An unexpected feeling
Chapter 2
"Spinning out of control"
Waking up every morning with the impression it was the end of the world was excruciating. The pain refused to leave. She had done everything to change ideas. She had passed her exam and she had become a teacher. But nothing did it. She had to live Chicago, because everything reminded her of Alistair. Patricia decided to change cities. She had to move to another city. Why not New York? In the movie, New York was often the city the chose for a new beginning. She told her grandma about it.
- Patricia, I think I'm going to go back to Florida, the sun will be good for me. My rheumatism doesn't like the cold much... And New York is too close to Canada,... too close of the big cold.
- I'm going to miss you grandma, but I understand
- You can come with me...The sun is going to give you back some colours, you've lost them all...
You've lost a lot of weight too honey.
- And I didn't even need to go on a diet this time around! All I had to do is lose the love of my life! She said cynical
- Patty...
- Sorry grandma... Good luck in Florida, I'll come to visit you.
So grandma Martha went to Florida.
Patricia went to the Andrew Manor to see her friends. The whole family was taking care of her, and she was starting to have enough of that. She wanted to yell at them to leave her alone, but she didn't want to hurt their feelings, or show her ingratitude, after all, all they were trying to do was comfort her.
She found them in the living room just before dinner. They were all happy to see her.
- Patty! Said Candy smiling, how are you?
- I've been better, you know that, but what can I do...
- You don't look good...
- I have no appetite...
- You should feed yourself, said Candy
- Don't worry Candy, I eat enough not to collapse...
Eliza arrived with her fiancé and her friends. She looked at Patty with disdain.
- The weeping widow, she said, you didn't get the memo? Alistair is dead! You don't have anything more to do here!
- Always so mean Eliza, said Patricia, and in good company...Louise, you know, she sleeps with your husband in the apartment downtown? And yours too Jennifer... and Sharon? I've seen her with your husband too! Nathan, when you're not there, Eliza dances in your husbands' beds! You should all have a gang bang together, you'll have a lot of fun!
There was a heavy silence. Eliza's friends were speechless at first, too stunned to react, then, they all started talking at the same time and Eliza was attacked by her friends and her fiancé.
The great aunt was outraged by the behaviour of her grandniece, she was upset at Patty for reacting to Eliza's meanness.
Candy looked at Patricia smiling.
- My God Patty, looks like you're not at loss for words anymore!
- You can't know how good it feels to put Eliza back in her place! Said Patty smiling.
- My cousin is always so charming, said Anthony , and she's a slut too!
- Did she try to bed you this month? Asked Candy to her husband.
- Of course she did! Said Anthony laughing.
- In any case, Patty, said Annie, I wish I had your courage to put Eliza back in her place!
- By the way, said Patty, I came to tell you that I`m living town...
- What? You're going to Florida? Asked Archie.
- No, I'm going to New York..., answered Patty.
- What? Said Candy, but why?
- I need a change of scenery... everything here is reminding me of Alistair... I need a complete change of scene...
- I understand you said Archie, when the great aunt made us believe that Anthony was dead, we all went to England for a change of scenery...
- I still can`t believe you've done that to me grandma! Said Anthony.
- A change of scenery is going to be good for you, said Candy smiling, go, we`ll come to visit you...
- What about your grandma? Asked Annie, is she going with you?
- No, she went back to Florida where my parents are, her rheumatism will be better under the Florida sun. She already left...
- What about you? Asked Annie, the Florida sun would give you back some colours...
- What do you all have against my colours? Said Patty, I`m fine, I feed myself!
- You`ll get your colours back in New York too, said Candy to calm her down.
- I'm counting on it! said Patty, I`m going to go pack my bags.
- You don't want to eat? Asked Anthony
- We can't let you leave like that without eating, said Archie, come on, you might just go to bed without dinner...
- But... all right, I`ll stay and eat...
Eliza and her group were still arguing in another living room. Neil came to make fun of her.
- You couldn't keep your big mouth shut Eliza? Walls have ears and windows have eyes!
- Shut up Neil!
Eliza's fiancé and her friends, or should we say, former fiancé and former friends all left, very angry. Eliza went to her bedroom. She didn't dare show her face to her family. Diner happened in a calm atmosphere. Everybody was encouraging Patty in her new venture. She left the manor, serene and happy to face the word.
