stolen a kiss from Haruhi.
Kaoru was fuming. Why? He had no idea. Just seeing her violate Haruhi that way rubbed him the wrong way. As he approached her, she finally noticed his presence and turned towards him with a shy smile. However, her smile slowly faded as she noticed the expression that the younger twin was wearing.
"Hitachiin-kun is there something wrong?" she asked curiously.
Kaoru took a deep breath as he tried to calm down a bit. The last thing he wanted to do was blow her cover and ruin things for her but he couldn't help it. Part of him felt that it wasn't right for her to go through it considering that she was a heterosexual female. On the other end he knew she was taking responsibility for what she had done, and she also seemed to enjoy herself doing it. But when girls like this came along it made him wonder if Haruhi should continue pretending to be a male and participating in the Host Club.
"I saw everything that happened," he said finally.
"Oh..." Juliana replied as she looked towards the floor.
"You really need to respect his space and not jump on him like that," he began. "You could scare him away since it happens often."
"Oh really? Then what do you suggest?"
Kaoru groaned this was not going the way he had wanted it to go.
"YOU!" Tamaki suddenly cut in surprising the both of them.
"Me?" Juliana answered as she pointed to herself.
"How dare you kiss my adorable daughter!"
"Milord no!!" Kaoru shouted.
"Daughter?" Juliana asked curiously.
"You idiot," Hikaru said as he let out a heavy sigh.
"What do you mean? Isn't Haruhi a guy?"
Haruhi walked into her apartment after getting back from the hospital. She had made sure that everything was okay with her father before heading home to get ready for school the next day. She knew that leaving would be hard for her, but she was reassured when her sempai told her that her father would have all the best doctors and nurses looking after him.
She shut the door behind her and took off her shoes. She walked into the kitchen and put on a pot of water to make some tea when suddenly she heard a knock on the front door. Wondering if it was Kyouya-sempai or her cousin Mai with some news, she rushed to the door and opened it only to find herself staring at her classmate Juliana.
She looked confused and she eyed Haruhi before the silence was broken by Haruhi who was curious about something.
"How do you know where I live?" Haruhi asked as she eyed the foreign girl.
"I...I wanted to talk to you," she responded.
Haruhi sighed, "Look Juliana if it's about earlier then..."
"Yes it is," she interrupted. "But it's not what you may think..."
Haruhi raised her eyes in curiosity as she waited for the girl to continue.
"Suoh-sempai had a sudden outburst after seeing what happened earlier."
Outburst? Haruhi thought suddenly. After what happened?!
"That idiot," Haruhi muttered realizing all of the things he could possibly have said.
"Before coming here...I paid off your debt."
Haruhi's eyes widen, "you what?"
Juliana looked at her defiantly, "You're a girl! And you shouldn't be restricted to acting like a guy to pay off a debt so..."
Haruhi frowned, "I didn't feel restricted..."
Juliana sighed heavily, "So you like being kissed and confessed to by other girls?"
Haruhi rolled her eyes, this girl had a point. "No that's not exactly what I meant."
Juliana looked at Haruhi with an empathetic gaze. "Haruhi I think you should go to school tomorrow as a young lady and not as a guy."
Haruhi raised her eyebrow in curiosity. Why would Juliana want her to suddenly dress like a girl?
"What do you get out of this?" Haruhi asked suspiciously.
Juliana grinned, "I get a new friend."
Haruhi was taken back by the confession and couldn't help but to let her into her home. Her father was sick, but her debt had been paid and now she could focus on her studies. Not only that, she had a chance to make a new friend, something she hadn't put much thought into before.
"Okay where do we begin?" Haruhi asked her curiously.
Juliana squealed, "Everything is down in the car I'll be right back," the red head told her running out the door.
Haruhi sighed heavily; maybe this wouldn't be such a bad thing after all.
Her heels click clacked rhythmically on the pavement as her long black hair swung freely behind her. The yellow school uniform swished lively as she uncomfortably made her way into the opening of the campus with her new friend Juliana. As she walked onto campus many eyes fell on her and she hear some whispering and wondering who she was.
