Again yes it's short but just wanted to get these two up here and chapter three will be longer.
Harry Potter
It's the welcome back feast and everyone around me is laughing and smiling; enjoying life and the end of dark times. I put a mask on and make them believe everything is okay. They don't need to know that on the inside I am falling apart or that I am lost. Some days it takes so much just to get myself out of bed. It's so exhausting pretending to be happy when all I want to do is cry. I just can't let them know, I can't be a burden. They all faced such hardships during the war and to come out of it still being able to smile is such an accomplishment. I just can't every time I close my eyes I hear their screams; see the light leave their eyes.
Sometimes I think about ending it all. They don't need me here anymore. I've completed my prophecy and maybe that's it. Maybe that's all I was ever needed for.
"Harry?" Looking at Neville and seeing his expression I realize I let my mask fall for a second while thinking.
"Yeah, what is it Nev?" Great I really don't want to have to put this much effort in hiding how I feel anymore and here I go again doing just that.
"Oh nothing you just looked like you were somewhere far away. Just thought I would bring you back down here with us."
"Thanks Neville just spaced out didn't get much sleep last night."
"Ron snoring?'
I can't help but laugh at that. To him it sounds like I am joining in with him on mocking Ron but really I am laughing at how if only it could be that simple. If only I was kept awake by the god awful noises that leave Ron's mouth.
"Yeah I feel sorry for Hermione one day." He laughs, I fake it and then it's done. He turns away to talk with Luna the love of his life and again I am alone. Only I feel eyes on me and with out looking around I can tell you who it is. I shouldn't be able to know what his stare feels like but after seven years of it you just know. I don't want to see him, don't want to look into the grey eyes that make my heart stop.
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