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Her father had a townhouse in Manhattan. She decided to go live there. There was a housekeeper and her husband who was also the driver, they lived in the house whie the family was in Florida. She was thinking about Alistair and she wiped her tears of sadness. She looked at his picture, she had in her purse. She will never see him again. She came to New York to forget, and she was going to forget. She decided to get dress and go out. There was probably some party somewhere in town... She looked at her parents' pile of mail and she found a few invitations. She went to the theatre. Her parents' balcony was occupy by a man who was alone, his girlfriend had walked away from him.
- Good evening, said Patricia smiling.
- Good evening said the young man.
They started talking. Patricia wanted to be someone else, she wanted to forget her grief... So she woke up in a hotel room in the morning... in the bed of the young man from the night before. She took her stuff and left without a word before the man woke up.
"Oh my God! What am I doing?", she said to herself.
But she had to admit that the night before, she felt good for a few hours. Even if it didn't last. It was a lot better than nothing. She would go out with acquaintance, she would go to the restaurant, to dance club, theatre... she would take advantage of the smallest thing to go out. She didn't always end up in the bed of a stranger, sometimes she knew the guy...
But she continued going out to receptions. During the day, she was looking for a job. If she had a job teaching a class, maybe she wouldn't need to distract herself so much in the evening.
During one of the reception, she had a glass of champagne in her hand and she met a familiar face...
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Terry was at a reception very bored. His agent had asked him to come, to make a good impression in front of the sponsors. He was bored. There were a lot of beautiful women who were only waiting for a word from him to spend the night... It wasn't the kind of life he was dreaming about. What he would`ve wanted, is to be married to Candy, raise children with her, do the job he love at his own pace to spend the most tie with his family. But everything went to hell... Susanna was dead, even if he wasn`t in love with her she would`ve been part of the family he created... he had done his duty and at the end, he almost didn't win anything... except if we count his movie career which was at its heights. Never in a million years would he have thought that being at the height of his career wouldn't please him at all. The receptions, rolling in the hay with perfect strangers every nights... What he wanted was a stable family life. He wanted a wife who was waiting for him at home...he wanted Candy...But Candy wasn't available. Candy was married to the flower boy. Candy was a mom to a little girl she had with the flower boy... he had to turn the page on Candy, even if it was the most difficult thing he's ever had to do. Even to consume his marriage to Susanna, wasn't that hard and the consequences of that act, he had forgot about it… Alcohol was an illusion… it gets you dizzy for a moment and you think you forgot about your life, but then, everything comes back crashing down with a horrible hang over…
He was just wondering around the reception, barely listening to what people were talking about when a glaze attracted his attention. There was a young woman wearing a blue dress… why was that young woman attracting him like that? She was laughing with a young man. Terry approached her.
- Patricia? He said surprised.
Patricia thought she heard someone calling her name. But she had a headache… she looked at the young man.
- It's Terrence Grandchester, get your own chick! This one is for us for the night…, said the young man talking to Patricia.
- Well no, you see, I want her for me, said Terry.
- She's ours…
- "Ours"? Said Terry
- Yes, for a gang bang…, with my buddies and I, he said showing a group of men.
- Well, find yourself another chicken, said Terry taking Patty's arm, this one is mine!
- But…
He took Patty from the man. He met his mother.
- Terry? You're living?
- Yes, mum. I'll call you tomorrow morning.
- You're in charming company, as usual, can you not…
- Mum please, this is not the time…
- Ok, you guy have your roll in the hay; you'll end up listening to me one day…
- Good night mum.
- Have fun and don't forget to use protection… I can't believe I'm saying this!
Terry burst out laughing.
- Thanks mum…
Terrence's car arrived with his driver and he got in the Mercedes with Patricia, who was practically asleep. What was he doing with her? He wasn't going to…? But why not in fact? She was careless enough to get drunk in a reception where perverts could've and would've taken advantage of her sexually if he hadn't intervene… But it was Patricia, his childhood friend and Alistair's girlfriend, he wasn't going to take advantage of her… but she deserved a little lesson…
When Patricia woke up the next morning, she was naked next to a man, also naked who was smiling to her… Her mind was clouded, he had dark hair…
- Alistair? She tried.
Terry felt sorry for her for a moment...
- Good morning Patricia O'Brien, you remember me?
- Terry?! Oh my God! Said Patricia offended.