Sincerely Insanity
Driving home has never been an awkward or horrible experience for me… Until now… O looked over to my brother, his eyes were blank as he glared at the road ahead and at passing motorist. I could hear the radio playing my favorite song, though I dare not turn up the volume 'You won't cry for my absence, I know -
You forgot me long ago.' Am I that unimportant...?This song reminded me of the years after my parents death when my brother had to go away to college and couldn't live with me. 'Am I so insignificant...? Isn't something missing? Isn't someone missing me?' "Sasuke it's unlike you not to blare the radio on the way home. You Ok?" he asked but his voice was still as cold as my heart felt. "Sasuke?" I looked up at him, I could feel the tears fill my eyes as the memories flashed in my head of that night. Even though I'm the sacrifice, You won't try for me, not now'.
My chest felt heavy as memories of my parents crimson blood dripping into a large puddle on the floor. 'Though I'd die to know you love me, I'm all alone. Isn't someone missing me?' "…dead… their all dead… mother… father… auntie, uncle… brother?" I could hear my childish voice in my head calling for my elder brother. Suddenly a violent jerk to my shoulder brought me back to reality.
"Sasuke are you ok? Sasuke answer me!"
"Huh oh sorry nii-san just spaced out for a sec." I answered and shook my head and brought my hand to my forehead, for a moment I could feel the effects of the childish poke in the forehead my brother used to give me when I was being foolish. He had long since stopped the gesture in caution for what kind of memories it might cause.
I lay my head against the cold window and closed my eyes in an attempt to relax, though I knew it would work I did it to make Itachi feel like I was getting a little better. I could feel his eyes on me as I slowly drifted into the my dark, secluded unconsciousness. Though the reality was hell, my conscious would make it all seem safe. I knew I was losing it, in my dreams I felt myself laugh at the dead faces of my kin.
Dark purples and reds swirled together into a black obis, I had seen this many times before, this was me, this was what I was, just a bunch of colors mixed in with malice and sadism. A shadow of me stood an arm's length away, its eyes were red as usual, pearly fangs grew out and poked through its mordant lips. It reached out for me but before it reached my I felt a tight suffocating pressure to my upper body.
Itachi had stopped the car and was leaned over the seat with his arms around me in a crushing hug. I felt tears drip down my cheeks and my throat felt sore. "Brother what's wrong?" I asked and immediately regretted the decision to speak for my throat was now burning. I looked at me, his eyes were filled with pain and confusion. All I heard was my name being called before I blacked out and the memories came back to me.
FLASHBACK
I leaned my head on the windshield to take a nap but before I entered the relm of my deep unconsciousness the last line of my favorite song sang through the speakers in that tiny car. 'And if I bleed, I'll bleed, Knowing you don't care. And if I sleep just to dream of you I'll wake without you there, Isn't something missing? Isn't something...'
For the first time since the death of my parents I lost control, I had never listened to this song while thinking of my parents before. Tears fell from my eyes at the thought of my beloved mother an inspirational father lying on the floor drenched in each other's blood.
I screamed, louder than I ever screamed before, I covered my hears and shut my eyes tight screaming for the voices to stop… for the images to go away. The car screeched to a halt on the side of the road but I didn't care. I cried for the first time. I never cried, not even when mother and father died, everyone thought it was from my father. I slammed my head against the window and curled into a ball on the seat.
"Sasuke! Sasuke!" My brother leaned over the seat and wrapped his arms around my shoulders until I finished screaming.
END FLASHBACK
So how was that? I want to say thanks to Kutoki for the idea because basically I had no idea what to do next so this might help a lot. The song in the story is Missing by Evanescence at this time it is one of my top favorite songs. I think in the next one I might put something from Angelspit onto Sasuke's iPod so tell me what you think. Sorry it took so long to get this in I have had a butt load of homework this week.
All the Happy People,
-Alex Ranger