SO, I won't be updating for a while after today cause I'm going away for 10 days but I thought I'd put this up now anyway. Enjoy!
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Chapter Two: Meredith Grey
Families, in her opinion, were kind of screwed up. No family is like those in the movies with the two kids who get along great and the two parents who love each other to death; they're all happy and shiny, all the time. Her family was not like that at all; with the cheating, work-obsessed mother and alcoholic father. Incidentally, she'd found a surrogate family when she became an intern at Seattle Grace; Cristina, George, Izzie and Alex. They were all in the same position; screwed up families and work their only safe haven.
So she'd never been one for families, even once she'd met Derek. But when she'd sat in that toilet cubicle and peed on a stick, it kind of dawned on her that maybe having an actual family was inevitable; after all, she'd married Derek. And then when the letter P-R-E-G-N-A-N-T appeared loud and clear, and she'd shaken it a couple of times just to make sure, she thought maybe a family wouldn't be that bad after all. She'd actually kind of gotten used to the idea; before it all happened.
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Rolling over in his arms, careful not to knock his wounds, she looked up, surprised to see his worried eyes staring down at her. She could understand why he might be worried; she had been kind of off the last week.
"Mer, what's wrong?" Derek asked, brushing a strand of hair from her eyes.
Tingling under his touch, still after all these years, she pushed herself up onto her elbows and sighed, "Derek. I have something I should have told you a week ago; two things, actually."
She watched his face as he waited for her to continue, to tell him what was wrong.
"Well, um. The morning of the lockdown, when you found me and Cristina walking around and you made us stay in the supply closet?" he nodded, indicating for her to continue. "Well, we were going to see you; actually, I was and Cristina practically pleaded to let her come with me." She paused for a moment, willing away the feeling of oncoming tears.
"C'mon, Mer. Why were you coming to see me?" Derek prompted.
"Um, that morning, I don't really know why, but I did it and it said 'yes' and then I told Cristina and she asked if she could come with me when I told you so she could see if you cried and then you found us and forced us in the closet and-" Meredith said without breath until Derek placed a finger to her lips.
"You're rambling. Take a deep breath and tell me why you were coming to my office," Derek said, rubbing soothing circles on her shoulder.
"I was...coming to tell you...that...that I was pregnant, but please, please don't get really excited now because you haven't heard the whole story," Meredith stuttered, unsure of how and what to say.
"Whole story?"
"Um, well, something happened while Cristina was operating on you and then Owen got shot and Cristina made me fix him up. I'd been under so much stress and I was so anxious when you got shot and then when Jackson pretended you flat lined and I was so scared and upset and worried. I'm so, so sorry, Derek. So sorry," by now she had a steady trail of tears running down her cheeks as Derek stared at her, completely bewildered.
"Mer, wh-why are you crying? Why are you apologising?" Derek stammered, putting his hands on either side of her face.
"I-I lost the baby, Derek. I lost the baby," she cried, collapsing against his good shoulder.
Derek was unable to form words; what words would make this any better? What words do you use to express the heartache they were both experiencing? What words could possibly be said to soothe that heartache? There were no words, so he just held her; close to his heart, ignoring the fact that his wound was searing with pain.
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I apologise for this being short but I wanted to get something up before I have to leave at 5 freaking am tomorrow morning! Please review and let me know your thoughts. Also, pm me if you have any requests for characters or anything like that. Thanks.
Em xXxXxxx