Memoirs of a Child
Part 2
Author's Notes: A few original characters from Kazuki's past.
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You were my keeper
You were my anchor
You were my family
You were my savoir
And there in lays the issue
And there in the lays the problem..
-Alanis Morisette, Sympathetic Character
//Nataku//
It's that dream again. It..was a dream..wasn't it? Daddy's not here. He went with Seishirou-san to some resturant. I miss him. Seishirou-san.. and Papa.. they are becoming friends.. I don't like it. But Daddy is always right. He..cannot be wrong.. Can he?
Papa... I'm looking out the window as I watch rain pours..down.. like..like when Kanoe-san is watering plants.. I want Papa. When is he coming home? He shouldn't leave without an umbrella. He'll get wet.. Seishirou-san is older he should look after Papa. I'll yell at him when he comes home. Or not..I've never been good with telling people things..
I can only ask questions.. it's all I can do. I can answer questions but.. everyone ignores me.. They act as if I'm sick.. like how Grandmommy acted.. as if I was a disease.. as if I was contagous.. she never came with Granddaddy.. she always sent her love.
Papa would look mad than his face would soften and tell me Grandmommy didn't mean to not come this time.. or the others.. she just.. doesn't like hospitals.. than he would leave with Mommy and I could see them through the glass. He was telling her something..she merely looked tired..or..stressed..
Where's Papa? It's nearly midnight.. I would be in bed by now.. I remember how Papa would put me to bed and tell me, 'Tomorrow Kazuki.. I'll find a cure for you..' than he would leave. I felt happy than. I would get better...
But I didn't.. I died.. didn't I? Granddaddy is in the hospital now.. I put him there. I sniffle but I don't think it is from the cold. I feel..bad.. not the bad when that lady attacked me.. but.. bad in my stomach.
I want some company... where is everyone? Did-Did they forget me? They always do. Than they come back and tell me how sorry they are for forgetting me. I forgive them of course. I was used to it when I visited Auntie. She would always have some guy friend over... than leave me in a closet. 'Kids are not sexy,' she would tell me.
Daddy found out. He hit Auntie. He told her how a child should not be forgotten. I never went back. Auntie never visited.
Even now I hate closets.. Daddy says it's not something to be afraid of. I would argue but I cannot. Daddy's right..Daddy's always right.
It's so late. Where is he? Eating doesn't take this long. It's so cold in these hallways. I wonder if anyone is still up. Maybe Kakyou-san! I like Kakyou-san! He always answers my questions! He reminds me of Uncle. Uncle was just like Daddy.
I open the door and Kakyou-san is still attached to all those wires. It reminds me of sad times. Times when I couldn't breath. A time when I got so sick I had to have those wires feed me.. I shake suddenly than walk over to the bed.
'Kakyou-san?' Of course I never get an answer. Maybe he's... not in the mood to talk to me. No one ever is.
Suddenly it's all black. Kakyou-san isn't covered in wires but sitting calmly by a beach. I walk over to him with a confused look on my face.
'It's a dreamscape, Kazuki.'
'Oh..' I wasn't sure what it was..but it was very pretty.
'Your ../Daddy/ isn't coming home tonight..'
'..Why?'
'He found Kamui and Seishirou-san found Subaru.. they will... play with those two..'
'..a game?'
'A game they both find amusing..'
'Do..do you?'
'.....no...I don't...'
'I'll go.'
'.......if you wish to Kazuki..' A pause. 'Will you be lonely?'
'..I cannot feel such things.' I answer than the scene fades and I'm back in the room with Kakyou-san hooked to the machines.
'Poor Kakyou-san..' I feel..bad again..
I stand up to leave. I'll go to bed. Than...dream of the life Kazuki lead.. before.. I shake my head and leave.
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//Kakyou//
I was a bit surprised when I heard Nataku. He felt bad for me.. I wonder why. Not like I care very much. Sweet kid. I hope he survives the Promise Day.