"Looks like you're drawing a lot of attention Haru-chan," Juliana whispered excitedly.
Haruhi blushed slightly as her eyes roamed as she watched the people around her staring at her inquisitively.
"Hey Juliana-san," a boy approached the girls smiling at the both of them.
"Hi," the red head replied brightly.
He nodded and looked over at Haruhi with a slight blush. Noticing this Juliana decided it was best to let it out before everyone found out in class.
"You know Fujioka Haruhi," Juliana replied coolly.
The boy looked at Haruhi in utter surprise. "Fu-fujioka-san?"
Juliana beamed, "are you surprised, she's a girl."
"I never said other wise," Haruhi spoke up.
"Are you serious?" A girl screamed out as she rushed over to the two.
Haruhi realized that she was a regular at the Host Club.
"Haruhi-kun...is a girl?"
Haruhi sighed inwardly waiting for her response.
"Ca-can we be friends Haruhi-kun...uh...I mean Haruhi...chan?" she asked hesitantly.
Haruhi looked at her in surprise, "you're not mad?"
"No! Why would I be? It's not like you led everyone on saying that you were a guy. It was simply assumed and you just let it be."
"That's almost the same as leading people on," Haruhi inputted. She knew it wouldn't make things better but the truth was the truth.
"Yes, but...I still think you're cool Haruhi-chan?" the girl smiled brightly.
Juliana laughed, "What's your name?"
"Keiko Honda."
"Well Keiko-chan! Nice to meet you," Juliana said happily.
"Me too," the girl replied with the same enthusiasm.
The three along with the flabbergasted guy began to walk towards the school as more people got wind of who the mysterious girl was.
As they approached the front steps of the high school they were greeted by an unhappy Tamaki, the twins and Kyouya who was staring at Haruhi with a look of indifference.
"I had heard but it seems that the rumors are true," Kyouya said simply.
"Haruhi..."Kaoru began as he walked up to the girl. He put his hands on her shoulders and looked down at her with concern. "Were you pressured?"
"No I wasn't," replied Haruhi quietly.
Kaoru looked over at Juliana calmly as he asked the next question to Haruhi while still having his eyes on the red head, "Were you threatened or blackmailed?"
Haruhi shook her head no and looked up at the younger twin with a slight smile.
"Juliana suggested and I simply took up the offer."
"Yea but," Hikaru cut in with a hint of annoyance in his voice. "What about your debt? And working for the Host club?"
"It's been paid off in full with interest," Kyouya spoke up.
Tamaki gasped as he turned to his best friend, "why didn't you say anything?!"
"It wasn't my place to say," the raven haired boy replied simply. "All I can say is that she is no longer obligated to participate anymore and doesn't have to worry about anything at all. Everything's all taken care of."
Haruhi blanked at him as she stared up at the vice president as he nodded making Haruhi realize what he meant. She couldn't help but to smile gratefully at him as she stepped away from Kaoru slightly. She bowed deeply and with herself still bowed she replied with a grateful thank you to her sempai.
"It's only business and nothing more," Kyouya replied simply before excusing himself.
The twins looked back and forth between the two curiously but then focused back on Haruhi.
"You never cared about your looks before," Kaoru begin. "That's why you didn't care about wearing a boy's uniform," Hikaru finished.
"But isn't she much prettier dressed as a girl?" Juliana suggested.
"Y-yes..."Kaoru agreed as he blushed.
Hikaru agreed silently as Tamaki continued to stand in the background watching the situation.
"Haru-chan is that you?!" a high pitched voice shouted breaking up the moment that had occurred between all of them.
Haruhi looked over and saw Hani-sempai and Mori-sempai approaching them from the college campus. The blond boy, who appeared younger than he actually was, ran up to the girl and hugged her tightly. Haruhi smiled as he she hugged him back slightly before pulling away.
