I decided I was just seeing things so I leaned in and kissed him again. God it felt good to kiss him and his super soft lips. Wait I don't remember his lips being so soft. I opened my eyes and noticed something was wrong again. His eyes were still green What the fuck? Then I saw the whole entire picture the green eyes the should length curly blonde hair. All that I could muster to say with my eyes wide was "OMG!" Her eyes were wide also she said "wow" but that actually didn't come from her. I turned around to see Julian at the bottom of the stairs and the all too big bulge in his pants. He had a smirk on his face. He said "Can you too do that again please?" I just snapped at this point and yelled at Julian "Get the fuck out!" "Ok ok it was just a joke Brooke God!" Julian left back upstairs and even when he was gone I couldn't bring myself to turn around and look at Peyton. I couldn't tell her I kissed her thinking she was Lucas! Luckily I didn't have to rlly say anything she said " umm that was awkward….you thought I was Lucas didn't u?" I couldn't turn around and stare into her eyes so I just nodded my head. After that all I heard was the closing of the door. Great now what the fuck was I suppose to do? I stood in that very spot contemplating everything for about half an hour. I finally decided to go back to bed just standing there thinking of nothing wasn't going to help one bit. I went up the creaky stairs hoping they wouldn't wake up Julian because I didn't want to explain everything. I just wasn't really in the mood for it right now. He was fast asleep thank go d so I slipped into bed and went to sleep.

I could feel the sun's rays on me. I didn't want to open my eyes. I just closed my eyes tighter as if doin this the light would go away. I knew I couldn't go back to sleep so I just opened my eyes and got up. I didn't realize Julian wasn't there. To tell the truth I really didn't care at this point. Peyton knew how I felt now she just left. I'm not sure what I should have done. I decided to go down stairs. Why I'm not exactly sure. It just seemed like the thing to do at that point. I walked down the stairs to see a very peculiar sight. Julian was making breakfast and sitting down at the table was…..a skinny curly blonde haired girl. That sight just confused me. My brow furrowed as I walked down the stairs. As my foot stepped onto the last stair it creaked. I thought fuck me sideways! Damn stair! Peyton and Julian in unison both turned to look at me. I froze as if I did something wrong and I was a fugitive. Well I guess I did do something wrong I kissed a MARRIED GIRL or a GOINF TO BE MARRIED TODAY. So I guess the scenne worked. WE stayed frozen for what seemed like hours. I decided to make the first move so I walked to the table and sat down. It was still pretty quiet but I didn't know what to do or say. So we just sat there in silence. I finally decided to ask a question "why aren't you getting ready for your wedding?" Peyton looked at me confused for a second then she said "OH yeah but I had to come talk to you ya know about what happened last night." "Oh ok then ummm…. I'm sorry" Peyton looked me straight in the eyes with confusion covering her face. "Sorry about what? The kiss? B-Davis don't be I know you thought it was Julian!" Peyton came over and gave me a very tight hug. All I could say was "oh ok PSawyer." I was so confused. Didn't she ask me if I thought she was Lucas? I guess not then? was this a good thing? I guess so. I put everything in the back of my mind so I could put my fascade back on to give P-Sawyer what she need, a best friend. When we broke from the hug she looked at me. I stared back at her telling her that everything was fine. She got up and said she had to go and get ready that I should go meet her at the church in an hour or two. Once P-Sawyer was out Julian came over and wrapped his arms around my waist and kissed my neck. He raised his lips to my ear and whispers "so u missed me huh?" I turned my face to look into his eyes and saw the smirk on his face. With the idea of the wedding again in my head I needed him now more then ever. I kissed him like there was no tomorrow. My head was suddenly clear no thoughts of a certain blonde haired blue eyed boy. I felt his tongue asking for entrance of course I gave in at this point I was putty in his hands. He had his hands on my hips I had my hands around his neck. We just did that for about an hour. I didn't realize how much I need him to get through today. I had no time to feel guilty for using him. I just said I had to go get changed and go to the church.

I put on the fabulous B-Davis original bride's maid dress. If I do say so myself its absolutely gorgeous dress. It was a light blue and ended a little higher then the knees. I know not necessarily traditional but who said this was gonna be a traditional wedding. Peyton's dress was even more gorgeous then the bride maid's dresses but I guess that's sort of the point. It's a great looking dress and it looked great on Peyton. It took me forever to finish that dress because I contemplated just burning it so many freakin times. But I finished it and its just perfect. Even though I was sad at I was still happy for Peyton. Not as much as I should be but it was what it was.

After I got dressed I kissed Julian goodbye and said id see him there. I got into my car a drove to the church. I purposely took the long way there trying to compose my face while I was getting there. The whole way there the songs on the radio reflected my mood. You can guess they weren't necessarily happy songs but I got to the church all too soon. I sat in my car for a bit took a deep breath and walked in. I quickly found where Peyton was because I didn't want to run into Lucas cuz that would just kill me. I got into the room where Peyton was. Strangly Haley wasn't there yet and neither was Millicent. It was just Peyton and me in the room. I stared at her she had her dress on. She look beautiful in the dress for Lucas. I was on the verge of tears that dress should have been for me when I was gonna marry Lucas. The tears spilled onto my cheek. At least I had the cover of being so happy for her that I was crying. She came and gave me a hug and I hugged her back.

There was a light knock on the door and every nerve in my body pleaded it not to be Lucas. I turned to look at the door where it opened and it was Haley. We quickly went and hugged her and she turned towards me and said "Hey Julian told me to tell you to go to the room right in between this one and the one Lucas is in." I looked at her with a questioning look and she just shrugged her shoulders. So I just went to the door bid my friends ado and went towards the room. I was wondering why Julian wanted to see me in a room. I opened the door to the room and was quickly pulled into a aggressive embrace but it didn't smell like Julian……………WTF!