-Owari-
Part 2
Author's Notes: A few original characters from Kazuki's past.
--
You were my keeper
You were my anchor
You were my family
You were my savoir
And there in lays the issue
And there in the lays the problem..
-Alanis Morisette, Sympathetic Character
//Nataku//
It's that dream again. It..was a dream..wasn't it? Daddy's not here. He went with Seishirou-san to some resturant. I miss him. Seishirou-san.. and Papa.. they are becoming friends.. I don't like it. But Daddy is always right. He..cannot be wrong.. Can he?
Papa... I'm looking out the window as I watch rain pours..down.. like..like when Kanoe-san is watering plants.. I want Papa. When is he coming home? He shouldn't leave without an umbrella. He'll get wet.. Seishirou-san is older he should look after Papa. I'll yell at him when he comes home. Or not..I've never been good with telling people things..
I can only ask questions.. it's all I can do. I can answer questions but.. everyone ignores me.. They act as if I'm sick.. like how Grandmommy acted.. as if I was a disease.. as if I was contagous.. she never came with Granddaddy.. she always sent her love.
Papa would look mad than his face would soften and tell me Grandmommy didn't mean to not come this time.. or the others.. she just.. doesn't like hospitals.. than he would leave with Mommy and I could see them through the glass. He was telling her something..she merely looked tired..or..stressed..
Where's Papa? It's nearly midnight.. I would be in bed by now.. I remember how Papa would put me to bed and tell me, 'Tomorrow Kazuki.. I'll find a cure for you..' than he would leave. I felt happy than. I would get better...
But I didn't.. I died.. didn't I? Granddaddy is in the hospital now.. I put him there. I sniffle but I don't think it is from the cold. I feel..bad.. not the bad when that lady attacked me.. but.. bad in my stomach.
I want some company... where is everyone? Did-Did they forget me? They always do. Than they come back and tell me how sorry they are for forgetting me. I forgive them of course. I was used to it when I visited Auntie. She would always have some guy friend over... than leave me in a closet. 'Kids are not sexy,' she would tell me.
Daddy found out. He hit Auntie. He told her how a child should not be forgotten. I never went back. Auntie never visited.
Even now I hate closets.. Daddy says it's not something to be afraid of. I would argue but I cannot. Daddy's right..Daddy's always right.
It's so late. Where is he? Eating doesn't take this long. It's so cold in these hallways. I wonder if anyone is still up. Maybe Kakyou-san! I like Kakyou-san! He always answers my questions! He reminds me of Uncle. Uncle was just like Daddy.
I open the door and Kakyou-san is still attached to all those wires. It reminds me of sad times. Times when I couldn't breath. A time when I got so sick I had to have those wires feed me.. I shake suddenly than walk over to the bed.
'Kakyou-san?' Of course I never get an answer. Maybe he's... not in the mood to talk to me. No one ever is.
Suddenly it's all black. Kakyou-san isn't covered in wires but sitting calmly by a beach. I walk over to him with a confused look on my face.
'It's a dreamscape, Kazuki.'
'Oh..' I wasn't sure what it was..but it was very pretty.
'Your ../Daddy/ isn't coming home tonight..'
'..Why?'
'He found Kamui and Seishirou-san found Subaru.. they will... play with those two..'
'..a game?'
'A game they both find amusing..'
'Do..do you?'
'.....no...I don't...'
'I'll go.'
'.......if you wish to Kazuki..' A pause. 'Will you be lonely?'
'..I cannot feel such things.' I answer than the scene fades and I'm back in the room with Kakyou-san hooked to the machines.
'Poor Kakyou-san..' I feel..bad again..
I stand up to leave. I'll go to bed. Than...dream of the life Kazuki lead.. before.. I shake my head and leave.
-~-
//Kakyou//
I was a bit surprised when I heard Nataku. He felt bad for me.. I wonder why. Not like I care very much. Sweet kid. I hope he survives the Promise Day.
-Owari-