"I remember seeing a picture of you, and you dressing up a few times, but you're really pretty," he replied incredulously, "isn't she Takeshi?"
The tall brunette nodded in agreement.
Tamaki continued to look back staring at the scene before him. When was he going to be able to see her if she didn't come to the Host Club after school each day? Did he even have a reason to speak to her again now? What could he talk to her about? Would she quickly dismiss him now that she didn't have to coincide with him anymore?
"I'm happy...for you Haruhi..." He said suddenly putting on a huge fake smile.
"Milord..."Kaoru spoke up noticing that the smile was false.
"Tamaki-sempai..." Haruhi began before the bell ranged interrupting what she wanted to say.
"Haruhi let's go to class!" Juliana replied grabbing her hand and dragging her away from everyone. The twins followed behind slowly as the president stood there feeling conflicted.
"Tama-chan..." Hani began as he walked over to his kouhai slowly.
"It was bound to happen right?" Tamaki asked out loud as he looked at his sempai sadly. "She's a girl, so it was a matter of time that she had to began dressing like one and..."
"Do you love Haru-chan?" Hani asked curiously?
"Love?" Tamaki asked as he really contemplated the thought of. "She my daughter...of course I..."
"Not as a daughter," the smaller blond cut off bluntly, "but as a woman?" he asked seriously.
"What? Why would you?"
"He's in denial," Mori stately simply.
"Denial?" Tamaki asked in disbelief.
"I knew he was," Hani agreed ignoring Tamaki's rhetorical question.
"How am I in denial?" Tamaki asked now expecting an answer.
"We'll help you," Hani said happily still ignoring Tamaki's questions.
"Kyouya," Mori suggested.
"He did tell us about your plan about the museum," Hani stated simply.
"Yea but..."
"No buts Tama-chan! Haru-chan will be a special guest for that trip."
"A special guest?"
"Of course! And you will be the host to keep her company!"
"Me?" Tamaki asked as he was being stringed along with the plan.
"Let's go and talk to Kyou-chan!" Hani yelled happily as he walked into the building excitedly.
When Haruhi stepped into the classroom with the twins and Juliana, all eyes were on her. There were some people who looked at her with disgust, but there were others, guys and girls who approached her wanting to get to know her. Haruhi happily accepted those invitations and ignored others who weren't so happy that she had "deceived" them.
She sat in her usual seat with the twins on each side of her and Juliana in front and began class without much of a hassle. After class had ended the rest of the day went by in a blur dealing with the good and bad of finally dressing like a girl.
By the end of the day, Haruhi was ready to go to the hospital when she was approached by the twins.
"Where do you think you're going?" they said to her as the approached her quickly.
"I have somewhere to be," she replied turning the opposite direction that the twins were going.
"This is important," Kaoru stated as he grabbed her hand and began to lead her towards the stairs.
"What's so important?" she asked impatiently.
"You'll find out once we get to the music room," Hikaru assured her.
Haruhi sighed heavily but let herself be dragged to the music room where the rest of the members of the host club and a few other girls were residing. When she entered she was met with stares from the girls, who seemed to feel a bit awkward that just yesterday she had entered that same room dressed as a guy who was part of the Host Club.
Tamaki stood up and walked away from the client he was entertaining without excusing himself which made her give Haruhi a nasty stare.
"Welcome princess," Tamaki said to Haruhi as he bowed in front of her and kissed her hand.
Haruhi's eyes widen as she looked down at her sempai unsure of what to say. She allowed him to kiss her hand as she stared at him surprised.
"We're happy that you could make it Haru-chan!" Hani-sempai spoke up happily.
"What's going on?" she asked as she continued to blush even after the kiss on her hand had stopped. She couldn't help but to eye her sempai slightly as she tried to comprehend what was going on. Sure he had touched her many ways before but this was the first time he was actually treating her like...a girl.
"You are our guest of honor," Tamaki said down to her warmly.
"Guest of honor?" for what?
"Today we are visiting the butterfly museum downtown," Kyouya spoke up as he scribbled down something in his notebook.
"A butterfly museum?" Haruhi asked as her eyes slightly lit up.
"Yes princess and it's all to cheer you up," Tamaki said to her smiling warmly.
"Cheer me up?"
"This is ridiculous!" The girl who was once sitting down next to Tamaki shouted angrily.
"This girl faked being a guy and deceived many people including you all," she said to the host club.
"Decieved?" Hikaru and Kaoru said to her calmly.
"We knew the whole time that Haru-chan was a girl," Hani said in her defense.
"What? But why would you..."
"She had a debt to pay," Kyouya said simply.
"But that's no excuse!"
"Says who?" Hani asked her coolly. He was obviously becoming quickly annoyed with the girl attacking Haruhi.
Tamaki ignored the girl as he began to speak to Haruhi again. Usually he wasn't so rude but right now he wanted nothing more than to focus on just her right now.
"Shall we lead you down to the car?"
Haruhi deeply appreciated it but she was also worried about her father right now.
"I'm sorry, but I have to be somewhere right now."
She noticed Tamaki's frame slump slightly as he turned to her with a smile that wasn't reaching his eyes. She had never seen him like this and for the first time it was affecting her.
"Haruhi you don't need to worry right now, everything is being taken care of," Kyouya said to her nonchalantly.
"Really?!" she asked hopefully.
"You have my word," Kyouya said to her with a slight smile.
"In that case..." she began as she looked at Tamaki, "I'll be happy to go with you all."
They arrived at the museum and were greeted by the hostess that would give a tour of the museum. Haruhi, the guys of the host club and several girls gathered into the lobby in front of the woman as she greeted everyone before she began to speak.
"Hello everyone, I would like to welcome you all to the Metropolitan Butterfly Museum. I would like to warn you that all of the butterflies here are alive so if you have any fear of them, it is best you do not take the tour since you will be in the same room as these beautiful insects and they will most likely land on you."
She looked around to see if anyone was going to drop out of the tour. Realizing that no one was going to she went on smiling. "We have several exhibits that we can show you, which one would you be interested in?"
Tamaki looked up at the exhibit map above the tour guide and then turned to Haruhi, "which one would you like to see?"
She looked up at the guide and then back at the other girls, "should this really be my say?"
"Kyouya?" Tamaki started as he continued to stare up at the guide.
"Yes Tamaki?"
"Do we all have to stay together?"
"We don't have to."
Tamaki smiled "that's good."
Haruhi looked back and noticed some dissatisfied looks from the girls and upon instinct she stepped away from the blond and went over to the twins.
"If that's the case, I'll stick with Hikaru and Kaoru."
Before Tamaki had a chance to object three of the girls ran to his side and stated that they would be with him. Haruhi grabbed onto the arms of the twins and began to walk with them towards the tropical butterfly exhibit.
"Haruhi, Milord specially wanted to be..."
"I know," she cut Kaoru off. "I just don't want him to lose his clients for giving me special treatment."
Hikaru snickered, "they wouldn't leave him."
Haruhi sighed but let it be. They saw many exhibitions that Haruhi could have only imagine seeing. Her favorite by far was seeing the Violet Morpho butterflies, which she found to be extremely pretty. Haruhi was enjoying herself with the twins when suddenly they came to the American butterfly exhibit and was greeted by a sign with an interesting commentary:
American Indian Butterfly Legend
If anyone desires a wish to come true they must first capture a butterfly and whisper that wish to it. Since a butterfly can make no sound, the butterfly can not reveal the wish to anyone but the Great Spirit who hears and sees all. In gratitude for giving the beautiful butterfly its freedom, the Great Spirit always grants the wish. So according to the legend, by making a wish and giving the butterfly its freedom, the wish will be taken to the heavens and be granted.
"I've heard of wishing upon a star, but upon a butterfly?" Kaoru said curiously.
"It sounds romantic," Haruhi responded.
"It sounds stupid," Hikaru said rolling his eyes.
Haruhi shrugged and dragged them into the exhibit. When they entered they realized that they had just accidentally met back up with everyone else.
"Haruhi!" Tamaki said as his eyes lit up and he smiled brightly.
"Tamaki-sempai," Haruhi responded as she walked over to a Lantana where a Zebra Longwing was settling upon. She walked over and slightly brushed the beautiful black and white stripped butterfly softly as she stared down at it in awe.
"Hey Haruhi," Tamaki whispered in her ear suddenly from behind her. Haruhi had not noticed that he had walked over to her and was completely surprised that he had decided to settle behind her instead of beside her. Her body tensed up from being nervous but in reality she seriously wanted to relax. He wasn't touching her but he was close enough where she could feel his body heat. She wanted to relax in his presence but the fact that he was finally treating her like a girl and not his "daughter" was something that was making her feel confused. But why was she so confused? He was the same Tamaki-sempai that he had always been right?
"Yes sempai," she answered him as she tried to concentrate on the butterfly.
"Did you read the sign about the legend?" he asked her softly as he continued to stand behind her. He reached over and began to caress the butterfly that she was still touching. He brushed her fingers slightly, making her blush once again. What was happening to her?
"Yes, I read about it."
"Do you believe in it?"
"I can't say for sure."
Tamaki chuckled as he stopped caressing the butterfly and brushed her arm with his fingertips as he placed his hands on her shoulders.
"I want to make a wish right now," he said stepping to the side of her.
"How can you? It's not like the butterfly can roam free."
"When you think about it," he began as he picked up a pink and yellow Malachite. "They are free. They don't have the type of freedom that will allow them to lose their lives at anytime, but they have the freedom to live a peaceful life here where there are people who care for them and their offspring."
Haruhi stopped stroking the butterfly; she hadn't thought about it in that sense. She looked up at her sempai as she watched him gently clasp the butterfly in his hands and whisper gently to it. She was mesmerized; she had always seen him as an arrogant, self centered, over-dramatic man who thought irrationally regardless of how much he truly cared about the people around him. But right now, he looked so handsome as he stood there with his eyes closed whispering to that butterfly who was taking in his deepest wish that he wanted fulfilled so badly.
And then as fast as he had held that butterfly, he let it go and it flew all the way over to the other side of the room which was the side of a middle size auditorium.
She wanted to know his wish, but she didn't dare ask because that was the whole point in telling your wish to the butterfly.
So she picked up the Zebra Longwing and made a wish herself.
I wish my father will get well really soon.
End Chapter
Author Notes:
Surprise! No more writer's block!!
This Chapter took a bit long for a few reason, the first one is because I went to New York City for a week. I had a job interview there! It was my first time in NY but it only takes one time to see if you like it or hate it right? I'm from Cincinnati, Ohio so NYC is huge. I was so home sick (I was there for a little over a week, I like Philadelphia better (but I am still in the process of finally moving to LI, NY). The second reason was that I began to have writer's block when things with my now former boyfriend began to get rocky. It's hard to write a love story when your own love life kind of sucks! So sorry. The third reason why this chapter took so long is because I was trying to figure out a pairing and so I decided to do what I did above. Whatever direction this storyline takes, I'll go with it. In Eien no Monogatari I intended for Haruhi to end up with Hikaru and look what happened. So even when I write ahead of time, honestly I do let some reviews influence the course of the story (I can't help it and it's always not a guarantee that that will always happen). But I know how it's going to end. But as far as what pairing it ends with is up in the air. But as a writer that gives me something to look forward to as the story continues you know.
I will look for a beta reader (I haven't been on in a while and I noticed the beta reader link and thought how cool that was or maybe it has been there for a while and I just didn't notice it.) Because while I will continue this story, since I have developed my notes so much, I am working on two other Fan fictions that I have been developing for some time (FFVIII and Naruto) and I'm currently working on an original fiction to put on fiction press (that story is my baby! I'm working so hard on it!). So there you have it folks. I apologize for the extremely long wait but the next chapter will be up soon.
Until next time!!